~Two years later~
The pain was unbearable.
Caitlin screamed and thrashed against the sheets, her body revolting against each wave of contractions that built to a crescendo, forcing all logic from her mind. Althea and her staff were there, along with a fretting Janice, a supportive Amandine, a shell-shocked Mia, and even a pleasantly surprised Marianne, whoâd come by to visit and decided to stay through the ordeal.
Caitlin sweat bullets as she huffed through the contraction. It slowly eased its grip on her body and she could breathe again, but it would only be for a short time.
Kalenâs hand slipped into hers, squeezing gently. âYouâre almost there, Caitlin.â His voice was calm, too calm for such a situation. She might have felt better if heâd been disheveled, as sheâd heard fathers often were in these situations.
âTen centimeters,â Althea said, putting a gloved hand near her throbbing womanhood. She hardly felt the doctorâs touch as she was prodded.
A wave of dizziness consumed her, and she couldnât focus. Kalenâs hand squeezed tighter. âDonât give up on us, Caitlin. You need to push with the next contraction. I can already see our sonâs head. His hair is your color,â he said as if to distract her. âJust hold on for me.â
His hand stroked back her sweaty locks from her face. Sheâd woken that morning to feel her body rioting against itself, and screamed for help. Nearly twelve hours later, sheâd lost a lot of blood, and quite a bit of her sanity with each contraction.
Several times, sheâd screamed at her mother to leave her alone. Janice, stone-faced and stubborn, surprisingly did, but she never left the room.
The birth had garnered all too much attention, and she just wanted to be alone. Or, as alone as she could be, in this situation. In the background, that impassive part of her mind knew she was dying. But that was expected, wasnât it?
It didnât mean she was ready to die.
Althea had continued to administer blood transfusions, but as quickly as they came, she bled them out, too. On Kalenâs order, she added another bag to the IV stand.
The doctor kept her legs steady and leaned over. âGood job, momma. Another big push, now.â
Caitlin shook her head, her face hot with her efforts. âI- canât!â
âYes, you can.â A cool touch on her left felt like Kalen, another on her right, Amandine. Together, their presence allowed her shattered nerves to settle, but only slightly. She closed her eyes and pushed, just as the doctor said, feeling her body riot against her.
âHeâs coming!â
Caitlin grit her teeth and screamed with her last efforts, feeling that pressure that had so built up in her release all at once, and she felt a throbbing emptiness settle in. She threw her head back with a weep and closed her eyes, feeling her lifeâs energy spill from her body.
But she wasnât afraid.
She knew Kalen, who looked so incredibly worried over her, would not let her fall into the velvety void of death. Not tonight.
A squalling broke through her exhaustive haze, and a parcel was placed in her arms. Kalen held her steady as the package squirmed, little limbs pushing against the bundled blankets. He, their only child, was covered in her blood, his little cherubic features twisted from the trauma of being born. She marveled at his little fingers through her waning attention, seeing those little gums, entirely free of teeth, and a tongue that shuddered with the power of his cry.
Tears fell as Kalen knelt at her side, cradling the swaddled newborn with her. âShh, itâs alright, little prince. The world isnât so bad now that youâre here.â
Caitlin opened her mouth to say something, but found that she could not form the words. She looked to Kalen, whose features seemed soft, as he watched their son take his first few breaths.
Someone removed the child, and Caitlinâs vision swam. âNo,â she said faintly. âGive him back to me...â
A hand held her down as her vision faded.
âSheâs going to code-â someone said.
âI know. Everyone who isnât my staff needs to get out.â
âBut, sheâs my-â
â
Everyone
.â
Even Kalenâs hand was gone as she groped in the darkness, not feeling anyone or anything nearby. The gentle bleating of her son, too, was gone, replaced by frantic beeps of a machine she was hooked up to.
Then, a presence bored down on her, a familiar energy she wouldnât mistake for anyone else: Kalen. âYouâve come a long way. So much youâve sacrificed.â His voice was cool compared to the swell of heat flooding out of her. âI have to ask you, once last time, for your sacrifice.â A hand caught the back of her neck and lips brushed her collar bone.
