CHAPTER 24
We sat on his bed with his fingers of one hand playing with the ends of my hair, his touch, gentle, soothing sifts followed by short tugs. He wore soft loose pants and no shirt. This gave me a wide expanse of stormy gray chest to stare at. And I most certainly was. It was a work of art, not anything like eight pack abs, something more resembling a Gordian knot. Strong curved muscles wove over and under each other and I couldn't process the physics of it. Without even thinking twice I reached out and touched. I felt him still completely but it didn't caution me in the least. My hand brushed the all that smooth hardness in front of me and I felt a tumble of movement like rapids in a canyon. I placed both palms flat on him and looked at him in wonder.
"It's amazing! What am I feeling?!"
"Darkness, power." He studied me with mercury eyes, "You are so reckless."
I shot backwards but didn't get far when the tight pull on my scalp stopped me, "I'm sorry. I should have asked." Although why I felt I should have probably had more to do with his temper. Our reactions were not alike when it came to so many similar behaviors that we exchanged between each other.
His reply wasn't to acknowledge my apology, "I now fully understand everything that has happened to you and will continue to happen to you." He slowly unclenched his fist from around my hair and lowered his hand.
I grew flustered and felt my face redden. He was being condescending again. I was sure of it. I turned my head to the side to avoid looking at him. The lightest touch of his finger and thumb on my chin had me following his movement to look back towards him. I bit my lip hard, unwilling to voice my insecurities in a verbal attack at him.
He dropped his hand only when he was satisfied that my gaze would stay on his and started talking. "Ezra's request took up so much of my time in research. I almost put you back in the depths of Ila's files because I simply didn't believe what I was reading. So full of anger, kindness, and recklessness. The combination of which opposed the normal and solely justified behaviors of hunters. You were one of two that I called my brothers into the office for." He gently pushed on my shoulder with one finger in a request for me to lay on my side. It wasn't until we lay face to face that he continued.
"Can you guess what they told me?"
My answer was to look at him in inquiry. Shorn telling me his thoughts was worth the silence I held.
"The ones that met you on the outskirts of their temporary bindings said you interacted differently than other hunters. You weren't instantly weary, didn't acknowledge them as a threat. After talking with you my brothers felt that you saw them as a being of worth. They told me that they wouldn't want to kill you because of who you are, not only because of what you are." He snorted at me, "Some of them were so irate with your kindness that they went out of their way to anger you."
I couldn't keep the noise of disbelief from erupting out of my mouth.
"Do you doubt me?"
"No, but how do you know they told you the truth, because there was no 'some' about it, Shorn, all of them went out of their way to harass me. I chose to ignore it."
His face hardened in displeasure, "They know better than to lie to me. And you ignored it so well that they had to push you. It was in their best interest to determine if you were blissfully unaware, employing a charade, or," his touch was fleeting on my cheek, "gods help us, sincere."
I scowled and mumbled, "It's no more than what you did when you called Oldavai and me into your office."
He gave me a half smirk and tugged on my arm, "Get closer."
I moved in.
"Closer."
I looked askance, "We are close."
His eyes hooded and his arm pulled me in hard and fast.
"Oof," my hands smacked into his chest. "That's close."
He placed his chin on top of my head, "You want to instigate touch, so touch. You will always have my permission to touch."
My arm tentatively moved over his ribcage and in response his leg curled up and around me. My own leg naturally glided between his while the fingertips of one hand grazed gently over his back. The other semi-trapped one between the bed and his body glided over his shoulder. It found its place curled around his neck with my fingers threaded in his hair. I felt him relax, inch by inch.
His voice whisper soft, barely disturbed the silence, "Remember, Dove, I have the same permission to do so to you."
I had been subject to that in so many little moments, being aware that he stopped asking for my consent. The ramifications of his thought process weren't lost on me and, as this was Shorn, I knew I needed to be on guard before I let him sneak in so far that he was in control before I even realized it. Refusing to let these meanderings keep me awake, I snuggled my face into the hollow of his neck and let myself take advantage of the peaceful sleep he always afforded me.
He was gone when I woke, but the portal remained open into his office where he sat at his desk diligently working, a quill in hand. I heard him sigh as he looked up at the door.
"Enter."
A woman in auburn robes entered and shut the door behind her. She pulled back her hood and nodded to him. "Have you given any thought to our proposal?"