Bonnie Woods' POV
Penobscot County Sheriff's Office
November 4, 2019
"Welcome back, Bonnie," the receptionist said as I walked into the office.
"Thank you, Lois." It had been over two weeks since I saw her or my other coworkers at Sean's funeral service. "I got your card; it helped a lot." I'd gotten thousands of cards, and it was only last week that I'd been emotionally ready to read them. There were letters of sympathy and encouragement from friends, relatives, members of other law enforcement agencies, and other Packs. Once I started reading them, the tears started flowing and didn't stop for two days. It was the breakthrough I needed to move forward again.
Still, I'd spent almost ten days on suicide watch at the Pack House. I may have grown up as an orphan, but I knew how much my family loved me now. Sean's parents, George and Sally, had been my parents in every way but biology since my mating. The Baxter Pack had embraced me without reservation, and I was blown away by the love and support they showed me. With their help, I was finally able to return home to the memories of my previous life. It might take years before I could go through all of Sean's stuff, and I'd never forget our time together. The ache in my soul was a constant reminder of what those were-coyotes took from me.
I headed back towards my office, returning the greetings and embraces of the other Deputies on the way. It took me ten minutes to get there, but that was all right. Everyone was happy I was back, but I could see the guilt in their eyes. The one thing they felt they owed me was to bring his killer to justice, and they hadn't done that. Our meth cook and his two were-coyote accomplices were still at large despite a nationwide manhunt.
My need for justice finally pushed the thoughts of suicide aside. I wanted to be there when the bastards got caught, whether it was the FBI or a Pack that did it. The problem was that we had no solid leads to go on; we didn't even have a name for the chemist, just a photograph! And the three were-coyotes we captured across the Canadian border? Less than helpful. Adrienne did her best to work something out. Nothing could overcome the wariness their kind has towards their larger cousins. The three refused to share any information, including the locations of other were-coyote dens. Our Mediator knew the father recognized the person in the photo, but he wouldn't talk. She gave them every chance to walk away, and they wouldn't take it. The Alpha was ready to kill them all, but our Council Fixer had a better idea. He had some of our tech geniuses clone their cellphones and plant tracking devices in their phones, car, and clothing. "Let them lead us to the others," Clyde proposed. "We've got nothing to lose."
He was wrong. We lost both time and the opportunity to extract answers when the were-coyotes disabled the trackers within a day. If the dens didn't know we were coming after them over Sean's death, they did now.
"Thank God you're back," Detective Max Plunk told me as I hung up my jacket inside my office door. "The paperwork is killing me."
"You better get used to it. I hit twenty-five next year, and you're the senior detective in the room." Max had been a hard-charging patrol deputy in the day. As a detective, he still loved to mix it up more than write it up. He had a good arrest record and was the obvious choice to replace me when I retired.
"You sure you don't want to stick around for a few years? Max out your pension?"
"I've got Sean's...." I couldn't say it. I sat down at my desk, trying to pull myself together. I could do this.
"Shit, I'm sorry, Bonnie." The tear rolling down my cheek didn't escape his notice.
I wiped it away, took a deep breath, and let it out. "It's not your fault, Max. I think I'm all right, and then some little thing sets me off again. I'll be fine in a minute." I leaned back and closed my eyes, pushing my wolf back into my mind. "I had planned to work until we could both retire, but now? I don't see the point anymore."
"You're still a hell of a cop, Bonnie. We can use you around here."
"I know. Give me a minute, will you?" He nodded and closed the door as he walked out. I booted up my computer and grabbed the stuff in my inbox. Doing a quick sort, I set half of it aside for Max to do because he should have done it when I was gone. Routine reports, overtime slips, expense reports, and other 'read and sign' paperwork. If I took care of it, I'd be rewarding bad habits. I could almost hear the swearing I'd get when I plopped it back on his desk.
I was an hour into the rest of the paperwork when I heard a knock on the door. I could scent Sheriff Ty on the other side. "Come in."
Ty smiled at me as he closed the door behind him and took a seat. "How are you holding up, Bonnie?"
I had to think for a moment. "I'm all right, but I won't be for long," I replied. "The only thing keeping my wolf from giving up is the hope of revenge, and I'm pretty sure Sean's killers aren't in Penobscot County. That makes this job an impediment, not a help."
That wasn't what he wanted to hear, but it was the truth. "How can I help?"
"I'm putting in my retirement papers with the State today," I told him. "With accumulated vacation, overtime, and sick leave, I'll be done by the end of March. I come back to work on the last day, and I'm gone."
"What then?"
"That depends on whether the first part of my plan works," I replied. "Carlisle's time on the DEA task force is up in a few weeks. I want to replace him."
"The DEA doesn't need supervisors," Ty said.