Trigger warning for sexual slavery.
This is a repost. Thank you to my lovely proofreaders!
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The sun burns red and sits low in the sky - a final flash of brilliance before it dips below the horizon, painting the lush gardens and white stone walls an amber hue. Sunset is our cue to return to quarters. The desert air has begun to cool. Not knowing how many evenings I have left to enjoy the open air, I delay my return until the last ray of sun has disappeared.
I don't try to keep track of days or dates here. It doesn't matter. My fate was decided from the moment I was snatched away. I try to be present in these moments with which I am blessed and enjoy the thin veneer of freedom.
My skin is milky white - I'm not allowed to tan. I glow instead from the health of a clean diet and regular exercise.. My hair shines and bounces, tumbling in waves to my waist. The silver choker at my neck is
almost
weightless. My training has enabled me to enjoy things I wouldn't have before. I have no responsibilities beyond following the rules and routine - it's calming.
Between lessons and meal times, we spend our time by the pool reading, swimming and socialising. Sometimes other things, pulled straight from the laziest of male fantasies, but I don't really join in with those. I'm too shy.
Before I slipped away for a few moments outside, the scene had an underlying sense of domesticity. A large group of girls racing one another in the water. Ume, my closest companion, reading a book in Japanese, sharing a lounger with a fellow reader. A Nigerian beauty having her hair braided, then swapping spots to return the favour. But the warm feeling it leaves me with is smothered by a stifling claustrophobia, because this is all just temporary. When I creep away to watch the sun set, Ume joins me, her soft fingers entwined with mine, and we stand in silence until the last rays disappear.
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Another piece of familiarity Inhave learned to enjoy is the occasional late night visit from my former handler. Male visitors are strictly forbidden from entering our living quarters, but Hands benefits from a high rank and a certain annoying charm that lets him get away with breaking the rules he strictly enforces for others.
His visits have become more frequent of late, and a certain creeping suspicion as to why has dampened them for me. The familiarity between us allows me to push boundaries with him, and because he has to control everything around him he enjoys putting me back in my place.
"What? I'm sleeping."
He grabs my face, forcing me to look at him, his amused tone and soft eyes offsetting the pain of his grip.
"Bad little slave. Is that how you greet a Master?"
"This is quite the rude awakening.... Master."
"I don't remember giving you permission to speak, slut. You used to be so obedient - perhaps a return to basic training is what you need?"
I drop my eyes in compliance, although part of me is sorely tempted to keep pushing back - at least I could delay the inevitable. But I don't want to leave Ume. And a larger part of me is desperate for his approval.
"Present."
My body responds, purely from muscle memory at this point. His eyes are appraising as they rove from head to toe in the dim light. He brushes a stray hair from my face, and tweaks a nipple affectionately.
"You would be perfect if not for your smart mouth. Maybe I should clean it out with soap."