The water hit my skin, and I was immediately awake. He had the shower set on scalding! "Whoa! Too hot!" I yelled.
He began to chuckle. "I tried to say no."
Slowly, carefully, he laid me on the floor of the shower. It wasn't so hot down here. βJust warm and wet. It would have comfortable if it wasn't so hard.
He was blocking me from getting hit directly by the shower stream, and his pants were getting soaked in the process.
"You're ruining your nice pants," I pointed out.
"Heaven forbid," he said, unzipping and pulling them down. He appeared to be wearing silk boxers underneath.
It suddenly occurred to me that I was completely naked. I wondered how I looked. Did he still want me like he had before he gotten that damn bra off?
The boxers came off. Well, the sight of me naked hadn't been a deal-breaking turn off obviously. I had never seen a naked man up close before and it suddenly occurred to me that this was a lot like a 3D movie. I giggled nervously.
He paused. "I'll have you know I'm quite impressive, Virgin. This guy is anything but laughable."
I propped myself up on my elbows. "I'm sorry. I'm getting confused. This. That. The logistics." I had always thought of tampons as being pretty invasive. This wasn't even going to work. How silly we had been getting all worked up, with his attack and my defense and all the foreplay β when this clearly was not physically possible.
He crouched between my legs before putting his hands out and getting into a pushup position above me. βThis was startling. His movement was too quick, and then the shower water came over him, hitting me straight on for the moment before he shielded me with his body once again. His chest touched mine and he kissed my nose. Then he put his knees on the floor and knocked my thighs a bit further apart.
"Wait, wait wait wait. Michael, no." I put my hand on his chest. "You're too big. This isn't going to work." Water still sprayed me in the face here and there.
He took my hand away and kissed me, deeply. He pushed me down back to the ground, then pulled both my hands above my head. He held them in one hand, then messaged my breast as he continued to kiss me.
I melted into him, my brain leaving the building. Then, he moved, and his hardness moved on my leg, reminding me of his plans.
"Michael," I tried to say, my mouth full of his tongue. I pulled away. "Michael." I moved my arms, trying to get out of his grip β but they didn't move.
"Yes, Jane?" he replied, but looking into his eyes it was like he wasn't even there. Or he was, but he was looking back at some other Jane, someone so deep inside me she was in another universe.
"I'm not ready," I blurted. "I want you. I want you to be the one. But, I'm not ready. Not yet. I think I remember reading about exercises... And we should date."
"We will," he said, kissing me again. "I'll take you everywhere." He kissed me again. "I'll show you everything." He kissed me again. "You'll be wife someday." He kissed me especially long and hard then. I felt myself relax in his hands. Michael wanted to marry me. The man of my dreams wanted to marry me. My friends were going to be so jealous!
"But tonight, I'm making you mine."
My eyes opened. Now he was looking at me, not with that far off look, but with math and numbers in his eyes. His face had gone business. βLike he was striking a deal. I shook my head. I was having trouble breathing. There were tears in my eyes β or maybe water from the shower. "I'm not ready, Michael. Don't hurt me."