Sunday morning began like most mornings, with me in the shower room, getting washed and groomed by Anne.
Slaves aren't permitted to wash or groom themselves. The OPS is of the opinion that it gives the slaves too much autonomy or dignity if they're allowed to wash themselves. And because I wasn't allowed to do it myself, OPS employees like Anne ended up soaping me up, shaving my legs, rinsing me off, toweling me dry, washing my hair, brushing my teeth etc.
Other slaves were being washed by other attendants and my eyes kept drifting over to them. I was supposed to keep my gaze down and not look at the other slaves, but it was difficult. Every slave in the shower room was drop dead gorgeous, with slender waists, high, firm buttocks and beautiful legs. I knew I could be punished if I got caught staring, but it was hard not to.
"Alex, stop that!" Anne scolded when she caught me enjoying the sight of a nearby naked slave as she stood under the spray of a stainless-steel shower head.
I immediately shifted my gaze so I was looking down at my bare feet, but I felt a surge of guilt and anxiety at being caught violating slave etiquette.
"You know better than that," Anne insisted as she rubbed the towel up and down my thighs and buttocks. "I should report you to your handler. I don't think she'd be happy to learn that you're ogling the other slaves."
I could feel my face heat up with embarrassment and I nervously apologized. Anne rubbed my legs dry with the towel and then had me lift one leg up slightly so she could towel dry the sole of my foot.
Then Anne stood up, gave me an intense look and said, "Or maybe I could just punish you myself. I could be discreet about it, and Constance would never have to know what a bad girl you've been. Would you like that, Alex?"
I'm a confusing mess when it comes to punishments. I'm both afraid of them and sexually aroused by them. I never had the courage to request punishments, they always had to be forced upon me. But once I was forced into one, screaming and squirming in pain, I would always become feverish with lust and wet between my legs.
"I'd prefer Constance not know that I broke the rules," I said honestly. It was normal for slaves to crave the approval of their handlers. I wanted Constance to approve of me, so I felt a deep need to keep my little indiscretion from her.
"That's what I thought," Anne replied.
She tossed the towel in a rolling laundry cart and sat down on a wooden bench over by the lockers. Then she patted her lap and gave me an eager look, urging me to come towards her and accept my fate.
There were about a half dozen people in the shower room besides Anne and me and I felt certain that all of them had their eyes fixated on me. I took one tentative step forward.
Then I took another, and another. It occurred to me that it was easier to be forced. When a slave is grabbed by security guards and forced across somebody's lap, the slave has no choice in the matter. The slave doesn't have to think or make any sort of decision. Things just happen. There's no emotional turmoil.
As it was, I had to force myself to walk across the room with half a dozen witnesses watching and slide across Anne's lap, making myself vulnerable and offering myself up for punishment. I had to fight against my self-preservation instincts to give myself up for punishment like that. There was a huge inner struggle that people couldn't see to sacrifice myself like that. I think I would have preferred to be physically overpowered and have no choice in the matter.
My hands were pressed against the tile floor and my ass was raised. A quick sidelong glance confirmed that everyone in the room was indeed watching as I waited for my innocent bottom to be covered with stinging handprints. Anne rubbed light patterns over one cheek, then the other, making me pant with nervous anticipation as I waited for the first blow.
"So beautiful," Anne enthused as she smoothed her hands up and down my butt cheeks. She explored every inch of my hindquarters, even working her fingers into the tight furrow between my buttocks. "You could turn a straight woman gay with a beautiful bottom like this."
SMACK!
The first blow came down on my naked hindquarters.
I had underestimated Anneβshe was a lot stronger than I had anticipated! Her first swat stung enough that I let out an involuntary gasp. I squirmed across Anne's lap, and her grip around my waist tightened.
SMACK! SMACK!
With the crowd of people watching, I could easily envision the scene I was creating for them. I was a naked girl with a slender waist and an adorable bottom, squirming and writhing across Anne's lap as my naked buttocks were abused and reddened.
SMACK! SMACK!
I cried out incoherently in pain and my naked body writhed shamelessly. My long legs kicked, and I thrashed around as much as I could in Anne's surprisingly strong grip, but it was all for naught. I couldn't possibly get free, and I couldn't possibly stop the young attendant's powerful arm from coming down again and again and punishing my poor, innocent, naked bottom.
SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
Ow! Ow! Ow! Anne! Aaaahhhh!"
SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
I whimpered and sobbed, and hot, wet tears ran down my face. I knew I must be putting on quite a show; a cute, naked slave girl wriggling furiously over a respectably clothed woman's lap, kicking her legs in a vain attempt to escape the pain as her defenseless bottom became redder and redder.
SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
It didn't take long before I was weeping openly. My entire bottom was stinging and red-hot with heat. And then Anne changed her technique. Instead of spanking my buttocks, she began to concentrate on the tops of my thighs. My skin is more sensitive there, and my screams of pain and distress became louder. Anne paid that no notice, and her hand continued to rain down blows on my naked skin.
SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
"Ow! Ow! Ow! Anne, please! Ow!"
SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
I continued to kick and scream, and the tears continued to flow, but Anne's hand didn't cease in its cruel, unjust punishment of my shapely bottom.