There was another meeting I was looking forward to all day, Erskine's face echoed through my mind, as I was reliving my encounter with Anne. It was difficult to remember where I was and not throw myself into the memory. I could not help but wonder what tonight would bring. Would we talk and work out logistics? Would he be as cryptic has he has been all along? Would he make love to me again until our screams fill the forest? Damnable questions kept coming and never an answer to be found. Absentmindedly I closed and locked my car up and made my way up the stairs to my apartment. I cleared a space in my living room and went about the preparations to mediate. I moved the coffee table, and lit my candles white for purity one blue and one gold for the Lord and Lady. I stripped down to my new bra and panties that I hoped Erskine would like. I drew my circle with some sea salt, though you could not see it for it had fallen into the rug, I knew it was there. I sat cross legged and close my eyes. I followed the path of my breathing, listening to it rise and fall trying to see the path in my mind's eye. As I relaxed I tied to remember Erskine's light and energy how it filled me, it did not come. I opened my mind's eye to the forest that calls to me, to the path that knows my feet better than I.
One slow step at a time I walked on in search for my lover, I did not call him to me but rather waited for him to make the move. I felt as if I was a piece on a chess board and I did not want to awaken the queen's anger. I did not know the rules here, and this place and the people in it have been friendly, but I know that this is not always the case. They are called the good people out of fear and reverence, not because they are loving and kind. I suddenly did not feel as safe here as I once had, there was no sun that day, no wind, and in fact there was no sound at all. I finally made it to our spot and I knelt down in the grass to make my circle with my finger. I bowed my head down in child's pose as to humble myself before this new presence.
"If I am intruding I am sincerely sorry, my hope is to find peace here not to disrupt yours." I said making sure to keep my head down.
I stayed very still for what seemed like hours but I am sure was only a few moments. I soon felt hands on my shoulders it did not feel like Erskine's and the energy was different this time. I could see on the ground that there was a gold light emanating from this fairy. While the voice was not loud it permeated everything.
"Raise your head child."
Immediately obeying I lifted my eyes to see the most beautiful image, a female fairy surrounded by a golden halo. Her aura was unlike anything I have ever seen, shimmering in golds and opal fires. She knelt as to be eye level with me, her silvery white hair spilling over her shoulders in curls reached to the ground. I had never been in such awe. I could say nothing in reply. She reached her long finger to my chin and helped me to close my mouth, which must have been agape. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheek out of a mix of fear, awe and embarrassment.
"You have nothing to fear, do not cry, I came here to see you. You are very important to us as I am sure you know." I could only reply with a quizzical look.
"Oh I see he has not told you, I am sorry that I will have to leave you more confused than before, but Erskine really should be the one to enlighten you, as to your purpose here. You will see me again when all has been revealed and I shall help you through the process."
Just as I managed to find the words, "What process?" She faded into the mist. "Arrrrggghhh!" Ok even though I was looking for peace, it apparently decided to take a vacation. Who was this woman? Where was my Erskine? I looked around me to see that the sun had returned and the birds were happily chirping again. All had seemed right and in place now. Who ever she was while she was not scary, I knew that she was someone of great power here. I have never seen and aura shimmer and glow like that, Erskine's was beautiful and strong but nothing like her's. I wonder what she meant about my purpose and what purpose could I possibly have; I am nothing, a nobody, if you will. There can be no connection other than Erskine between the fairy realm and I. I assumed no one else had known of my presence here. I mean I have noticed that I am a bit on the gifted side when it comes to spirituality, but not much more than anyone else who studies. After much pondering, I released my circle and asked my leave. I stood up and made my way to my door between worlds. I know that may seem pretty powerful, but I know lots of meditators who use doors to enter their peaceful place. How was I to know that my safe place was in the fairy realm? Besides I did not know one could even end up there through meditation alone.
