Council Fixer Clyde Lassiter's POV
Black Bear Inn, Bangor, Maine
My wolf was going nuts on me. Alpha Anthony texted me last night after Bonnie's retirement party. Bonnie took my note from him, but she was drunk and might not call me until she'd slept it off. I was a little disappointed her wolf was still hiding me from her human side; it's not like Bonnie could miss my scent. If she knew I was her mate, she wouldn't be able to stay away.
My mate was out there, and she wanted nothing to do with me. She was like a wild animal, frightened and skittish, lashing out with her teeth and claws when cornered. My human side stressed patience and humility, while my wolf wanted to subdue and force her to accept that her place was at my side. Every hour Bonnie refused to talk to me was proof that my wolf was right.
I couldn't sleep at three in the morning, so I headed out. I walked into the Bangor City Forest, a natural area just west of the hotel. I got in a hard run, circling the area three times without being seen, and it was enough to settle my wolf down until I could sleep again.
It was three-thirty now, and I was still sitting in my hotel room. A baseball game was on the television, a pizza box from lunch was in the garbage, and my bags were packed and ready to go at a moment's notice. I looked at my phone, tossed it on the pillow, and then it started to ring. I snatched it back up, letting out my breath when I saw it was Alpha Anthony. "Lassiter," I answered.
"Bonnie is gone," he said as my heart dropped to my stomach. "She left on her motorcycle a few hours ago, saying she was running some errands. Bonnie wasn't home when her mom got off work. She found a note goodbye, car keys, and her will in her room."
"Has she broken the Pack Bond?"
"No, but she's too far to link. Her phone goes straight to voice mail, probably turned off like last time."
"Did you..."
"No tracker. Bonnie would check."
Shit. "Any idea where Bonnie is going?"
He let out a breath. "I'm hoping that Bonnie is taking some time off to travel the country and get her mind right. I can't guarantee that, though. The other possibilities are more concerning."
I thought about it for a few seconds. "If Bonnie is going after the coyotes, she'd have to break command first. I'll warn the Council she may be heading their way."
"Heading west doesn't mean she's attacking the Council," Anthony said evenly. "Don't put motives on her that she hasn't evidenced."
"It's a precaution, that's all." I had to know one more thing. "Did she read my note?"
"She tore it in half and threw it away. Good luck finding her, Clyde. Let me know if I can help."
Dammit. "I will, Alpha." I ended the call, grabbed my things, and headed for the car. I made some phone calls along the way, the first to the Security Center at Council Headquarters. I explained the situation but minimized the danger when asked if they were authorized to take her out. "Look, I don't know if she's heading your way, and it's not illegal to visit Council Headquarters. She's still Pack, and she's done nothing against our laws. IF she breaks our laws? THEN we will deal with her in strict compliance with the law. That is our oath and our duty."
"Understood, Fixer. I'll double patrols and post extra guards at the entrances."
"Do that. Tracker Woods is hanging out at biker bars and staying at motels, so send a few Enforcers out to those in the area. If anyone spots her, notify me immediately. I'll be there in about five hours."
"I'll keep you posted." I hung up and started calling Alphas in the Northeast. I didn't expect Bonnie to show up in their territories, but they might run across her. I reiterated that the Council did not have a detainment order on her, but it wouldn't help. If they captured her, she wouldn't escape without a beating.
Once I finished with those calls, I called the one person I could trust about this. "Luna Adrienne? It's Clyde."
"Hang on a minute." I heard a door close and music play. "Did you talk to her yet?"
"No. Bonnie even tore up the note I sent."
"It's going to take time, Clyde. Seven months isn't enough to recover from the loss when the Council blocks her revenge on the people who killed him. While she associates you with the Council, her ears and eyes are closed to you."
"I need to talk to her before she destroys her future," I replied.
"Then pick your side." My heart sank into my stomach. "Think about it from her perspective. If she accepted you tonight, how would that work? Would she move in with you? Would she support your work at the Council? Hell, would she agree to join the Council Pack and take Chairman Sanders as her Alpha?"
The thought was ludicrous. Even if Bonnie submitted to him, Sanders would never accept her. "She'd kill him first," I concluded.
"Or she'd die trying. You have to change your life to be in hers, Clyde. Show her by your actions that you love her because she won't listen to your words. Your human side has to prove himself before your wolf has a chance."
I would have to quit my job, which brought up another problem. "If I quit now, Chairman Sanders will assign another Fixer to the case. The others won't hesitate to take her out. I've been able to hold back the Enforcers and other Packs for now. Without me, she'll be in more danger."
"Bonnie can take care of herself. Her behavior can be self-destructive because she needs to risk death to feel alive again. Riding fast and fighting bikers will replace the thrill she used to get in her job. I was the same way for a while after I lost my mate. It took me years before I stopped thinking about death."
"But she has me," I protested.
"If she lives long enough. Clyde, if you want your happily ever after, you'll have to help her move on. You need to help her find and kill the bastards who shot Sean without getting killed or going rogue."
"I have to help her break Alpha command and get away with it?"
She let out a chuckle. "THAT is what you have to figure out." My mind was spinning. "I can tell you where Bonnie will be on Saturday if you want to try again."
"Where?"
"This might be your only chance to get her alone, Clyde. You better figure out how you're going to convince her."