I've uploaded two chapters to Literotica [one waiting to be accepted] of a story called Carol cum Coral, but something was tickling around the edges of my mind. I wondered how the story just popped into my head. I recalled that I had written stories in the past just to put my fantasies into words. I searched my external HD for a file called 'unsubmitted stories', I was surprised at just how many fantasy-generated stories I had written - about ten years ago - clamoring to see the light of day. I had called one such story: "From Top to Bottom" - Aha - the very story that caused me to write the one I just started to upload to Literotica.
From Top to Bottom
Several months ago, I entered my profile into a matchmaking site and met a guy named Arlen. Unfortunately, I lied about my appearance in my profile. Well, not exactly lied but fudged a little. I said I was thinner than I am - about fifteen or twenty pounds thinner. I used to be slimmer but now my butt and belly have extra poundage.
Arlen wasn't too happy when we met, but I told him I'd lose that extra weight. I promised that because I believed he was the guy for me. He asked me what else I'd lied about. I had to admit that I'm thirty-one, not twenty-five as I said in my profile. Of course, that is evident in person.
I've been seeing him for about six weeks, but I've noticed that he's been looking at other women. When I confronted him, he said he'd also been looking on the matchmaking site for a slimmer girl.
I panicked and asked what I could do to keep his attention. Our sex life is fine for me, but evidently not enough for him. I've tried everything I can think of to please him sexually even swallowing his cum which I'd never done before. The only line I drew was anal sex although I've let him stick his finger in my anus.
He said our sex was too vanilla, and he wanted more spice in sex. I asked what more could I do, and he said he wanted threesomes.
NO! I am not going to have sex with another woman. When I think of what comes out of my own vagina - fluids, juices, discharges - I definitely am not going to put my mouth on another woman's vagina. NO! NO! NO! It's bad enough that I taste my own juices when he insists on pussy to mouth sex and when I suck him clean after intercourse.
As the weeks passed, he withdrew more and more and I knew he was just about to leave me. I thought I'd better think twice about having threesomes, or he would find someone else who would.
I started watching and reading lesbian and threesome porn. The more I found out about it, the more I knew it would make me throw up if I did what they do. NO! I won't do it. I made it perfectly clear to Arlen that I was NOT going down on another woman.
Saturday night, I gave Arlen as good a blow job as I could and made a big show of swallowing. I asked if he would lick me, but being a male chauvinist, he said that it's up to women to give oral sex - to men and other women. We discussed it rather calmly - screaming at one another - and our 'discussion' ended up in him walking out.
Two weeks went by and I missed having him in my bed on weekends. I was so miserable that I knew I had to bend, or I'd never see him again. It was evident that he only wanted sex from me and wasn't interested in a committed relationship.
Finally, I swallowed my pride and called him. I agreed to do whatever he asked if he'd come back. At first, he said no but then agreed to see me as long as I did as he asked. He wanted me to agree to be his sex slave so that I could never say no to anything sexual. At that point, I wasn't thinking clearly and said I would be his sex toy. I didn't like the word 'slave'. He said I had to use the word slave or he wasn't interested. Of course, I gave in. I'm ashamed, but I had no choice except to lose him.
I reminded him that I dreaded having to go down on a woman and that I thought that female fluids were disgusting. He said that was not a problem as I could be trained to not only accept female juice but enjoy ingesting them. I felt like puking.
He told me that we'd have a ceremony where I'd give myself to him and swear complete sexual obedience. He gave me a mantra that I was to repeat whenever we got together and had me write it down and memorize it.
Arlen said he'd see me on Saturday evening. If I were still willing to be his sex slave, I'd be nude when he arrived. I did as he asked and undressed before he got to my townhouse. I opened and stood behind the door to let him in, but he stayed outside. He told me to stand in the doorway - naked - before he'd come in. Luckily, I live on a cul-de-sac and there was no traffic or even neighbors outside. I was terribly embarrassed but sort of excited too. I stepped from behind the door and in front of the open doorway. Arlen moved aside, so as to not block the view of my nudity to whoever might look my way. I stood there so embarrassed that I'm certain my face was bright red but I remained there until Arlen moved behind me. He told me to take steps to the grass, spread my legs, and pee on the ground. I could have died from humiliation, but a thrill of excitement coursed through my body. Strangely, I wanted to stay there exposing myself to the world.
When Arlen said it was okay to come in, I felt a pang of disappointment.
When Arlen closed the door, I tried to kiss him, but he held me away and told me to kneel and repeat the mantra: "I give myself to you as your complete sex slave and I'll obey any suggestion, request, or demand that I'm given and will perform it without question, reticence, reservation, reluctance, hesitation, fuss, complaint, resistance, argument, or moodiness."
I knelt, cupped my breasts as if I were offering them up to him, and repeated the mantra. I had memorized it but still stumbled over parts that were humiliating. He had me write out a contract that stated exactly what my new status was including penalties for failure to abide by the terms of the contract.
He reminded me that now he owned me and that we weren't playing games. I couldn't pick and choose what I was willing to do but had to comply no matter how I felt about given order. Actually, that was fairly acceptable as then I wouldn't be responsible for whatever he had me do at his whim. I had no choice but to do his bidding. That would ease my conscience somewhat. I was still nervous and frightened as I knew that this would entail other women.
I had never had thoughts about other women sexually except for thinking that this or that woman was attractive. I said I was frightened - NO - terrified of what I might - NO - would have to do sexually with other women. Of course, I had second thoughts about giving myself over to Arlen, but it was too late; I had already signed the contract.
He told me that, in the future, instead of repeating the same mantra each time that I was to kneel and say, "I'm your cunt sucking fuck slut to use as you see fit." My eyesight blurred and my ears were ringing. I thought I was going to pass out, but I finally managed to get hold of my emotions and nodded yes. He told me to repeat the mantra over and over until he was satisfied.