Mitch stared hard at me. "You're kidding."
I squinted at him. What could I have I been kidding about? I just offered my virginity to him and that's how he responded? "Kidding about what?"
"You're a virgin?"
Oh God, why did he have to ask me that? Why couldn't he have just accepted it and moved on? "Um, yeah. I am." I couldn't look at him now. I felt...ashamed. Embarrassed.
"Wow," I heard him say.
I rolled my eyes. Alright, enough of this, I thought. I didn't need this. I got up, "you know what, forget it."
"Stop it," he said quietly. In one quick movement, Mitch stood, picked me up, threw me down on the bed and covered my body with his. He tenderly traced the back of his fingers on my cheek. "I'm just surprised is all."
He was so strong. No one had ever made me feel like a rag doll. "Surprised...by what?"
Mitch stared into my eyes. He was obviously thinking really hard about something. "I had always hoped that... I mean..." he tried to complete his thought. "I assumed that you had been with at least one man."
"What does THAT mean?" I could feel my face turning red.
"Please don't get upset, " his eyes softened. "I just mean that I never imagined that I would be lucky enough..." He trailed off.
Lucky enough? I was 21 and had never kissed a guy before him! What was there to be lucky about? "I assume you've been with other women."
"Yes." Of course he had. Just look at him. "But, please see it as a good thing."
How could I see it as a good thing? He knew what it was like. He knew what to expect. I wouldn't have a clue to what I was doing! I stared up at him angrily. "How could it possibly be a good thing?"
He kissed me softly. "Because I now know how to touch you. I know when and how to be gentle, take my time and go slow." He kissed me again, his lips lingered. "And I know when to meet your urgency and how to do it." Again, he lowered his lips to mine.
Suddenly, the hunger was back, with a vengeance. Mitch's words were the source. I wanted to experience his touch. I needed to feel the pain as Mitch opened me up for the first time. I wanted to feel us breathing together as we shared in pleasure.
Mitch leaned off to the side and unbuttoned my shirt, his lips never leaving mine. Only when he pulled my shirt open did he break from our kiss. I was uncomfortable watching him eye my exposed flesh. Mitch groaned softly and found my lips again. His hand moved to my stomach, tracing it lightly.
"Relax," he said against my lips. He must have felt the tension in my abs. Relax...like it was that easy.
His large hand cupped my left breast for a moment, then went around my back to unfasten my bra. Without thinking, I rolled towards him, giving him better access. Mitch unhooked it with a gentle snap of his finger. All of this seemed so agonizingly slow. I was starving for him and nervous; I wished things would speed up.
Mitch sat up, pulling me to a sitting position next to him. I stared at him as he helped me out of my shirt...and then my bra.