PLEASE understand that this is a work of fiction under the category of Nonconsent/reluctance. I would never wish the contents of this story on any real person. If the contents of this story may offend you PLEASE leave the page now.
As Ricky left Emma downstairs by the front door to look for his sober friend to drive them home, she stood there in a daze. Her mind was trying desperately to wrap itself around what had just happened. Despite how much he had hurt her the month before, she let him fuck her. Did she even let him? She shook her head as she only confused herself more. She was used to him being so rough, but he had never fucked her out of anger before. She kept telling him not to, but she came. So what had really happened back there?
"Em," Ricky called as he and his friend, Roger, headed her way. He placed his hand on the small of her back and led her out the door, towards the end of the drive way where Roger had managed to find an open spot. "Are you tired?" He asked her as she scooted into the backseat. He sat beside her and pushed the hair from her face. When she didn't answer he told her to lay her head on his lap. She did so without looking him in the eye.
Emma trembled as he stroked her back which only refueled his anger along with the fact she wouldn't meet his eyes. His hand pressed down firmer as he tried his best to keep control of himself.
The car ride to Ricky's apartment felt too long. Emma could feel the tension in the car swarming around them. The weight of her confusion made it hard for her to breathe almost.
She wished she knew what was going on in Ricky's head. Did he expect for them to be back together? Did she? She wasn't even sure. Not even thinking about the previous month, Emma was concerned with what had just happened. Was that considered rape? She did give in... He told her he loved her. What happened wasn't love. He was angry. He was forceful. She was afraid, but he didn't actually hurt her.
"Emma, we're here." Ricky lifted her back into a sitting position and got out of the car first, offering his hand to her.
Ricky lived in a second floor apartment with two bedrooms. He lived alone, but used the extra room as a studio. Majoring in graphic design meant he had to take other art classes as well. Any art projects he had done well on he hung up around the living room. He fancied in doing darker pieces, gloomy morbid scenes and creatures. Emma normally thought it was cool because she was also fascinated by such things although not as much as he was. Tonight the pictures made the place feel cold and un-inviting, tonight they really represented who Ricky was.
"Did you take your pill today?" He asked. Emma got on the pill when they began dating even though they had used condoms. When they broke up she didn't stop taking them because she didn't want to mess up her cycle. She nodded.
"Let's go to bed." He surprised her with this. She thought he would start another argument or try to touch her again. She hurried into his bedroom and when he didn't follow right after she quickly changed into one of his shirts and a pair of his boxers to sleep into. As he entered and shut the door, she dove under the covers and turned away from him.
Ricky rolled his eyes in the dark silence. He had hoped that if he have her some space now she'd open up more to him But it only seemed that she was still keeping herself closed. After undressing until he was just into his boxers, he crawled under the blanket as well and snuggled up to her, pulling her against his body. She felt cool against his warm skin and she was still shaking. He gently squeezed her once before they both went to sleep.
Emma woke a few hours later in the early morning. It was still dark out and Ricky had rolled over in his sleep, his back now to her. She didn't waste time in carefully climbing out of the bed and changing back into her clothes. Every few seconds she would glance over at him to make sure he hadn't woken up. As she slowly opened his door it creaked louder than she felt was needed. She froze in her spot and waited, but nothing happened. Ricky didn't get up and he made no sound. After standing there for a few more seconds she slipped out of the room and hurried to the front door. She tripped over a pair of his shoes and had to hold back a curse.
Phone in hand, Emma was ready to call her friend, Megan. Megan had bad insomnia and would be up around this hour. She also hated Ricky from the beginning so she would have no problem with picking up Emma. After she unlocked the front door, she got it open a few inches before a hand slammed it shut again.
"Going somewhere?" Ricky towered over her in the dark, appearing to be a black shadow from one of his art projects. Emma opened her mouth to answer, but found no words. He grabbed her wrist and began pulling her back to the bedroom, but she yanked her arm away and walked around his couch to put distance between them.
"I want to go home." She said firmly. Well, she at least hoped she sounded firm.
He leaned against the couch and watched her. "I told you I'll take you home tomorrow. Now let's go back to bed."
"It is tomorrow."
Ricky clenched his jaw. There she went again being a smartass. "It's still dark out. We're going back to bed, Em." As he approached her she just circled the couch. "I don't want to!"
"And why is that?"
"Why?!" She could almost laugh. "How hard is it to fathom why I don't want to even look at your face right now?!"