Editor's note: this story contains scenes of gay male sexual content.
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The look in his eyes was something I hadn't seen since the war.
My hands trembled as I tried to unbuckle my belt, my breathing was shallow and I had no control over it as I watched him undress himself, every movement was careful and calculated, it was like watching a predator stalking its prey, only this predator wasn't going to kill me right away.
He took his time as he unbuttoned his shirt and slid it off, letting it fall to the floor.
He then removed his belt and slowly undid his pants, his movements were quick, precise, and deliberate, making no noise.
I could barely see through my tears.
My body shook with each breath I took as the tension built up.
He looked down at me with those cold, dark eyes that haunted my dreams for the past few years.
Those same eyes that had killed countless men and women; innocent civilians, soldiers, people who didn't stand a chance.
I was afraid. I was so terrified.
"Stop crying." His voice cut through the cold night air.
I stopped breathing, but I continued trembling from head to toe.
The tears came fast now, hot liquid streamed down my face "I said stop crying!" His hand was on my jaw now, forcing me to look up at him.
It would be such an easy move for him to snap my neck.
I squeezed my eyes shut as hard as I could trying to stop my tears, "good boy" he growled "now take your boxers off"
The command hung heavy in the air between us.
I hesitated, I hated the thought of stripping naked for this man. But at the same time, what choice did I have?
I slowly took my boxers off, now standing fully nude before him.
He studied my body, his gaze made me feel exposed and vulnerable.
I wanted nothing more than to cover myself, I felt pathetic standing there, waiting for him to make a move to do anything, but he simply stood still looking at me.
As he examined my body his hand reached out, running one of his fingers gently across my abdomen.
He traced a circle around where the bullet hole once resided.
His touch sent shivers through my body, he seemed to enjoy it.
"It's been a very long time since anyone has touched you." His voice was soft and warm as he ran his fingers along the edges of the scar, "do you miss it?"
His words brought back painful memories.
I remembered the agony, the screams, the blood pouring from my wound.