It had been three months since we first started seeing each other and we still had not had sex. I was a virgin and I was scared. Some may say that it was understandable that he went and found sex elsewhere but I could never forgive him. We broke up over it and that was that...or so I thought.
A couple of weeks down the line, I started to receive texts from him. At first they were apologetic and pleading but they soon started to become nasty. From "I'm so sorry" to "It was your own fault, frigid bitch." I changed my phone number and told my flatmate to ignore him if he came to the door. That was not enough. One weekend, when my flatmate had gone to visit her family, my life changed forever.
I was sitting in the living room watching TV when I heard the front door open. I had forgotten to lock it and in he marched straight over to me. I was so shocked; I was speechless. Without a word, he pushed me down on the sofa and tried to kiss me. I soon came to my senses however and began to kick and punch him away. I began to scream and startled by this, he left the house hurriedly.
I was still shook up when night time came. I checked and double-checked that all the doors were locked, that there was no way in. Relatively secure in this knowledge, I went to bed and slept.
When I awoke, I was freezing cold. I attempted to move to find my duvet but found that I was unable to do so. My arms and legs had been tied to the four corners of my bed. Panicking now, I attempted to see through the darkness. I sensed movement to my left and began to scream. Some sort of material was shoved into my mouth to quieten me and I heard the scratch of the tape rip off its roll and onto my face.
A lamp was switched on and I was confronted with a balaclava'd face. I knew who it was though and it sickened me to my stomach. I desperately tried to squirm and wriggle my way out of the ties but they were too tight. As I was doing so, I heard a deep chuckle.
He moved towards me and began to fondle my breasts. I tried and tried to escape his touch but it was useless. I was helpless. My nipples, already erect from the cold began to ache with their hardness. I could not help but moan when he took one in his mouth and began to spiral his tongue across it. My breathing became deeper and I began to forget myself. At the back my mind a voice was screaming "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? STOP ENJOYING IT AND ESCAPE!" I began once again to try and loosen my ties but it was no use.
I let myself go limp and tried not to respond to his delicious touches. I pretended to myself that I had fainted and could therefore not feel anything. I was wrong to do this. It angered him.
"Look. We can do this the easy way or the hard way. I could make this very painful for you. You do want me, I know you do. You just won't admit it."