I take several deep breathes, inhaling the salty ocean air. I agreed to this. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. The sunlight is warm on my bare skin, almost too warm since I'm forced to wear this ridiculous jacket while above deck to conceal my wings. Both my sister and Lucifer assure me that I have untapped magic of my own, but I don't believe them. I've never been as strong as my sisters, which makes me a perfect peace offering. I can't hurt anyone, even accidentally. I dig my claws into the steel railing and smile a little. Well, I'm not completely helpless. I still have inhuman strength.
"Miss, if you could move below deck so the men can concentrate, I would appreciate it." the captain says curtly. I bow my head demurely and head back to my tiny little cabin. The room is tiny and suffocating hot, but at least I can sort of spread my wings out. I strip the jacket off and spread them as much as I can, even though my feathers hit the walls before they're fully stretched out. Somehow I missed out on my father's genes. Andariel and Belial are both gorgeous, but I'm simply plain, almost human, with long chestnut hair, large brown eyes, and freckles. Who ever heard of an angel with freckles? Even my wings are a tawny brown with white spots, like a doe. I'm entirely too plain. A knock on the door makes me turn around.
"Yes?" I call. The door opens to let in another angel, my handler until we reach God's island. Both of my sisters volunteered to come with me, but Lucifer wouldn't allow them. He feared God would try to kidnap us all, which is not an entirely unreasonable fear. He sits down beside me with a sigh and offers me his wrist.
"I'm not hungry." I whisper. I hate feeding off of him, primarily because I can feel how much he detests me. The only reason he hasn't hurt me is because he fears what Lucifer would do to him. He shrugs.
"Suit yourself." he snaps. He lays down and closes his eyes. In a few minutes, he's fully asleep. I lay down as well with a deep sigh. I want to sleep, but I hate the feeling of his flesh against mine. He makes a soft noise in his sleep and wraps his arm around my waist. I fight the urge to scream as he draws me closer.
"Justin." he sighs as he buries his face in my hair. I smile slightly, wondering just who Justin is. Maybe I should ask, but I'm not sure it's a good idea. The fallen ones have a much more tolerant view of homosexuality, because they think that it's better for one angel to mate with another than for an angel to mate with a human. I close my eyes and try to sleep.
When I wake up, the angel is gone. I make my way back to the surface hesitantly, wondering if I should truly be here. I know the captain doesn't want me up here. My guardian angel stands at the railing, staring up at the full moon.
"Would you like to fly with me?" he asks. I stay in the shadow of the doorway, careful to not expose my wings lest a stray satellite find me.
"I can't." I whisper. "I don't have the magic to conceal myself."
He turns and offers me his hand with the first smile I've seen on him. "I can keep you hidden from sight."
I step into the light and take his hand. His wings are a pale, pearly gray, with an almost metallic sheen. In sunlight they're simply gray, but in moonlight they shine silver. We fly through the cloudless night, and as spiral up higher, he leans in for a kiss. I press my lips to his with a soft sigh.
"Duriel." he calls. I give him a soft smile and he frowns. "Duriel!"
My eyes fly open and I look up at my handler.
"Duriel, it is time to go." he says. I blink up at him.
"Huh?" I ask. He sighs and jerks me to my feet.
"It is time for me to finally be rid of you, simpleton. Now, come!" he growls. I stumble after him, forgetting my coat, but no matter. If we are truly arrived, then I will be fine. The island is protected from view by all non-magical beings. I launch myself from the railing, reveling in the feel of the air rushing through my feathers once again. I go a bit higher than is absolutely necessary before I come down to shore. The angels await me, somber and unsmiling.