Zack and I have been talking for a few weeks. He's 22, I'm 21. We hung out a few times at his house off-campus and had a great time watching movies and eating pizza. However, I feel like he might think of me as a friend, since he has made no attempts to kiss me when we spent time together, and I'm too shy to make the first move. He's really sweet and is involved in a lot of organizations on campus, so it can be hard to find time when we're both free. Also, it's getting towards the end of the semester, and I don't want to go all winter without talking to him, or letting him know how I feel. I still don't have the courage to tell him though, until a night out with my friends...
"Beth, just go for it!" Sarah tells me as we are drinking cocktails at a bar off campus.
"He'll never know if you don't tell him! It's almost the end of the semester. Just text him!" she slurs.
"Okay..." I say, fumbling for my phone, and blushing. Drunk texts always make me nervous but I feel much more uninhabited after those five rum and cokes I've drank tonight.
Beth[11:50pm]: Heyyy Zack ummm it's Beth and I just wanna say that I think you'ree cute and I've liked you for a while and didn't tell youu i hope you're havinga good friday night
I take a long gulp of my rum and coke, staring at the message and then pressing [send].
"Ohmygosh I wonder what he'll say!" I murmur to myself, while Sarah and my other friends laugh, talk, and drink.
A few minutes later, I feel a vibration and check my phone.
Zack[11:54pm]: Hey, Beth. I had no clue you felt that way. Are you drinking? Do you want me to come get you so you don't have to worry about getting back to your dorm?
"Ohmygod guysss!" I say. "Look! Zack texted me!"
"What did he say?" Sarah asks, coming over.
"He asked if I want him to pick me up...should I say yesss?" I ask.
"Definitely!" my friends say. "Spend some time with him. You should say yes."
"Okay!" I say, encouraged by the alcohol and peer pressure.
Beth[11:59pm]: Yeaah, I'm at Main Street Bar, I can head outside and meet u?
Zack[12:01am]: Wait for me, I'll text when I'm outside. Be safe.
"He's going to get me!" I squeal excitedly, and take my lipstick out to reapply it. I fix my hair and wait for his text. Finally, my phone buzzes at 12:10am and I hug my friends goodbye.
"Be safe!" they say. "Text us if you need us."
"I'll be fine." I say. "He's a great guy. He's probably just going to take me back to campus, or he'll let me crash at his place or something."
I turn and head outside to meet him. I spot a small black car and see him in the car. Zack...short somewhat curly brown hair, brown eyes, dimples, great smile, about 6'0"...and now he knows how I feel. I swallow and prepare to go out and meet him.
I open the door. "Hi," I say, simply, and sit down, closing the door after me.
"Beth," he breathes, leaning over, putting his hand behind my head, and kissing me.
I'm taken aback, but it feels amazing to finally have his lips on mine and I breathe a sigh of relief. This is better than I could have ever imagined. His hand is wrapped around the back of my head, in my hair, and he is pressing my face to his. He's strong, so I couldn't fight him if I wanted to, and I don't.
He smoothly slides his tongue into my mouth and I reciprocate.
We're finally making out! I lightly bite his tongue and wrap my arms around him, but he stops me.
"Let's wait till we're at my house." He says, putting the car into drive, and starting to go.
"Buckle your seatbelt, come on, be safe."
"Your house?" I ask, confused, as the car moves. "You aren't taking me back to my house?"
"No, babe. Why the fuck would I leave my house at midnight to get a drunk girl and bring her back to her house...then LEAVE? That's so stupid."
I feel like I've been hit. "What? I'm just a drunk girl to you?"
"No, you're Beth. You're my friend and hot and drunk and you finally said you like me. I didn't do anything with you before because I honestly didn't know if you were like, gay or something. You seemed interested, but too shy. I don't know. I would have tried something in a few weeks though if you hadn't said anything tonight."
"Oh." I say. "So you like me?"
"Yeah, sure." He says and flashes those dimples. "Okay, we're here."
He unbuckles his seatbelt, and walks to my side of the car, opening my door. I unsteadily unbuckle myself, grab my purse, and take his hand. "Uh. Thanks."
"Anytime, Beth." He says, closing the door after me. He takes my hand and leads me to his house.
"Uh...it's a nice house you have here."
"Thank you. Okay, I think all my housemates are gone for the night. Parties, you know." He says, grabbing my hand and leading me up the stairs. He opens a door down the hallway a bit, and leads me inside. I stop, and he turns me around. "You're beautiful." He grabs my face and starts kissing me again. I drop my purse in shock. I didn't expect him to be kissing me so quickly, or so forcefully. I keep my arms at my sides, as he stands over me, forcing his tongue into my mouth.
"Come on, Beth, move your body, or SOMETHING." He says, looking at me with those brown eyes.
"You said you like me, you're here, I'm here, kiss me."
"But-" I fumble for words. "I...I didn't think this would be happening. Or this quickly or anything."
"Well it is. Suck it up, babe, come on." He leans down again and grabs my face. He's 6 feet tall, I'm about 5'6" but that's still 6 inches taller than I am. He presses his body to mine and he is grabbing me more forcefully. I decide to comply because I can tell he's getting frustrated. I put my arms around him.
"There you go." He says, loosening his grip.
"Come on, Beth, put your body into it."