Eric climbed out of his truck in the wholesaler yard. Several other farmers were drifting between stacks of feed and fertilizer making broad gestures while telling bad jokes. Normally, Eric would have joined them. Getting away from the farm was a rare opportunity and it was his habit to find enjoyment in it wherever he could. But today was a little different. He couldn't exactly put his finger on what was different about it, but a few things just seemed off.
First, he'd felt strange since breakfast. By the second hour of his drive, he'd become convinced that something in the breakfast had been spoiled or contaminated. Maybe the eggs or the milk. Second was the damn weather. He followed the weather forecasts like a near sociopath. As a kid, he'd been blindsided by a storm that cost him three cattle. Damn things were too dumb to climb out of a ditch when it started to flood. In the wind and rain, he'd overlooked them while his dad was rounding up all the rest. They found them the next morning and his father had been none too pleased. Since then, he'd tracked the weather through any way he could, even keeping his own yearly calendars.
But the past couple of weeks had been wrong. Measurably wrong. The temperature gauges all around the farm read correctly, but when it said sixty and felt eighty that was outright wrong. He'd called around a little to ask if other folks had been experiencing something similar, wondering if somehow all his measuring equipment had gone off. But everyone reported the same thing and then wrote it off as a clear sky with a hot sun. The radio, the TV, and the Internet never gave much particular attention to Small Creek, but they covered the region well enough. Not one outlet mentioned a bizarre heat wave in the smallest sliver of their viewership. He mentioned it to Nancy, but she had the same quick dismissive attitude as everyone else. So what if it's warm? It's Small Creek, wait ten minutes and the weather will change. Except it wasn't changing.
Eric grabbed his folders out of the cab and headed inside. He waved to the various workers, but none of them acknowledged him. Odd, but not unusual. They often had hard mornings unloading trucks. Eric didn't have a hard time sympathizing with an ill humor after a hard morning's work. He made his way through the warehouse to the desks at the far side. Mike Johnson had been his contact at the wholesaler for fifteen years. The overweight man was sitting at his desk as he always was, having his fifteenth cup of coffee for the day. The ancient computer on his desk cast a pale glow on his pallid face which didn't move as Eric approached. "Alright then, Mike?" Eric offered in greeting.
At first, Mike didn't respond. His eyes flicked away from the screen, but didn't settle on Eric. The man seemed to look right through Eric, sending a chill through the dairy farmer unlike anything he'd ever experienced. After a few seconds, Mike's eyes focused, "Oh hell, Eric. Sorry, must have been half asleep or something. Could have sworn you weren't even there. Come on, have a seat here." Mike shifted his bulk to sit a little more forward, causing his chair to groan and squeak. "We had an appointment, didn't we?"
"Sure did, Mike, same as usual. You feeling alright?" Eric half expected the man to drop dead and no one notice.
"I'm alright, yeah. Felt pretty good today, actually. Most days, I don't. Cold gets to my joints. Stack all the damn heaters you want in this place, its still damn cold all the time. Let me get ya pulled up here." Mike's fingers squashed into the keyboard, and the two of them set into a mundane discussion about quantities and prices and dates. Constantly, though, Mike would drift off. His eyes would go slack and, though he refused to acknowledge it, he seemed to forget that anyone was with him at all. "Sorry, say that again," punctuated the end of half of Eric's conversation. In the end, Eric found that writing things down helped. As they wrapped up, Mike drew a look of hard concentration on his face, lowered his head across the desk and gestured for Eric to do the same. Before Eric could react, the man's hand reached out and palmed the side of Eric's face. "Christ, you're there," Mike spluttered, leaning back.
"The hell are you on about, Mike? You damn hand is sweaty."
The relief that had graced Mike's face faded quickly. His eyes narrowed and he spoke sternly, "I ain't going crazy, that's what. You're there. I know you're there. I felt you with my own hand. You handed me this paper."
"Mike, you're worrying me. What's the matter with you? Course I'm here."
"Cept you're not. Not the whole time. I may be old and on too much coffee and chasing away a hangover, but I still have my sense. I ain't gonna stop looking at you because the second I do, you'll flicker away. Just like you've done the whole time we've been talking. You're just gone and I can't remember nothing about you till I concentrate and see you again. I ain't got no other way of explaining it."
"Look here, Mike," Eric said as he stood up. "I don't know what kind of gag you're playing, but I ain't in the mood for it. You got my orders down, don't you? We're on the up and up with the paperwork? Good. Then I'll expect my deliveries on schedule and the next time I come, I'd appreciate you sparing me the nonsense. In the meantime, maybe get off your fat ass and go to a damn doctor. Cause I ain't 'flickering.'" The anger drained out of him as Mike looked away and back again. That cold stare right through Eric caused his heart to thump up into his throat. Mike's eyes refocused and he shook his head. Then, with a new determination, Mike looked away. He didn't look back.
Eric grabbed his paperwork from the desk. He stormed away, bumping into one of the workers, but the man didn't apologize or yell or anything. He simply staggered slightly, went blank for a moment, then went back to his work. Eric ran back to his truck, threw himself into it, and slammed the door. His eyes watched for someone to notice, but no one did. Flustered and panicking, he slammed his hand down on his truck's horn, sending a cutting note throughout the warehouse yard. No one looked. No one stopped their task. Conversations went on without interruption. "What the fuck?"
He cranked the truck and peeled out of the lot.
***
The drive back to Small Creek did nothing to improve Eric's mood. He tried calling ahead to check in with Nancy, and also to affirm his own sanity, but it went straight to voice mail.
That don't mean anything. She spends whole days out of the house without her phone on her. Would forget her ass if it wasn't stuck on her. And Emily, well, she's supposed to be out looking for the fence. We get shit coverage at the house, let alone off in the far pasture. Still, ain't like her not to go in for lunch. She'd see the missed calls then.
One hand on the steering wheel, he thumbed through his phone, debating whether or not calling someone else would be giving in to his paranoia. Too much of his life had been spent as the butt of everyone's jokes, specially those people in Small Creek who liked to gossip. They'd love to catch wind of a weird phone call from Eric Swanson asking if he was real.
Ol' Humphrey won't think anything of it, gossiper or not.
He pressed the button to call the local bar and let it ring, his other hand sweating on the steering wheel. Other cars seemed to acknowledge him, at least, but it was a small comfort knowing that his truck was real if not himself. "Spanish Moss," came the drawl from the other end of the line.
"Humphrey, that you?"
"Ayup, who's this?"