In the distant future, the environment is polluted and people have created societies inside of atmosphere-insulated bubbles. For socio-political reasons, the genders have completely separated and live in different societies.
I sat nervously in my chair as her eyes scanned over my charts. Yesterday I had undergone a series of examinations for my yearly checkup, as was required of all citizens. Her cool blue eyes flicked up to mine.
"Everything checks out well. You are very healthy, Mrs. Vine," she said.
"That's good to hear." I breathed out a sigh of relief, but there was something about her tone that kept me waiting. The doctor flipped the chart papers over and her brow creased. Finally, she put the chart down and steepled her fingers, considering me steadily.
"However, I am a little concerned about your psychological reports," her finger traced down my chart. "It indicated that you are...feeling a little stressed?" She looked at me questioningly.
I shrugged. "I'm fine," I replied tersely. I didn't want them giving me any weird drugs. Psychological and physical health was strictly regulated in Arnum, and a doctor's treatment plan was essentially law.
The doctor pursed her mouth. "Mrs. Vine, need I remind you that lying is highly discouraged in this community? The psychological tests do not lie. Now, if you wouldn't mind being a little more forthcoming, I would like to know about the source of your stress so that you may be accurately diagnosed. Is it work?"
I think I hated this woman. "No," I huffed, "my urban planning team has been excellent."
"Home?"
"Home is great. Christine is very loving."
She raised her eyebrows. "How often do you have sex?"
I tried to be evasive and play coy. "A typical amount," I answered.
She pursed her lips again and spun around in her chair, opening up her electronic frame. She seemed to be scanning records.
"Our records say, Mrs. Vine..." she paused as she looked more closely. "That Mrs. Christine Vine tested quite high on the sexual responses test. You, on the other hand," here her voice took on an admonishing quality, "tested quite low."
She pivoted back to me, a suppressed look of victory on her features. "Could it be that you do not show Mrs. Christine the amount of physical affection she would like? Is this straining your relationship?"
"We...cuddle and snuggle all the time," I protested lamely. I was a grown woman; I could not believe I was being interrogated in this way.
"Sex, Mrs. Vine. How often are you willing to engage in sexual activities with your life-mate?"
I felt myself snap. "Not often! Is that a crime? Is the peace team going to arrest me? Maybe my happiness levels would be better maintained if I weren't in a relationship. Or if I were paired with someone with a lower...libido," I ended my tirade, and the doctor did not look convinced.
She shook her head. "Mrs. Vine, sexually active relationships sustain physiological health. In the meantime, I am going to make you an appointment for a medical massage. It's located in the tenth district." She began writing out a form for me.
The tenth district? As an urban planner, I knew that the tenth district was on the very periphery of Arnum. That particular wall, the north wall, had an access point with another society called Sage. We knew nothing about Sage, except that we trade goods with them. A different race, called "men" lived there, and it was a source of great curiosity for all young Arnum citizens. However, our schooling impressed upon us how the intermingling of cities would only result in war and conflict. If we were to try to identify the citizens of Sage or spread rumors, we could greatly offend them. And, knowing how delicate the system of our city was, we could not risk this. In this case, it was only responsible to be ignorant. However, memories of whispers of monsters or strange looking beings still circulated in my mind. What did they look like? Were they human? I shook my head to get the questions out of my mind. It seemed strange that I would have to go all the way out there, but a massage was better than drugs.
"That will be all," she said, handing me my slip dismissively. I was glad to be leaving. I picked up my things and headed out the door, still feeling anger and frustration bubbling from feeling so judged.
When I got home, Christine was setting the table. When she saw me she straightened and came over to me, wrapping her arms around my waist as she brought me close. Christine and I had been friends growing up, so it had only seemed natural that we should partner up. However, it had only taken me a short while to realize my mistake. Christine felt strongly towards me in a way that I didn't feel towards her. I didn't feel that strongly about anyone, in fact. I had decided that I must be broken inside- I had no sexuality. I would sometimes touch myself, in the dark, until I reached my completion. However, no one else interested me.
