Today I did it.
I felt like a part of me died when I made my mind steel. There was no battle, no struggle and no mourning. No restraint. I decided what I was going to do, and I didn't look back. Countless times, I have thought of it. Not once had I the brute determination that I found in myself.
She was mine.
This passion seemed doomed to the physical, not once was a thread of love in her eyes, the same thread that devoured me. The same that bound me. You think I did out of desperation. I did out of love. I knew full well there was no other way from the first instance I met her presence. Shy locks of long hair, eyes concealed in a permanent gaze of introspection - she had a smile I don't deserve. All mine now. You might say I'll never have what I wanted; only time will tell.
There she was, lying on her side. Hands behind her back, an angel in her sleep. There was many hours before she woke, in those hours I lost myself in her. Every detail was perfect. Every bit as full of life as any girl could be. Silent, but all I could hear was song, gentle in my ears. There she lied, every movement I possessed her, it felt less real. I wanted her. Now. But I waited.
I waited until she opened her eyes. I felt the same spark as the first, I reveled in the thought that her life will never be the same again. Who'd have thought I would become the most influential man of her life?
Her life was gone forever down my path, no going back now. If I'd ever let her go, she'd seen me, and so I'd never be able to see her again. I'm not one for dirty tricks and blackmail - she's too perfect to fall for such stupid methods of manipulation, anyway.
Wide eyed, she spoke, "You?" She felt her ties, I saw it in her eyes, glimmering in unwept tears.