I woke the next day with a raging hard on. The vision of Miss Simpson from the night before haunted my dreams. My poor cock was straining it was so hard. I touched it and stroked it only a few times before I exploded all over myself. I got up quickly to jump in the shower. This girl, no woman, had me under her spell. I was supposed to be the one in control but in reality it was her. She had me in such turmoil I found myself thinking of doing things I had never dreamed of.
I had always been a respectable man, I was a good father and I had a lovely daughter. But here I was blackmailing a young woman and entertaining incestuous thoughts about my sister. What was happening to me? Was she right? Had I turned into a sick, cruel, man? This made me feel sadness as I stood in the shower. I loved Susie and I wanted nothing more than to be a good father and watch her grow up into a lovely young lady. What would she think if she found out what I was doing? How would I explain it to her? Was there an explanation?
I got out of the shower a different man than when I got in. I felt embarrassed and a little ashamed at what I had done. How could I stop? Did I want to stop? Was I really an honorable man or the pervert that Miss Simpson described in her letter? I dressed slowly and glanced at the clock. Crap, it was late; I had to get Susie up for school. I ran into her room and jostled her awake. She rolled over with sleepy eyes and looked up at me.
"Good morning, daddy." She said in a small, sweet voice.
My heart broke. There was no explanation! There was no excuse for my behavior other than taking advantage of a situation for my own sick pleasure.
"It's time to get up, sweetie." I said.
"Ok, daddy," She replied and sat up.
She was beautiful; her face was incredibly pretty even just waking up. Her hair was a mess, hanging all over her shoulders. I looked at her and the only thought that ran through my mind was what I would think if someone did to her what I was doing to Miss Simpson. I knew immediately what I had to do. I stood up and left Susie's room as she was crawling out of bed.
I ran to my den and sat down to write out Miss Simpson's next "assignment". After I finished I went into the kitchen to make breakfast for Susie. I felt a huge sense of relief. My heart was much lighter and I felt great. I was almost done when I heard Susie bouncing down the stairs.
"Daddy, I'm starved." She said and grabbed a glass for milk.
"Almost done, Susie bird, Do you have everything together for school?" I asked.
"Yes, daddy, I'm ready." She said and sat down drinking her milk.
We sat and talked over breakfast and then gathered our things to go. I drove her to school and pulled into the parking lot.
"Daddy, are you coming to school today?" she teased when she saw me drive past the dropoff point.
"Yes, Susie bird, I have to deliver something to Miss Simpson." I answered.
"Oh, is it a present, daddy?" she asked in a teasing voice.
"As a matter of fact, baby, it is." I said.
She smiled big at me and jumped out of the car. She didn't realize how big of a present it was. I got out and followed Susie into the school. We got in and I kissed her goodbye. She ran off to the cafeteria and I started walking towards Miss Simpson's room. I arrived and looked in. She was sitting at her desk working on something. She was absolutely lovely. Her hair was in a ponytail with small wisps around her ears. She was wearing a short black skirt with dark hose and a light blue blouse. I could see one beautiful thigh as her legs were crossed at her desk.
I knocked softly on the door and she looked up at me. I could see her expression fade as she saw me. I walked in slowly as she put her head back down to her work.
"Miss Simpson, I have something for you." I said.
She raised her head slowly and I could see anger in her eyes.
"Must you invade my classroom too?" she said.
I just held out an envelope to her. She looked at me and took it and placed it on her desk.
"Please read it now." I asked.
She looked back at me with a confused look and picked up the envelope. She opened it and took out the paper. I watched as she opened it and started reading. I knew what she was reading word for word as I had memorized it while writing it.
Dear Miss Simpson,
I am going to begin this letter with the most basic of statements. I am dreadfully sorry for what I have put you through. I cannot explain my actions other than it was a result of weakness. I will not complicate your life anymore and I hope one day you can see it in your heart to forgive an old fool for a huge mistake.
I respect you greatly as a teacher and I am happy Susie is in your classroom. She loves you and I am truly impressed how you have maintained your professionalism as I was putting you through that horrible ordeal.
You can be assured that your secret and any of the actions of the last week are safe with me and I will never reveal them to anyone.
Again, I am dreadfully sorry and I hope I did not do any permanent damage.
Mr Mender.
I watched her face closely as she read and I tried to figure out her reaction. I did not know what I was expecting or hoping for. I knew she would not reveal our actions as her original secret could still be damaging. I know deep down I wanted her to forgive me but I knew realistically this was not going to happen.
She finished reading the letter and looked up at me. I could see she had tears in her eyes. She cleared her throat and spoke.
"Thank you." Was all she said.
I looked at her and my only thought was that she was incredibly beautiful and I was again ashamed that I ever caused this beautiful creature any pain. I turned in my embarrassment and walked out of her room.
I spent a useless day at work. I could not concentrate as I thought about her face with her eyes glassy with tears. I went through my day and thankfully did not create any problems for anyone else. I drove home in silence as I didn't even think to turn on the radio. I was sitting in silence in my chair when Susie burst through the door and jumped in my lap.
"Daddy, daddy, Miss Simpson must have liked your present. She was very happy today and we had a great day." Susie said as she sat on my lap.
I felt my heart jump with the news and I could not contain my smile as it spread across my face.
"Do you like her daddy?" Susie asked.
"Very much, baby, very much." I said.
Susie jumped off my lap and took off to her room. I could hear her saying something about homework as she raced off. I sat in my chair and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest. At least she was happy, maybe not with me, but at least happy.
I got up and went into the kitchen to start thinking about dinner. I was scrounging around in the refrigerator when I heard the phone ring. I answered it and immediately recognized her voice.
"Mr. Mender, this is Miss Simpson." The small voice said.
"Hello, Miss Simpson." I answered.
"You have to come over here, please. You have to come at 7:00 tonight. I can't explain, just please tell me that you can come." She said.
"Of course, but what ...." Was all I could get out before I heard her hang up.
I stood there, holding the phone, wondering what could be going on. I hung the phone up slowly and my mind was flying. I looked at the clock and it was 4:30. Why did she say 7:00? How was I going to get through the next 2 ½ hours? I tried to clear my mind as I tried to come up with an idea for supper.
Susie and I ate together with me just listening to her bubble about her day. I did not say anything but just sat there and watched her. She was so full of life and happy. How could I have ever done anything to threaten that? I was a fool.
We finished supper and I called my sister to get the last-minute babysitter again. She of course gave me a load of grief but showed up faithfully at 6:30 to sit with Susie. I was proud of myself when she showed up again in tight jeans but my mind did not think of anything sexual as I looked at her. Maybe I would be fine.
I drove over to Miss Simpson's house and I was incredibly nervous. What was going on? I could not imagine that she would be inviting me over at all after my stupidity, and surely not the next evening. I pulled into her driveway and took a deep breath. I walked up to her door and knocked.