The rest of the weekend was a blurry haze of regret, anger and self loathing. Kevin noticed I wasn't myself and asked a few times if I was okay. I tried to play it off that I was okay and maybe under the weather a bit.
It wasn't exactly a lie. The thought of what happened, what I let Marcus do made me sick to my stomach. I couldn't believe I allowed him to touch me, to taste me, to be inside of me.
The feelings got even worse on Monday. I had a feeling of dread the entire day. I was horrified at the thought of Marcus tormenting Kevin with what happened.
When I heard Kevin come home, I swear my heart stopped. I had to fight the urge to rush to him to see what happened. I knew I had to act like every other day. The two glasses of wine helped with that.
I nearly broke down in tears when Kevin acted perfectly normal. He said his day was good. Still no return to the harassment or tormenting by Marcus and his friends.
When he went downstairs to his room, I let out a long sigh. I had another glass of wine to celebrate dodging such a big bullet.
My feelings of relief evaporated soon after. I knew Marcus to say something to Kevin at any time in the future. Plus, there was the bigger problem of Marcus coming over on Saturday.
I thought of a number of ways to try to stop his coming over from happening. I thought of asking Kevin to tell Marcus not to come, but I was scared of what Marcus would say in return.
I thought of calling the school to get Marcus's phone number. I put that thought out of my head as well. It was highly doubtful the school would give me his phone number and how would I explain why I needed it?
The other thought I had was going to the school and telling him in person. Again, this was not a good idea. It would raise questions from the other students as well as Marcus's friends. And I was terrified of what he would say.
After hours of agonizing thought, I decided the safest course of action was to wait till he got here and send him home. Doing this reduced the public issues. Plus, I could tell him not to say anything.
Friday was the worse day of the week. I was a wreck all day. Constant worrying and fear kept me from doing anything. By mid afternoon I was so uptight, I nearly jumped out of my skin when Kevin walked in the door.
We had a fairly quiet dinner before Kevin went downstairs. I had a glass of wine before dinner, during dinner, and one while cleaning up. I was starting to feel a little tipsy on the fourth glass. It was helping to calm me down and to relax.
I decided to have a hot bath and just soak in the tub. I ran the water and crawled in, bring another glass of wine with me. I just laid back and relax to the point of nearly falling asleep.
When I realized how tired I was, I decided to get out and climb into bed. I hadn't gotten much sleep this last week and was mentally and physically exhausted.
Just as I was about to climb out, I realized I should probably shave my legs. I hadn't done so in a week, and I do like the feeling of being freshly shaved. I knew it wasn't the best idea to shave while tipsy, but I wasn't thinking clearly.
I lathered up my legs and got to work. I took my time, not only to do thorough job, but to careful not to cut myself. It took a lot longer than normal. The water was starting to get cool.
When I finished, I pulled the drain plug as I stood up. I grabbed the shower head off the hanger and proceeded to water down and wipe my legs. I then turned to clean the tub.
I noticed there was a lot more hair than normal, not just the stubble from my legs. I didn't think anything of it before toweling off.
I put on my robe and went to the kitchen. I grabbed a glass and filled it with water before grabbing some Advil. I drank a lot more than I normally do and didn't want a hangover.
I hadn't used this hangover prevention since college. The thought made me smile and giggle as I walked back to my bedroom. I dropped my robe and climbed into bed.
I had the first good sleep in a week. I woke up refreshed. As I was contentedly laying there, I realized it was Saturday and Marcus would be arriving soon.
Instantly my anxiety spiked and my stomach turned in knots. I tried to calm myself by saying nothing would happen, that I would send him home as soon as he arrived.
It helped a bit but not very much. I decided laying in bed wasn't going to happen, so I got out and headed for the shower.
When I reached in to turn on the water, I was surprised by the amount of hair still in the tube. I had no idea where it came from. Plus, I thought I had rinsed out the tube after my bath like normal.
I climbed into the shower, grabbed the soap and started to wash. I did my arms, chest, and stomach. When my hands went lower, I realized where all the hair had come from.
I quickly bent over and looked down. I saw that during the bath last night I didn't just shave my legs, but I also shaved my lady bits.
I quickly rinsed myself off and jumped out of the shower. I was still using the towel to dry off as I quickly walked to the full-length closet mirror I had. I held my breath as I moved the towel away to see what I had done.
Sure enough, I had shaved it all off. It was normal for me to groom down there, so it wasn't like it was the Amazon rainforest or anything. I never had gone completely bald.
I stared down at it, wondering why I had done it. I knew I was drunk and all but didn't expect this. As I looked at it, I had to admit I did like the view.
A knock on the front door startled me back to reality. I looked over at the clock. It was that time for Marcus to arrive.
"Shit!" I said as I grabbed the dress that was laying on the top of my clothes in the laundry basket. I quickly started to do it up.
When have the buttons were done up, I remembered it was Marcus who told me to shave down there. I froze in place. I am an idiot I thought.
The doorbell rang and I quickly did the rest of the buttons up and started to the front door. At least I would be sending Marcus home right away. At least he would never know I shaved.
I resumed doing up the button s on my dress until I realized Marcus told me to wear this dress again. I was about to grab something else to wear when the doorbell went off.
"Damn it!" I said and did up the rest of the buttons. I needed to get to the door before Kevin so I could send Marcus home.