"Hey baby," she whispered, kissing my lips gently.
I kissed her back, but when her tongue pressed against my closed lips I recoiled. Her look of hurt pained me. She seemed to try to shake off the rejection.
"How was your check-up?" she asked.
"Okay," I answered.
"Just okay?"
Our schedules were shared on our electronic frames, so I knew that she would know about the appointment as soon as she looked. "I'm overly stressed. From work," I lied.
"Oh," she looked concerned, and my heart crumpled at the deceit. "I didn't know that you were stressed at work. You didn't tell me that," her last words were pointed.
"I didn't want to worry you."
She had moved on. "What did she prescribe?"
"A medical massage," I showed her my slip.
Christine's face became ashen. "You can't go to that."
"Why not?" her reaction was bizarre.
"I've heard...horror stories. Everyone who goes there isn't allowed to talk about their experience according to an Arnum legal disclosure agreement. Some people go back all the time, and some people never go back but have their minds scarred."
She was pissing me off. "Cut the shit, Christine. That isn't funny."
She looked defensive and shook her head. "I'm only telling you because I you have to ask that doctor to prescribe something else."
"She definitely won't." That woman was like an immovable rock.
"I won't stand for this," she huffed, and marched to her office. I knew that she would be calling her friends in the law department. It was nice that Christine was going to bat for me, but I thought she was being a little over dramatic.
"And I'll have you sign this non-disclosure agreement." She slid a piece of paper across the desk. She was probably the most stunning secretary I had ever seen, with silky black hair and glowing, slightly flushed skin.
I picked up my pen, and then paused, panic sneaking into my bloodstream. "Sorry, what? Why do I need that?" Suddenly Christine's anxieties seemed well founded.
"We have very specific techniques that only a medical professional can practice," she replied smoothly in her husky voice.
I signed my signature with a shaking hand. I didn't really have a choice, did I? She took the form away and gave me another one.
"Our reports indicate that you and your partner are trying to conceive. It that correct?"
I was startled by this question. "Well, yes. How is that relevant?" I had secretly been a little relieved that we hadn't been able to conceive yet.
"We find that inseminations are sometimes more successful when the patient is in a deeply relaxed state," she said, reaching out to pat my hand. Her touch shifted as she ran her hand down the underside of my arm and wrist, tracing my pulse point.
I snatched my hand away. "Are we all done here?"
She frowned, disappointed. "Right back here." She got up and led me down a corridor, and then opened up a numbered room. I was expecting the space to be sterile and cold. However, the lights were dimmed and there were artificial candles flickering instead of lights. There was a massage table in the center of the room.
"Undress completely," she instructed, "and then lay face down on the massage table until the nurse comes in.
"Okay," I said as she left. I hated being nude. Was that really necessary? I tried to strip quickly so that I would be laying down when the nurse came in. I felt a little soothed by the warm atmosphere of the room. I had to remind myself that this wasn't a procedure, but a massage. Except for the insemination. How was that supposed to lower my stress?
I lay down on the massage table, which I expected to be cold but was warm against my skin. There was an opening for my face, and the leathery material pressed against my forehead and cheeks as I lay my face in it.
The door clicked open suddenly, and I looked up to greet the nurse. She was another petite, sexy looking woman like the secretary. These women were so different from the doctors, who usually wore no makeup and had their hair back in tightly controlled buns. This woman also had free flowing, blown out hair and blushed cheeks.
"Hello, Mrs. Vine. How are you today?" It was a standard greeting, but somehow she made it sound flirtatious.
"Okay, I guess. I'm a little nervous." For the first time, someone seemed to react to my feelings. She took both of my hands as I sat up.
"Oh honey," she said, squeezing my hands. "I know it's scary because it's new, but you'll love it. I get massages all the time," she reassured me.