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From Aveline Erickana Ruben's diary:
20th October 2008, 10.30 PM, my bedroom.
I should be studying. I have a test tomorrow but I can't concentrate. Not fully anyway. I couldn't even shake this feeling even after a satisfying round of sprinting in my wolf form with Carrie. We even caught a deer or two. I wanted to run more but Carrie had enough. She was all sullen and disheartened. She refused to tell me more when I asked her.
I should be bothered with that. She's like a sister to me. I should care but my emotional state isn't stable right now and honestly, I don't think I can handle a melodramatic wolf at this moment.
Sigh. I don't know what else to think about. I used to think that by coming to Lexton, I could prove to the others, particularly my father and Alven, that I am more than just a wolf who loves to shop. I'm not just an Alpha Princess waiting to be mated and bear puppies.
In truth, it wasn't because of that -- not entirely. Perhaps I was suffering from this self-obsession with vanity.
I was proud. I wanted this self-satisfaction of being able to say, "I did that." I wanted to go to the further lengths none of which the others have taken.
I was -- AM, pardon me -- envious of Carinelle. She's probably going to be the Alpha of her pack if she had wanted it. She, being the only child of Uncle Jerry and Aunt Fiorelle, had the choice on whether to be the Alpha or not. It depended on whether she had mated or not but it all weighed more on her wanting to be the Alpha. If, in any case, that she mated, her mate would automatically be the Alpha and she'd be the Alpha Queen. I, on the other hand, probably am stuck with the image of the princess-y wolf who loved to shop and create havoc.
Did I mention that I think I like Max?
Yeah, the idiotic human who turned out to be not so bad after all and I just... -- well, it's kind of hard for me to explain in words but I am worried.
What if I fall in love with him? A human, nonetheless! This is a blasphemy waiting to happen.
I think it's best of me to keep my distance from him and yet, his scent....
Sigh. He's got this pull on me, I have to admit that. Ever since I found him wandering alone in the forest, he's got this.... this power of pulling me in. This feeling of wanting to get to know him closer and closer but I must fight this feeling.
The Four Council will not let me be with a human even if that human happened to be deliciously scented. It wasn't food, I was sure of that... It was something else.
And Dad would probably get a coronary if he knew about this.
Avvie
From Carinelle Hynes Thorn's diary:
21th October 2008, 12.00 AM, my bed.
I don't think I can handle another day in Lexton. Really! I can't sleep well! I can't even focus! My heart and soul felt like it had been wrenched out callously!
What was I thinking? I can't keep on being in denial that the past twelve days have been nothing but torture to me.
How could he be so blind? How could he not see that I am the one for him? Why must he go over the taboo and stick to that useless piece of meat?
I guess it's my fault too, in some remote way. I should have told him how I really felt but how could I do that when he looked so happy?
He told me right after their DINNER DATE was over, that it was blissfully fun. He had gotten to know more about this -- this YVAINNE WILKINSON! My ears felt like they were being poured with acid just by hearing him talk about her. He said that he wasn't in love but I knew that he was lying. How could he not be in love with a girl like that?!
She's perfect! For a human anyway! But still!
Ugh! He even had the nerve to drag me down to the stupid Wolfy Cafe and introduced me -- HIS BEST FRIEND -- to her and the worse thing was that she was PERFECTLY beautiful, nice and warm! I couldn't even have the heart to HATE her for that!
And what's even worse, that stupid freaky -- OK, Adrian didn't deserve my outburst here -- Adrian was there. He didn't talk much to me but what was up with that look of pain in his eyes?!
I cannot stand it anymore! You know what, dear diary?? I am going to march straight up to Malcolm when he comes back from meeting Dad and Uncle James tomorrow afternoon.
GOOD-BYE LEXTON!!!!
I don't give a damn care on what Aveline or even Alven going to say about my leaving this stupid idiotic human school! I don't care anymore! Why should I care when my own heart bled like it's going to kill me at this very moment??
Sign me up for the next plane back home!!
Carrie.
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Aveline bit her lips. What was she doing here? She felt like kicking herself. This wasn't entirely included as a way to avoid falling in love with Maxwell Jay Adams. He had been a pain in the neck in school, well; he didn't really do anything to annoy her. It was the opposite thing. He had been trying all day to talk to her but she wouldn't let him. She was anxious that every second spent with him might accumulate into what she had feared the most.
And now, why had she dragged herself to the front door of his house?
She peered through the window and saw the house was empty. She should feel relieved but funnily, she felt utterly disappointed. She missed him, in some weird way. It was hard for her to explain and she'd wanted to ask Carinelle about it but Carinelle had been so sensitive nowadays that she found it rather discouraging to go to her.
Her brother? Well, she could have gone and asked Alven on what he thought about this weird feeling in her but he's rarely ever home nowadays. The only time she ever saw him was in school and ALWAYS that human girl was with him, clinging to him like he was something precious to let go.
Her wolf on the other hand, felt angry with her.
Why are you so mad with me? She thought to her wolf and it howled and howled like she had wanted something but refused to.