AN: This story contains one scene of borderline non-consensual sex. If you think that this might bother you, stop reading here.
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I looked over the card that the 3rd floor RA had dropped off this afternoon, but it didn't seem to cover my needs. After the midpoint of the semester, the housing administration had made a great deal of noise about their "midterm survey." The intention, as it had been relayed to me, was to loosen up the channels of communication between students and housing staff. Its true purpose, judging by the questions on the 3x5 card, seemed to be giving captive students a chance to escape their horrible roommates anonymously. Or, at the very least, to deceive those poor souls into thinking that their concerns were heard and noted.
Question 1: How would you rate your stay in Waltzmeister Hall?
I circled 3 for "indifferent."
Question 2: How would you rate the housing staff of Waltzmeister Hall?
I circled 4 for "good."
Question 3: How would you rate your roommate in Waltzmeister Hall?
I circled 5 for "great." I just took that to be synonymous with "overwhelmingly sexy."
Question 4: How would you rate your relationship with your roommate?
I circled 1 for "very bad."
Question 5: Of the following, which of your roommate's habits do you think they could change to improve your relationship? (Circle all that apply.)
Showering schedule, cleanliness, study habits... the list went on for a while, but nowhere was the suggestion that she should stop being so fucking hot around me, so I circled "none of the above" and slipped the card under the RA's door.
Mallory and I had gotten along swimmingly during our first week. I distinctly remember our first meeting on the weekend before classes began. I had already moved in and was heading out for dinner when she arrived, toting just a single suitcase up the stairs. However, the incident doesn't stand out in my memory because she was a light packer. Rather, what caught my eye was her manner of dress.
You see, I went to high school and spent most of my post-pubescent life in Nowheresville out in eastern Washington. Well OK, the town wasn't really called that, but, for the sake of honesty, it would be an improvement if it were. In any case, the female dress code in Nowheresville was very strict: a spacious dress that covered one's shins was most desirable and t-shirt with baggy jeans was the lowest acceptable outfit. Beyond this window of decency lay forbidden fruits such as tight-fitting jeans, summer dresses, and red heels. I had an old clothing catalogue in my room back home that featured women in shapely jeans, knee-length skirts, and shirts that gave away just a hint of cleavage. Before I came to college I used to stay up late, looking at the pictures with a flashlight under my covers while I would idly massage my breasts.
This, however, was as close as I got to sexy before I saw Mallory on that fateful afternoon. By any sensible standards she was perfectly modest, but to my tender eyes she was practically scandalous. Her top, if one could believe it, was sleeveless! Leaving her freckled shoulders completely exposed. The frilled straps that stopped the whole thing from falling down scooped across the tops of her breasts, hinting as the treasures that lay below. As if that wasn't enough, the black straps of her bra was just visible under the fabric.
I was frozen in a mixture of erotic shock and horror that someone could actually wear an outfit so revealing. But if I was frozen by that, then I practically melted when her eyes, popping with the thin layer of black eyeliner around them, locked on me with a hungry look reserved for only the most sultry models in the back of my secret catalogue. I was in heaven and hell all at once when she brushed a lock a curly brown hair over her ear and walked past me.
It wasn't until she walked through the door and out of the stairwell that I snapped back into reality and had to deal with the thoughts I had just indulged in. Pushing such images as her naked shoulders aside, I hurried down the stairwell and counted myself lucky that the incident had passed.
My luck, however, did and didn't hold when I returned later that evening to find my forbidden dream sitting on the bed opposite to mine. We were roommates.
"Hello," she greeted me with a tone surprisingly pleasant for the devil incarnate. "I'm Mallory." She held out a hand which I shook, the soft warmth of her skin almost eliciting a whimper from my lips.
"Eliza, but you can call me Lizzy," I returned with shaking knees.
She took a shower later that night and left me with my first experience masturbating. Something primal overtook me as I imagined her in there, naked, lathering soap over her firm breasts, sliding the loofah down her smooth legs...
Tame as these thoughts seem now, at the time they were driving me crazy. I unbuttoned my jeans and began to rub myself through my panties. Still, this wasn't enough, so I did the unthinkable and slipped my fingers into my panties where they made direct contact with my slightly wet sex.
Fascinated at what I was feeling, I pulled my fingers out of my jeans and studied the whitish liquid that accumulated on them. However, my moment of wonder was interrupted when I heard the shower shut off and Mallory's feet on the floor as she stepped out. I quickly wiped the liquid off onto the side of my bed and pulled out a book, as though I'd been reading the whole time. But the fire within me was still burning and it would continue to burn for some time, as long as my desire for Mallory went unsatisfied.
Now I say that we had gotten along fine for the first week because it was on the Friday night after classes began that our relationship became horribly complicated. To preface what happened, I should say that my parents were quite religious, along with the rest of my childhood community. Of course this should be no surprise if my exposition to this point has carried any weight. Still, you might be surprised to find that, though I didn't earnestly believe that the religion of my parents was true, I still valued many of the lessons passed down to me through it.
To that end, I found Mallory's tight jeans and sleeveless shirts appalling, in spite of the exciting effect that they had on me. Though I had found a free block of time to masturbate freely to thoughts of her, I felt guilty and disgusting afterwards, resolving never to do it again. (But of course I did.) And, most importantly of all, an intimate relationship with Mallory was completely out of the question. Although even I cannot understand my attitudes at the time, looking back on them as I write this, I can report that I valued my chastity a great deal and that no means of losing it would be as degrading to me as sex with another woman.
For these reasons, I was repelled when she kissed me on that Friday night.
It was late in the evening and I had finished my only pieces of homework, a math assignment and a bit of reading, so I happily accepted Mallory's invitation to come sit by her on the bed and watch a movie on her laptop. Her warmth was intoxicating as I rested my head on her soft freckled shoulder and she smelled like summer roses abloom under my nose. It all happened so fast that I can't be sure about how things transpired, but I think that I may have leaned in just a little when I saw her coming down to kiss me.
Her lips were soft and tasted of fruit. I whimpered as our flesh melded, but something inside my brain snagged me and pulled me back. I jumped off the bed, shaking my hands just to do anything.
"No! No, I can't!" I said, pacing back and forth with my eyes on the floor. I couldn't bear to look at Mallory just then.
"I don't understand," I heard her say, probably with a puzzled look on her cute face. "I can
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