I woke up alone and it occurred to me that for someone who had spent the last five years ardently pursuing independence I was feeling annoyingly bereft of company. I had only a moment to ponder this however before I caught him in the doorway watching me. He was wearing only boxer shorts, sleep still playing around his features and I thought he did not look quite so intimidating like this.
I wondered if something had passed between us the night before and if he perhaps had felt it too. But then his eyes got harder again as he said, "my room, ten minutes." He turned around and left me glaring at the vacated door frame as if it still contained his shape.
Approximately ten minutes later, I was leaning back against the wall of his room, hands pressed between it and my back watching him warily while he deftly slipped on a pair of black suit pants and turned back to his closet.
"What kind of criminal works regular hours and wears a suit anyway?" I scowled.
He grabbed a shirt from a hanger, "The kind who went to business school."
"About that."
He looked up at me from the fingers doing up his shirt and said "I had an idea."
I waited for more but he he looked away and back at the mirror, buttoning up his shirt, "I was wrong."
"You? Wrong?"
"It's a rare occurrence, mind you," he smiled at me from the mirror.
Well at least he wasn't being vague about it, I thought and frowned at the floor.
I looked up abruptly as he glanced over his shoulder in my direction, "Strip."
My breath caught, "what?"
"You heard me."
It seemed we were moving too quickly. I was descending too fast and I could feel my mind scrabbling against it as if my body was dead weight in this deep, dark well I was plummeting into.
"No." I whispered. I could make my way back up, I thought. It would be difficult. I would not emerge unscathed but eventually I would reach the top again and take that first heady breath of freedom.
He finished adjusting his tie and turned back around to face me. His eyes almost sent my fingers fumbling for the first button of my shirt but I clenched my fists to my sides.
I stepped away from the wall and started to move toward the door. "Please Jack, you have to understand, I am not this person you want me to be."
He sounded annoyed. "Emma, I am tired of this. You are who I say you are and I say you are mine. So when I tell you to strip I expect you to remove any and all clothing immediately. Now."
He walked toward me slowly and I took a few steps backward until the backs of my knees hit the side of his bed.
I had nowhere to go and he paused in front of me before reaching out and pulling back my head by the hair. He pressed his mouth to mine bruisingly as his hand reached out and ripped open my shirt. He leaned back for a moment to observe my freed breasts and smiled. My nipples were already growing hard and I groaned in frustration as he lifted a hand and pinched one slightly.
"You have always had great breasts, Emma. Time has not been unkind to them."
"Yeah it's been a real boon." I grumbled.
Before I could even finish my sentence he'd spun me around and pressed me bent over on his bed. Another minute and he had my shorts and underwear around my ankles. He held me down as I thrashed against the bed with a hand to the back of my neck.
"Stop it Emma. You're being ridiculous."
I almost screamed at him but stopped myself, begrudgingly conceding that my behavior was coming off as rather childish. Again. God damn it. If only my attempts to reclaim my dignity were not so easily reduced to tantrums.
"Did you want to be spanked, Emma? Was that it?" His hand came crashing down on my backside and I renewed my struggle for a moment, attempting to cover my offended bottom with my hands but he brushed them aside.
"Because that could be the only explanation I can think of." His palm came down harder and I screamed into the comforter in front of me.
"You're not stupid." Again.
"So I have to think you wanted to be punished." He rained down a few more harsh cracks and the tears started to pour out again. Fuck.
"No!" I muffled into the bed. Had I wanted this? Of course not! I had only wanted to reassert my will of course. Remind him of my personhood. Right?
He ran a hand along the cleft below my heated ass and countered, "Really? Because your pussy is telling me a different story."
I whimpered in humiliation as he moved a finger in and out of me for a moment before I heard the sound of his belt buckle behind me. With little more warning than that sound he rammed inside me. I screeched as he began pounding me against his bed. I knew he meant this to be a quick fuck but I felt myself starting to build toward orgasm all the same.
I let out a small, "please."
"No, Emma. This isn't for you. You do not have permission to come."
I bit back more hated tears but attempted to control myself enough before he groaned and finished inside me, pulling back and zipping up perfunctorily.
"Now I have to change again."
He brushed a hand down my back and then through my hair.
"What are you going to do next time I give you an order?"
I sighed into the bed, "Obey, sir."
"That's right, baby. Go get cleaned up for breakfast."
I reached for my shorts but he stopped me. "No, leave those."
"But Marshall--"
"Yes?"
"He could--"
"Maybe you should have thought of that before you decided to disobey me." I swallowed and drew back my hand, "yes sir."
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Tiptoeing slowly along the hall back to my room I sighed in relief when I closed the door behind me. What the fuck was that? Breath Emma, I thought. I got in the shower and started to wash him from me slowly, enjoying the soft caress of the water against my overheated skin.
Before I made my way back outside into his palpable domain, I somehow managed to compose myself. No small feat as I pushed open the door and felt the cool air claim me on the other side.
Marshall was making omelets and glanced up when I entered. I sat down on one of the stools at the counter and he placed one in front of me. There was no need for ceremony in front of Marshall.
Pulling a knee up to my chest, I picked at the eggs and cheese in front of me.
"I'm afraid I'm losing myself in him, Marshall."