CHAPTER TWO - ENTRAPMENT
It's mid-morning here. Would usually be a work day for me but this morning I'm sitting at my dinner table enjoying a leisurely coffee as the sun streams in the window bringing me a warmth I haven't felt in weeks. I actually feel relaxed. For the first time since I met Tahlia I'm not anxiously awaiting a phone call or a text message with my next instruction.
Don't get me wrong, Tahlia still retains total control over me, and increasingly, my family. It's only been just over a week since I last wrote but so much has happened in that time I can barely believe this is still my life.
I'm off work sick. Got the rest of the week off too. I'm not actually unwell as such, well physically I've been beaten and there are bruises still to heal, not that anyone can see them. I don't know as an Adult if you've ever been punched or physically assaulted. I doubt many would have but when it happens, even when it's expected and you know it is coming your body still goes into a bit of shock. Mentally though I'm exhausted and I have really struggled to cope with everything that has happened with me this past week.
So Tahlia decided I needed a week off. She rang my Boss posing as a physiotherapist to say I had injured my back and any important work would need to be done from home. I confirmed it with him to which he has given me the entire week off to recover. Tahlia told him I wasn't fit enough to drive into the office, never mind sit in a chair all day, and there was absolutely no reason why my Boss would doubt me. I've worked for him in the same department for years and together we've enjoyed a lot of success turning teenage Girl bullies into useful members of the community.
Until I submitted to Tahlia that is.
For the past month since this all began I haven't had a moment like this. A moment just to sit down and reflect and relax knowing my phone won't ring, none of Tay's gang will text and I've got no rules to follow. You see when Tahlia says I can have a week off that means a week off from everything.
You wouldn't believe the bliss I felt at my rules being lifted for this week. I am a submissive person but I don't live the lifestyle. I don't crave ownership like a lot of subs though I did love the time I got to serve Denny. That was different, she didn't rule like Tahlia does, she allowed me my freedoms and to be who I am and to grow into my role as her sis.
The rules really grind you down. A requirement to edge four times a day with proof of each one might sound like a fun idea for a day or two but when You first wake up and your breath stinks and your husband is snoring next to you sometimes the last thing you want to do is drag yourself into the toilet, do your morning business and then sit there for another ten minutes trying to find an edge. And then to send the photo that Tahlia expects.
It's the same at night. When I'm tired I just like to go to bed. It's a pretty normal thing! But first I have to text Tahlia for permission and quite often that resulted in a phone call while she talked me through my evening edge session before allowing me to go to sleep. And two more during the day? Well, they were easier I must admit even if they were an inconvenience at times.
But the most relaxing thing? I'm not frightened of my phone. I know it's only this week but to know that Tahlia or Flea aren't about to call me is bliss. I've written about the pain of anxiety. It feels like a hand is constantly gripping your stomach and it never goes away. Of course it is worse some days than others depending on the circumstance but it is always there. But I don't even feel that pain this morning.
I've grown to hate my phone so much this past month. It's the one source of communication where Tahlia has access to me 24/7. I'm never allowed to have it off and my home screen is a close up of Tahlia's bare soles. In her words it's a reminder of my place every time I even look at it. It also means it has to remain with me at all times, I mean I would die of embarrassment if anyone saw it, their immediate reaction would be to ask me why I had a perfectly framed and focused picture of feet as my home page. I still can't think of how I would explain it.
Tahlia's big on always having a presence in my life. Ever since Carly was born I have had a passport sized photo of her updated annually looking back at me every time I opened my purse. It was a symbol of love for the most precious thing in my life. Then one day I opened my purse to find Carly's photo gone and Tahlia's in her place. Now instead of a symbol of love, it's a symbol of ownership and a reminder I can only spend what Tahlia approves. She religiously checks my receipts and statements before she puts me to bed each night to ensure I have not spent anything she hasn't approved.
Sitting here now drinking my coffee I wonder if my money might be my own again for this week that the rules have been lifted. I briefly consider texting for clarification but then don't. I don't want to risk any communication with her right now that could jeopardise this feeling of blessed relief that has washed over me this morning. After the week I've had I think it's exactly what I need. But I do make up my mind in this instant that the photo of Tahlia is coming out of my purse in my week off and the one of Carly is going back in its place.
I know David won't be home tonight. But Denny will be here for dinner with Carly. They've grown as close as I knew they would and have become practically inseparable this past week. Not that I really know anything outside of what Carly has told me. I haven't seen Denny since I last wrote. Only briefly one morning after Tahlia, rightfully, decided we were becoming too close. Even though she's an evil bitch she is also very clever Tahlia, very aware of everything that goes on around her.
Yes I am nervous about seeing Denny again, after all I had developed very strong feelings for her in those first three weeks of my submission. But given I have the week off Tahlia has said that I don't have to submit to anything Denny wants unless I want to. I still would like to feel close to her but I'm more aware of our age difference now than last week when I had become smitten by her. Not seeing her this week has helped me realise that despite the fact she was my Mistress, my mentor and my sis, that Tahlia was right to separate us.
David, well that breaks my heart. Do I still love him? Well, yes of course. He is my husband and my soul mate. We've been together since we were kids. Our marriage had gone the way of many others once we get to our age. We're both still young enough to feel sexual and have our needs yet we were probably bored with each other in that respect as well. Trouble is my life isn't my own anymore. I belong to Tahlia. She said she wants to be my husband now as well as my daddy and a middle aged balding man was surplus to her needs. Plus he was getting suspicious.
So one night last week (sorry the nights and days of the past week all blend into one) while I was naked, collared on the floor and chained to the leg of Sara's bed, cold, uncomfortable and unable to move Tahlia took my phone and started texting David. Of course, coming from my phone, David reasonably expected the texts were coming from me but it was Tahlia who coerced him to going to our local strippers bar. Apparently I had set up a surprise for him in the form of an apology for my being out so often this past week. Tahlia had set the whole thing up with a friend of hers named Shandy.
On the night Tahlia had arranged for him to meet Shandy the first time she even laughingly suggested that once David and I had separated that Shandy would be Carly's new Mommy. I hoped she was only joking but my heart broke a little at that. Of course, I didn't say anything, I just kept licking Her Feet, or my new lovers as Tahlia liked to refer to them. Sure her feet were cute and soft and adorable but I only worshipped and made out with them 'like teenagers on a first date' as Tahlia described because I had to.
Now here we are in the present and David has arranged to meet with her for a second time. He told me Shandy had asked him to check out her new apartment tonight. In a normal relationship, it was a totally irrational thing for him to ask me, no way would I acquiesce to that sort of request but he promised me it was something he could help her with through his work contacts. Obviously I was just keeping up appearances, Tahlia had already told me I had to say yes.
I guess I should get to why I have this week off then. That was part of it. One of Tahlia's associates basically employed to seduce my soulmate and have an affair to which I was forced to agree. Yes that was definitely a part of it! But as horrifying as that is, it doesn't even come close to some of the other things they have done to me this week.