Balthazar was waiting for her. He got up from her couch as soon as she opened the door.
"Do you have a key that I don't know about?" She tossed her keys in her purse and dropped it on the side table.
"You were with him tonight." He backed her against the wall. "I can smell him on you."
"I was trying to get some answers." Her voice came out in a hiss. "Since you won't give me any." She slid along the wall trying to get past him but he followed her. "If you move out of the way I can go shower."
His eyes closed cutting off the glow that had started with his snarl, before she could see it. "Sorry." He stepped away to give her room.
"Thanks." She slipped past him to disappear into the washroom.
Her shower took longer than she intended but she was distracted by thoughts of Crimson. It was hard not to be, every time she saw him she ended up with more questions. She knew they'd talked for a least part of the time they were together but she couldn't shake the feeling that she was missing something. There had to be more to the story than he was sent to track down Balthazar. She was sure of it.
Balthazar was laying in the bed when she came out of the washroom. "Were you planning on staying over?" She smirked.
"I thought we could talk."
"Are you going to tell me what's really going on?" She pulled open a drawer to search for a t-shirt to wear.
"I'm trying to protect you," he said quietly.
"From who?" She pulled an old faded red shirt over her head and let the towel fall down, draped it over the chair at the dresser then turned to him. He had sat up, his eyes were fixed on her legs. "Is someone trying to kill me?" She smiled.
"Not trying but they will if necessary." His eyes slid up to her face. Her smile faded quickly.
Holy shit. He's serious.
"Please tell me what's going on," she said softly. He stood and walked towards her. Half truths weren't working, he was going to have to show her what he really was. Internally he braced himself, knowing with her past it was unlikely that she would react well.
"Have you noticed anything different about me?" He asked softly.
"Like you being a stalker?" His smile was a little lopsided.
"Beyond that."
"I don't know. You're a little pale but that's about it."
He took her hand and laid it on his chest. "What do you feel?"
"What are you—?" She looked at her hand and pressed a little harder. Her head tilted, as if she was trying to listen for something. "I can't feel anything."
"Nor will you."
"What the hell are you trying to tell me?" She pulled her hand away from him and backed up a step. He stepped forward, following her till she bumped into the wall.
"I'm going to show you." She looked for a way past him but he had her cornered. "Try to stay calm."
"I don't like where this is going," she whispered.
"This may not be easy for you to accept." His voice changed slightly. She noticed his eyes first, they seemed to glow in the dim light. Bright green, as if his irises had caught fire. He moved closer as her gaze slid down his face to his mouth.
"Are those fangs?" She took a breath. "Holy shit!" Her hands connected with his chest, shoving hard. "You're a vampire!" He didn't budge. It was like trying to push a mountain out of her way. She kept trying even though he closed the space between them with another step.
"Em please. You have to lower your voice."
"Are you fucking kidding me?" She looked up. "We treated him like he was insane and all along you were hiding right under our noses." Her voice rose. "How am I supposed to stay calm? The thing that drove my brother to kill himself is standing right in front of me." She pressed herself against the wall with a groan. "You were in my bed." He put his hand over her mouth.
"I was not one of the ones that tormented your brother. I didn't know about him until you told me what happened." Tears were running down her cheeks. "If I ever find who did that to him I will make sure they pay for it." His eyes had returned to the guise she was used to. "That will have to wait though. We need to leave." She tried to shake her head. "I'll take you somewhere safe until the danger has passed."
She reached up and pulled at his hand. "I'm not going anywhere with you," she hissed.
"Please. It's not safe for you. Especially now that he knows where you live."
"Because he's looking for you?"
"He was sent by my queen to find me." He stepped back.
"The queen of your coven?" He nodded. "And you can't go back why?"
"She will force me to do something I've chosen not to." His eyes closed, his voice was tight. "Turn a human."
"I can't believe I'm asking this." She threw her hands up. "Why would you refuse, isn't that part of being a vampire?"
"I won't force this existence on anyone." His hand settled in the middle of her chest. "You know how precious life is. Can you not believe that I would feel the same?"
"Do not use my brother to plead your case." She yanked his hand away.
"I'm not," he said softly. She stared at him for a minute, torn between grabbing her keys and storming out and wrapping her arms around him. The look in his eyes pulled her towards him. It was loneliness and regret. She been carrying it around with her for over a year. She took a breath and shook her head.
"I can't go with you." Her voice wavered. "I have responsibilities here that I can't just drop because some vampire says I'm in danger." He opened his mouth to speak but she turned away from him, wiping her cheeks dry. "I don't know if I can trust you anyway. This could all be an act to get me somewhere more private so you can do whatever it is you do to unsuspecting women."
"If I wanted to kill you I could have several times already." She shivered in the humid summer air. "And if I'd wanted to make this easier on myself I could have compelled you and forced you to do anything I wanted."
"How would I know if you haven't done that already?"
"You wouldn't."
"That's not reassuring you know."
"Would you rather I lie to you?" She shook her head. "Em, it's my fault you're in danger, please let me protect you."
"I'm not going anywhere." He moved to her, grabbed her shoulders and turned her around.
"Em."
"Balthazar." She took a step back. "Can you back off for just one bloody second?" She threw her hands up. "It's all a bit much. You know?" He took a step closer. She turned and marched to the kitchen, yanked the fridge open, pulled out a beer, twisted the top off and took a long pull. He watched her with a smile. She swallowed and wiped the corners of her mouth with a well manicured index finger. "What?" She held the beer out to him. He shook his head. "So are you going to explain what any of this has to do with me?"