"Morning, Oliver!" Alice chirped from the couch. Her roommate blinked at her with a sour, sleepy face before passing on by into the small kitchen. Alice frowned. She had hoped that Oliver would be in a good mood again. The past two days they'd had breakfast together, almost like a real couple. Alice had her bagel and Oliver mauled an overfull bowl of cereal while they joked about the news. A little taste of the perfect life, she thought. So, why not get up a little earlier to wash her face and tame her bed hair. Maybe he'd notice.
Oliver padded back through the apartment, bowl of cereal in hand and head tilted away and to the side. He doesn't want to look at me, Alice thought, her heart sinking as she withdrew into her blanket on the couch. Shame washed over her in huge waves. Foolish to think he cared, foolish to think he even noticed me at all, foolish to think this was finally the start of something more.
After a few moments, Oliver reappeared at the hallway entrance. He leaned out, his hair falling somehow perfectly around his face. "Hey, sorry, late night last night, you know. Gotta go in for an early shift too. You're working today, right?"
Alice nodded, trying not to explode with giddiness.
"Great we can carpool. I'm almost out of gas, so you're driving." He smiled and retreated down the hallway.
Better than nothing, Alice thought. She didn't have to rush to get dressed. Despite the pajamas and the blanket wrapped around her, she'd already showered, fixed her hair, and put on most of her makeup. Of course, she hadn't intended to go so far in her morning beauty regiment. And of course, she didn't do it for Oliver, necessarily. But, on the off chance that he suddenly decided to sweep her into his arms, she wanted to look the part.
She slipped off the couch and headed back to her room. Pausing at Oliver's door, she saw him through the small crack. He was sitting at his computer eating, but no longer wore a shirt. He'd put it on just to walk out into the house. That puzzled Alice. She'd seen him without a shirt on hundreds of times over the years. In high school, when she'd been in band and Oliver on the football team, she'd watched him walk around without a shirt on all through practice. Her mind started to unravel the difference. Here it's more intimate. Her stomach fluttered and she blushed, slipping into her own room to get dressed.
In an hour, they would get into her car and drive to their jobs downtown. On the way, Alice knew they'd finally get that morning chat, joking about the news or what she'd done last night while Oliver was off at work. Maybe Oliver would complain about his boss keeping him late. Maybe she would get a chance to do some complaining of her own. Maybe she'd finally have the right moment to bring up the idea of going away together. Not as a couple of course, but just as friends. Alice wanted to go to Nashville. She had some friends in the city and it would be nice to see them. It would be a nice, normal reason for her to spend hours in the car with Oliver. To share a hotel room with Oliver. To go to museums and galleries and nice restaurants with Oliver. It would be nice.
She stopped in front of her mirror. Alice frowned. Her hair had started to frizz, falling victim to the humidity. Her pajamas, covered in cartoonish moons, looked ridiculous and childish. They didn't fit either, essentially swallowing up her gangly body in their vast, if comfortable, depths. The little voice in Alice's head, the one which had always been with her since she first saw a boy and though of him as more than just gross, laughed at her. Not a woman, it said. Just a girl playing dress up. He'd never notice you. He wouldn't even be friends with you if the rent wasn't so cheap. How much is your friendship worth to him, do you think? Another $100 a month, maybe as little as $10. A man will never love someone through exceeding convenience. It's pathetic. You're pathetic. I am pathetic.
Alice lowered her eyes and let her thoughts drift away. She sighed and started to get dressed.
***
Oliver had a headache. He found that being a bartender meant often having a headache. Maybe it had been a full hangover once upon a time, but now it was just a perpetual, unending headache. He took another gulp of water from his cup as they rounded a curve onto main street. The short stretch of storefronts had been "revitalized" over the past few years. That included the Spanish Moss, the drearily named restaurant and bar where Oliver worked. It kept an air of sophistication primarily through serving lunch to the gaggle of businessmen that operated downtown and the occasional patron coming in from the countryside for a "fancy city" meal. No one came for the food, really. They just came to waste time β time away from work or home or a spouse. But then came was the evening service at the Spanish Moss. In a town with only one bar and, as Oliver had learned, an unreasonable supply of closeted alcoholics, the bar stayed slammed almost every night until close. Few of the patrons tipped well, but the owner, Lowell Cammack, paid well. Lowell was an old barback himself and seemed to appreciate the toll it could take. In the end, though, Oliver had a headache.
The car pulled into the small lot behind JoLean's Boutique. Alice turned off the engine and Oliver leaned back into the seat, trying to force the tension out of his muscles. He never had the time or the inclination to go to the gym anymore, but at moments like this, the brief lapses between forced constraints of society, he felt a remorse for letting his life take such a toll on his body. Not for much longer though.
"Are you working all day?" Alice asked. She'd been quiet the whole ride, another of her strange moods. Now she was back to her overly interested self, Oliver noted. "I thought I might come over for lunch."
"Um, not sure," Oliver said, his body tensing up again. "Lowell said I'd need to open, getting everything cleaned up from last night, but that I could knock off after that. If I get done, I may just go home and crash for a while."
"Oh, will you need the car?"
I wish, Oliver thought, but that would just put me more into your debt. "No, I can catch a ride with Mason. He usually drives in for an early lunch and then goes back our way. You should still go over for lunch, though. Today's your favorite, meatloaf and potatoes." He watched her face transform with a happy glow. God, she loves me. "We better head in."