Author's Note: Thanks for the comments everyone. Hopefully everyone will like the direction the story is going. More chapters with more action will be coming soon.
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Saturday morning finally came. A day off from everything, from school, from blackmail, from having to masturbate in class. I let out a deep breath before swinging my legs off the bed and getting up. I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror. "Everything is going to be fine," I said to myself before putting the towel down and heading downstairs.
I made myself a coffee and read the news on my phone as I waited for Emma and Sam to finally rise from their sleep. I didn't have anything planned for the day, but who knows with them. My mind tried to focus on what I was doing, the news, the coffee, relaxing. I could feel the sun through the window, warming me up.
Eventually I couldn't wait any longer and had to start my day. I made some cereal, cleaned up and went to my room to shower. I slipped off my clothes and closed the door behind me as I felt the hot water stream down my body. It felt nice, the warmth making me relax not just my body but also my mind. I started to think about things again, things I shouldn't have. My mind went to Emma and her instagram account, her pictures, how she was posing and how she was dressed. She looked so sexy, so hot, so slutty. I couldn't believe how she was liking the comments people left for her, calling her a slut, saying they wanted to fuck her. I just couldn't believe the whole situation. Sometime during these thoughts I started getting turned on, and before I knew it my hand was on my pussy slowly rubbing it. "Mmmmmm," I moaned under the sound of the water.
Once I realized what was happening, what I was doing, masturbating to the thought of my daughter, I quickly pulled my hand way. I could feel my face blush, not from the hot water, but from extreme shame and embarrassment. How could I think like this? My mind was turning against me. I quickly washed my hair and body, rinsed, and got out of the shower. I threw my bathrobe around me but before tying it up I caught a glimpse of my body in the mirror. The little bit of hair just above my pussy glistened with water, I didn't need Emma to get turned on, just seeing my pussy gape open turned me on. My palm came down and gave it a little slap as I followed it up by tying my robe in place and walking to my room.
After drying myself off, doing my hair and some light make up I got ready to go out. Panties, tight jeans, bra, t-shirt tucked in the front. I looked like a regular 34 year old about to go out for the day, and that was exactly what I was going to do. As I made my way downstairs and to the front hall there was no sign of Emma or Sam, so I assumed they were still sleeping. I bent over and put on a pair of sneakers and headed out.
For the next few hours I spent time at the mall and a few other stores, retail therapy was exactly what I needed. As I moved through the stores I saw a few students from school, we avoided each other as expected, but just seeing them made my thoughts turn back to the week behind me. Everytime it happened I had to fight myself to get back on track, back to relaxing, back to thinking about how to get my life in order again.
After a couple of hours, I took a break and stopped at a local starbucks. I ordered my regular, a drink with way too many options, and sat down, a feeling of dread over me. No matter how hard I tried to stay relaxed, to keep my mind off of the blackmail, I just always came back to those same thoughts.
"Hey! Madison!" I heard from ahead of me, my head lifted and I saw my friend Beth walking towards me, coffee in hand.
"Hey Beth," I said back, trying to hide my mood, but also not feeling like talking to anyone right now.
"How are you doing? I haven't seen you in a while," Beth asked as she sat down, not even asking if it was OK.
"Oh, I'm OK, how are you?" I asked back politely.
"I'm good... but you seem... are you sure you're OK?" she asked back, it was obvious, I guess, that I wasn't exactly myself.
"No, I'm good, just a little tired and worn out," my response was unenthusiastic.
"Ya, I guess getting back into the swing of things with classes can take it out of you," was her response, I nodded in agreement, yes, that was exactly the reason I thought.
For the next 20 minutes we chatted about this and that, nothing of importance, but it was nice. It felt good to really talk to someone and the more we talked the better I felt. Part of me just wanted to blurt out "I'm being blackmailed!" and talk to her about it, but I knew I couldn't, not if I wanted me life to stay the way it was. As our conversation ended we hugged and agreed we would have to get together again soon. I sat back down in my chair and smiled. Maybe life could be OK, maybe I could compartmentalize things, the shitty and the good, the fucked up and the normal.
For the rest of the day I went to a few more stores, got my nails done, and generally just lounged my way around town. I texted Emma and Sam on my way home with the same question, "what do you want for dinner?" I never knew who would reply so I always texted both. Of course I received two different replies.
"Sushi!" from Emma.
"Indian!" from Sam.