Er... what? He had pulled his shirt over his head and then... did some arm stretches. My jaw dropped. I had seen him naked last night, but I had been pretty drunk, tired, and the lighting was not what it was now. Somehow I had missed how thick and perfectly sculpted his arms were.
He turned as he folded his shirt carefully, revealing the hard lines of muscle in his back. The gag in my mouth soaked up the drool. But my eyes were wide enough that when he sneaked a glance at me, he smiled and struck a little pose. βThough he shyly stopped almost immediately.
When did this guy have time to work out? We worked in pretty much the same place, pretty much same hours. I spent plenty of free time at the gym, but not enough time to diminish the chub, just enough time to keep from breathing too hard when I had to used the stairs. But that was my life. -Work, work, work, gym, sleep, work.
Michael on the other hand, I knew had a social life. He was always caught at some restaurant surrounded by young hot nobodies who wanted a picture and ended up getting in his car with him at the end of the night. I assumed he had a crazy playboy sex life β maybe that's where the calories went.
He slid out of his pants. Oh shit!
That's right.
That's why nothing happened last night.
I'm not one of those people who can approximate measure offhand just looking at a thing. And I don't know what's average for a dude. Michael's the only guy I've seen naked in person.
But I've seen statues.
And sure β I've taken the free tours of a few naked man sites online. Give me a break, I'm a virgin who's about to be thirty any minute. So I've looked.
So I thought I had an idea of what's normal.
Michael was not normal. Or maybe he was? But the dimensions were off. Tampons freaking hurt. I can't even get the jumbo size tampons in.
He sneaked another look at me as he folded his pants.
I looked at him, eyes wide, and shook my head. Now he turned toward me, regarding me curiously.
"Are you really that scared?" he asked.
I nodded my head.
"Why?"
I tried to answer, "That thing, there!" It didn't come through the gag so well, but I think he understood me.
"You're afraid it will hurt."
I tried rolling the gag around in my mouth to get better sound out. "I'm afraid it won't work." I think only "afraid," "won't," and "work," were discernible.
Michael's jaw dropped. "It'll work! Believe me, baby β this guy always works." He thought I was worried he'd be dysfunctional!
I shook my head vigorously in exasperation. "No! Won't fit!"
"Don't start choking again!" he admonished. Last night he tried stuffing a handkerchief in my mouth and almost killed me. I suppose he put a little more thought into his plan today. I rolled my eyes at him.
He began playing with my breast. "You said you wanted me, Jane. You said I was the one. But you're rejecting me now because you're afraid of something new."
No, I was rejecting him because of something huge. And not rejecting him β not really. I just, this was all going so fast, and I was not ready. And oh my β he put his mouth on my breast.
Oh Michael.
One hand toyed with the unmouthed breast, but I began to feel the fingers of his other hand trailing down the length my body, scraping through the hair down there, and then...
Touching things that shouldn't be touched, things only I had touched up until last night when he almost took me for his own.
Both his hands seemed to be doing the same thing, but in very different areas. Circles. Pinching. Massaging.
Oh, things were building up down below, and I wanted more, but no β this wasn't going to work. I couldn't take it. I closed my eyes and turned away, trying to work my arms free. I tried my legs; they were tied down pretty well too. βThen his hand moved to my thigh, stilling my attempts at kicks with firm, unmovable pressure.
"Settle down, Jane," he said. He began to crawl onto the bed, straddling one of my legs. Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap. He was going to do this. He looked down at me, all muscle and hard eyes. He reached for the gag, saying, "Don't scream," and it occurred to me I hadn't screamed β not yet. I could. I didn't want to draw attention to myself, but that was what rape victims, er, forceful seduction victims did, right? Scream?
He didn't take the gag off. He loosened it, pulling the drool-soaked thing out of my mouth and up over my eyes. Ugh! "Michael, listen," I began, but his mouth was on mine in an instant.
He was heavy, and each of his movements felt unstoppable. His maleness felt weird against my leg; I couldn't figure out how I felt about the way it pressed into my much too chubby thighs. I was melting under him, into him. I didn't care; I just wanted more. He smelled so good. Suddenly his hand was down below, sliding around the shape of me. Then, suddenly, he took his mouth off mine.
"Michael?"
He kissed me gently on the chin, and I could feel his weight shift as he moved both his legs between mine. The restraints already had my thighs parted, but I found myself spreading them even more. He paused, unmoving above me.