Still breathing hard from the birth, and gasping for air from the blood loss, she only nodded her consent. âWill you- stay with me?â
âForever,â he murmured, his lips finding that hollow of her neck, the sharpness of his teeth brushing against her tender skin. âForever and forever, my Queen. I promise, it will not take long.â His teeth slid in, making her eyes open involuntarily. She saw the coffered ceiling swirl as the last of her energy was released to Kalen.
Her body reacted to his draw, pressing herself against him as her mind slipped free of its cage. All orientation was lost, swept up in a turbulent nothingness that imprisoned her very mind. It was no sleep she had ever experienced, for this, in itself, was a hell she would not have wished on anyone.
Then, she began to feel a familiar sensation.
That of the void.
Its tendrils curled around her, or through her, for she had no form here. But it still struck with needling precision, bringing horrible clarity to her predicament. The birth may have been difficult, but this was unreal in its agony.
She did not know she could experience such, trapped eternally in its darkness.
And she knew, without any doubt, that Kalen had lied.
Heâd only wanted the child, just as Gabriel had warned her. Just as Janice suspected. There was nothing on this side of death but pain and eternal suffering. If she saw a demon, she could understand where the pain originated and blame it, instead. But here, there was no jailor, no warden or torturer to accuse. Nothing, but the impassive, cold burn of a purgatory sheâd not been prepared for.
With that thought, the pain intensified.
There was nothing like it, no form to keep her mind occupied, nothing. Only this for a thousand, thousand years, would she be subject to eternal damnation, so much worse than even her motherâs bible had notated in its revelations.
And, as quickly as the void swallowed her up, it released her.
She took in a gasping breath with lungs she didnât know she possessed. Colors formed in this hell, and clarity gradually returned.
Above her, she felt the press of darkness, a multi-faceted blackness that fractaled the air around the figure. And there he was, looking down on her with the gentlest expression. âCaitlin?â
Her eyes flashed around the room, its features made too bright by the sliver of light coming through a crack in the door. She shielded them with a heavy arm, then glanced up to Kalen anew. Sheâd never seen him quite this way before. Where sheâd memorized his face, handsome and soft, the slight marring of sun-damage along his cheekbone, she now saw a radiant figure. She could
feel
him with a level of detail sheâd never known before, her eyes roving over the magnificent planes of his face, marveling again at his beauty. It was as if, without raising a hand, she could touch him from a distance.
And he seemed to respond. âThat is your shadow energy, Caitlin,â he said, his eyes dark. âYou were only gone about a minute. How do you feel?â
The question intrigued her. Without moving, she scanned her own body, feeling a cool clarity flowing through her limbs and down to her toes. Her belly, which had grown large over the last three years, had miraculously shrunk back to its pre-pregnant dip. Her stomach was slightly concave, but a fire began to grow inside of it. One she could only imagine was hunger.
Pain pierced her gums, and she felt her teeth, her
new
teeth.
Caitlin moved to sit up, finding herself already vertical. Her mind swam with the change in position, but quickly righted itself.
Kalen didnât touch her, but she
sensed
him intimately. His energy spread from his body, stretching and flaring out wide, then closing in around the two of them. She felt an overwhelming draw from him, as if, without lifting a finger, he urged her closer.
She obliged, the smallest trace of shadow within her leaping feverishly in her chest. His final gift to her: an immortal life. Caitlinâs hands caught his collar on their own, the weak fabric ripping in her grip. He chuckled, then his arm swept out and caught her around the waist. Kalen still hadnât said anything, but she could feel his burning need for her.
Her lips crushed to his on instinct, and she tasted a sharp palate of flavors, her own blood among them. But she didnât mind, savoring this kiss as if it were the last. Or the first.
Where heâd been gentle before, he was not now, rasping his tongue against hers, his teeth growing long.
Caitlin closed her eyes, the whole world a carnal swirl of stimuli. Safely wrapped in his shadow energies, her mind did not stray to the sounds outside of their bedroom, though one sound in particular tore her lips from his teeth. Her words came, slow and harsh. âMy... son?â