A Broken Family Ch 04

"I thought you said you didn't like Michael," Eli told me as I closed the door after kissing Michael goodnight. JT sat on the stairs behind him and Alex was just coming around the corner.

"He's nice to be around. It's not like he's my boyfriend."

"You shouldn't lead him on," he continued, giving me a serious look and crossing his arms.

"Oh hush. I'm not. If he's a player like you say, then he'll go away when he realizes I'm serious about waiting." I pulled his arms from his chest and wrapped my own around him. "It's a shame since Alex was starting to warm up to him though. I only had to work on JT."

"Don't make such hasty observations. His hand went astray and I was planning to sick JT on him," Alex said as he took a seat beside the mentioned brother. Eli and I pulled away, letting an arm wrap around each other to face them. "Want your present now or in the morning?"

"I think we should make her wait until morning with that stunt she tried to pull," JT commented.

"I think we should be nice and let her have it now," Eli put in and I kissed his cheek. "See, JT, if you were nice to her, she might not put up such a fuss."

"Grow some balls, Eli, and shut up." He glared at his younger brother, obviously still in his angry stage.

"You're just jealous that after having ejaculated everything they held into a billion different women his aren't small like yours," I came to his defense and was greeted by a surprised look from Alex and a squeeze from Eli.

"I'm pretty sure that's not the case, little girl," JT leaned back on his elbows. "You're welcome to compare sometime though."

"JT, go drink some water and sober up before you go to sleep," Alex said as soon as JT had closed his mouth. JT hauled himself up like he was asked and walked to the kitchen.

"He doesn't seem drunk." I looked after him.

"He is. He's just good at holding his beer." Alex stood up and looked at us both. "So the morning then?"

I smiled. "Sure. I'm a little too tired to show excitement right now anyways."

---

I knocked on Alex's door about seven hours later and was greeted with silence so I opened it and walked to his bed. He was sprawled out with his cheek resting against the arm curled up around his head. I poked his side and he mumbled something.

"What was that?"

"Don't talk back," he mumbled, turning his head to the other side and shifting his legs. I giggled, realizing he was sleep-talking.

"I want my present, Alex. Where is it?"

"In my pants," he mumbled and my eyes widened.

"What is it?" I sat down beside him on the bed, bringing my legs up and resting my head on my bent knees.

"Get on your knees and find out." I giggled more at his answers.

"That sounds more like a present for you, not me."

"You'll have no complaints."

"I'm sure I wouldn't." I briefly glanced down at the tent in the sheets and bit my lip not to laugh too loud. Just about then he shifted and rolled towards me, one of his arms threading through the triangle made by my bent knees. I tried to pull my legs away to leave since it didn't seem like he'd be waking up and his eyes opened suddenly.

"What the fuck are you doing in my room?" He removed his arm and looked up at me.

"I wanted my present."

His gaze dropped to my thighs that were completely uncovered since I'd only slept in an old shirt during the night. He rubbed a hand over his face and rolled to face the other direction. "Holly, go away and wait until I wake up in..." he lifted his head and looked at the clock that read 7:30, "two hours."

"Fine. I'll wait in here." I turned around and lay down on my back beside him. I only lasted laying there for about five minutes before I got restless and cold. I lifted up and went to pull back the covers, but he rolled over and stopped me. "I'm cold."

He didn't open his eyes, but sat up enough to reach to the end of the bed and pull a blanket up over me. I caught site of his naked hip and giggled. "If you're staying in here, you're going to sleep, Holly." He rolled back away from me and I shifted to face him, studying the skin uncovered by the sheet that was around his waist. "I'm serious, Holly. Go to sleep."

"I'm trying. Shut up."

He rolled back over and looked at me. "You have to close your eyes to sleep."

"I was getting there."

"Sure you were." He closed his own eyes and I watched his face. "Holly," he warned and I closed my eyes quickly as his opened again. "I

will

kick you out of my room."

"Can't you just wake up for a couple hours and give me my present and make me breakfast? Then you can come back to bed and I'll even rub your back until you fall back asleep."

"Get out."

"No. Make me."

He growled and I opened my eyes to see him glaring at me. "Go to sleep or get out."

"Is this how you treat all women that try to stay with you in bed? Eli's not nearly so grumpy."

"I love you, but if you don't

shut up

—"

"You'll what? Throw me over your shoulder and march me back to my room?" I grinned at him. "Doesn't that require clothing?"

He shut his eyes in defeat. "Please just close your eyes and pretend to sleep."

I lifted his arm and pulled it over my hip; his eyes opened in question as I snuggled closer to him. "I'll sleep, you just gotta be my teddy bear, remember?" His eyes shut again and he tightened his arm around me as I fit my head under his chin.

I didn't go to sleep for an hour as my mind faded in and out of consciousness with dreams that didn't make sense at all. I finally fell asleep though and wished I hadn't as soon as my more vivid dream started.

"Wake up, birthday girl, I have something for you." Alex's voice entered my ears and I opened my eyes to see him leaning over me.

"What is it?" I felt him press against me and my eyes widened at his lazy grin.

