So people have said they wanted to "hear" Jen's side of it, her thought process. I thought about it, and thought it would be a good thing to do leading into the next part of the story (the end of this chapter).
This should be easy. Copy and paste...right? Wrong. Copy & Paste, re-edit pronouns, point of view, add Jen's thoughts...oh boy.
It took longer than I thought and is longer than my norm since it covers multiple chapters in a re-cap.
I hope you enjoy. As always good, bad or indifferent I love the feedback.
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I am so excited. I finally got an interview for my company's Management Training Program. I work for a regional supermarket, and I have a chance to get out of the store I work in, and work in the corporate office. Not only is it an office job, but it pays more too. That I desperately need to send my daughter to college this coming school year and my son 2 years after that.
My deadbeat husband took off shortly after my son was born and has never been heard from. My lawyer couldn't find him for the divorce. He has just disappeared, leaving me to raise two kids with no help or child support. It has been a very difficult 15 odd years. If I hadn't inherited my Mom's house when she passed just before my son was born we would be homeless. As it is we are paycheck to paycheck, sometimes robbing Peter to pay Paul.
I could certainly use the extra money. A job in an office, not on my feet 8+ hours a day wouldn't hurt either. I have one professional outfit that is a tad snug. It's older and with age I hate to say I have gotten a tad bustier. I used to be a B-C. Now I am definitely a C with a little sag. The blazer fits but if buttoned it's snug. It will have to do with a skirt and blouse.
I arrive at the interview and realize I am out of my depth for what they want. I recognize some of the software they are talking about, but have very little experience with the programs. I am meeting with an HR guy named Carl.
He seems nice enough, probably 10-15 years older than me. I would say 50 plus or minus a couple of years. I think he knows I don't have what it takes for the job.
I look across the table. "Carl, I really need this. My daughter is starting college. My son will be in 2 years, loans and grants still leave a lot to be paid. I can't let my kids down. I will work harder than anyone. I will start at the bottom, and do anything."
Carl looks at me. "Jennifer, I just don't think you are qualified."
I want to cry. "Carl, please I am begging."
Carl looks at me oddly. "You are BEGGING me to do ANYTHING to get this job?"
Oh my god, is he serious? Is this really happening?.
"Jen, thank you for your time. We will let you know our decision."
I can't believe this. "Wait."
Carl walks to me and shakes my hand. "I will be at the Marriott bar at 5pm should you change your mind." and he walks out.
My mind is reeling . I can't believe he said that. What's worse is I said Wait and part of me is thinking about it. I sit there for I don't know how long until the receptionist comes in asking if I need anything. I gather up my things and leave.
As luck would have it as I get in my car and the Marriot sign is staring me in the face from down the road. Again I just sit and stare. I was asked to trade sex for a job. Granted a better job than what I have now. Better pay, benefits, hours and working conditions. I can't prostitute myself for a job. Oh stop being naive Jen. Women have been doing it since the dawn of time.
You would be paying a small price to give your kids a better future. Oh my beautiful girl. She is a beautiful young lady now. My baby boy, he hates that I still call him that at sixteen. He is a young man now. I don't want them to have the hard life I had. I want better for them.
Jesus Christ am I really talking myself into this? I mean on the one hand I haven't had sex in a long long time. A bad one night stand at my cousin's wedding, and once years before that with a guy I dated for about a month when the kids were just babies.
God I need sex.
I realize I am pulling into the Marriott parking lot. Ok it's for your babies. Every parent says they will do anything for their babies. Well I guess it's time to do anything.
I walk into the bar just a few minutes early. I stop in the doorway and look for Carl. I almost scream as I get goosed. Carl is now standing beside me
"Why Jennifer whatever a pretty woman like you doing in a hotel bar after work hours in the middle of the work week?" He asks. "I insist you join me for a drink." He takes my arm and escorts me to a table.
The waitress comes right over and before you know it we have two drinks. He sips his drink and looks at me smiling and says. "So I am guessing you want to take me up on the 'I am begging and I will do anything' offer."
"I am not sure I can do Anything." I answer him.
He pulls out his wallet. "Well it was nice running into you and having a drink Jen."
I Have to do this for my babies. "Wait. I can do anything for my kids, but I need some clarification. What exactly are you asking or expecting?"
He just stares at me. "Once or twice a month at my discretion, for a few minutes to a few hours each time again at my discretion you will be my plaything. No saying no. I want to do something, you do it. I will promise you I will never put our jobs or reputations at risk. I might have you come to my office at 5p on a Friday but never in the middle of the day. I will promise to watch over your corporate progress. I will take you under my wing if you will. To start it will be a 50% pay increase and better benefits then you have now."
"I need clarification on plaything." I tell him.
Catl glares at me. "When I want. Where I want. Oral, anal, pussy, threesome, orgy or Bondage. Does that cover it?"
Oh my god. He doesn't just want sex. He wants me to agree to be his on demand toy. Oh god.
"I need an answer or I am leaving." He says.
I can believe this. I can't say it. I can't. "Ok nice to see you and I get up."
"No, I will do it." Oh my god I said it. Can I really do this?
Carl sits and looks at me like he is studying me. "I am not sure I believe you. I need a show of good faith right now. I will get a room and you will go upstairs with me now or the deal is off." He says.
Oh shit. Right here and now? Oh god. "Ok." What am I doing? Did I really say that?
He drops money on the table and gets up. "Let's go." He puts his arm out and we walk out arm in arm. He puts a $20 in my hand "Go get some sex lube. You are going to need it I think." He gooses my ass, and walks to the check in desk.
I am in the store and I find some lube by the condoms. Oh god condoms? He said lube. He must have some. I get the lube and the young lady smiles at me. "I hope you enjoy it...your stay in the hotel that is" with a small smile. The little bitch. I just walk out. I meet him at the desk. He puts his hand right on my ass and steers me to the elevator. We ride up in silence.
We walk into the room. He takes off hus suit coat and puts it over a chair and sits on the sofa.
"Let's see what I am working with here. Strip!" Carl says with a little tone in his voice.
I stand against the opposite wall from him, and I take off my blazer. He pushes the coffee table aside, and kicks off his shoes. "Come stand right here." As he points to the floor in front of him. "I want an up close and personal look." He is getting a mean smile on his face. He is making me nervous.