I heave a great sigh of relief, and am amazed to see the breath form a steam cloud in the air. Is it cold? I ask myself. I didn't feel chilled. I wrapped my arms around myself and was surprised again to feel the sensation of skin instead of the t-shirt I had worn to bed. I looked down and saw I was nude. I turned in a tight circle to try and get a glimpse of this dream I was having. I had been having strange dreams on a nightly basis lately. I had begun to wonder if I should seek psychiatric help, since I seemed to be beating myself up in my sleep. Waking with bruises and scratches and sore muscles.
As in all the other dreams, my hair was longer, I couldn't see it, no mirror in this dark place, but I felt the weight of it against my back. I could see a strange light emanating from the walls. The walls themselves looked to be black, but they had a luminous cast to them. I heard music, a slightly off key organ, playing something familiar, but long forgotten. I licked my lips, and tasted the bittersweet wine that Damon had shared with me for dinner. I had wanted him to stay. I was so attracted to him, but he begged off. I wondered if he thought me a slut for pushing so hard for him to fuck me. God, it had been so long. I was so horny.
I began walking, in a sort of daze, toward the music. I saw the back of a woman sitting at the organ, playing that song I couldn't remember. I recognized her from somewhere, but I didn't know where. I could see something in the set of her shoulders, the way she held her head, and the shape of her hands that reminded me of something I had lost. I felt a vague sense of deja vu and felt a shiver run up my spine and lodge at the base of my neck.
I walked past her, I could not get a good look since it seemed as I got closer, the organ turned so I only got a view from the one angle. I shrugged and she was forgotten as soon as she was out of my sight, I think. I went on, walking slowly, feeling fuzzy and warm. I stopped at a doorway. On it hung a crucifix, sideways. I turned it, so that it pointed upright, and it slid upside down. I looked at it for a long time and felt a ball of cold fear in my belly for a moment, and then the door opened and I forgot about the crucifix. It meant somethingβ¦. but what?