"Up for it, Sweetheart?" I nodded and he stroked himself up and down me before lining himself up. "Happy birthday, Sis."

A moan not part of my dream entered my fragile sleeping state and I opened my eyes. They instantly widened as I realized I had pushed a leg in between his and his sheet-covered morning wood was in between my thighs and rubbing slightly against my panty-covered pussy. I shifted in an attempt to move before he woke up, and he moaned again, his arm around me tightening.

"What are you dreaming of?"

"Fucking," he mumbled and I let out a breath as I was sure he was asleep.

"You should move away from her and make her beg."

"Good idea." His grip loosened and he rolled onto his back, his arm sliding down onto my leg that was now over his crotch. I could feel his erection pressing against it and squeezed my eyes shut in panic. I tried to move my leg away and he pressed it against him instead. "Fuck."

I gave up; afraid he'd climax against my leg. "Alex. Alex, wake up damn it."

"What," he voice was sharp, alerting me to him being awake.

"It's been two hours."

"Holly, seriously, I was having a good dream. Go away."

"I bet you were," I muttered, pulling my leg away now that he wasn't pressing it against himself.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I looked up at him and his eyes were open now.

"You talk in your sleep like JT said." His face gave nothing away, probably having learned earlier in life to let the other person tell you what they thought you'd been dreaming. "Does your girl beg nicely?"

"I'm not sure. You woke me up," he said carefully.

"Who was she?" He didn't answer me. "Oh." I smiled awkwardly and sat up. "So can I have my present now?"

"No. You can still go away." He closed his eyes, dismissing me, and I climbed up over him, sitting down on his stomach to get him to pay attention to me. "Holly, get off me."

I smiled. "You don't want that really."

His eyes snapped open. "Holly. Get off me. I'm not kidding."

"Or what? I kinda like you when you're all growly and aggravated." His hands came up to move me and I grabbed them and pinned them down above his head. "Seriously, learn to be a little fun, Alex."

"Holly." His eyes were weary now so I let go of him even though he was strong enough to overpower me anyways.

"I get off of you if you'll get up and let me have my present."

Or, you know, I can stay and have my dream self's present.

My smile slipped at the thought.

"I want to stay in bed. I'll just ignore you." He closed his eyes again and I frowned.

"I'm in your bed and you're ignoring me. Do you treat all women this way, Alex? Maybe this is why you haven't been laid in a while."

"My sex life isn't your business."

"Well I'm making it my business." He opened his eyes and I smiled again. "Not like that."

"Holly, please just get off me."

I don't know why I was pushing him, but my dreams kept coming to me and gave me the power to push him more. "Why?"

"I don't need my little sister sitting on top of me and tormenting me while I have a hard on. Okay?"

"I already knew that. Why else?" He groaned and shut his eyes. "Alex?" He ignored me and I paused a second to think of some way to bother him. I slowly leaned forward and licked up the side of his face.

I was immediately knocked off him and I laughed as he pinned me down. "I'm awake. Happy now?" He leaned forward and licked up the side of my face, too. "And now we're even. Get out of my room so I can change." He sat up and released my shoulders, but I didn't move besides wiping my face off.

"How do I know you're not lying?"

"Seriously? You bug me to get up; now I'm up and you don't believe me."

"I'll close my eyes and you can get dressed. If I peek it just serves you right for undressing me yesterday."

"No. It doesn't work that way. Get out of my bed and room, Holly."

"Next time I'm going to ask things not about your dream and you'll be sorry."

"I want to get rid of this damn thing before I get dressed if you don't mind, so get out." I started laughing and he turned his head to face me. "You'd better not be laughing at this situation; it's your damn fault for wearing skimpy clothing and letting it invade my dreams."

"Well I'm flattered. I bet me not having pants on right now bothers you, huh?" He dropped his head into his hands and I saw his jaw clench. "Hey, Alex, it's okay. Really."

"It's not funny."

"I know. I'm sorry." I touched his shoulder. "I can't do anything for that, but if you ever need a hug or... a kiss, I'm here for you."

He tensed up and I let my hand drop. "It's not nice to lead people on. Eli told you that last night."

"Sorry." I leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his shoulder blade before slipping off the bed and making my way to the door.

"Holly?" I turned back around to face him. "You can stay in here if you want." He held a hopeful look on his face that struck me of how lonely he was again, and how it was the three of us who helped make him that way.

"Are you going to get up?"

"Not for another few minutes. My legs don't feel like supporting me just yet."

"Will you tell me what my present is?"

He seemed torn before he patted the side I'd just vacated. "Sure."

I walked back to the bed and he pulled me back with him. "I understand how it happens, but isn't it heavy? How does it stick up like that?"

He turned and put a hand over my eyes. "Please stop ogling me."

"I enjoy ogling you though. Just be a nice man and let me."

"You shouldn't be looking at me like that."

"You look at me like that."

"But I'm not just looking at you like you're a piece of meat."

"That technically is a piece of meat, so I don't see the problem here."

He dropped his hand and pressed his head into my shoulder. "You're infuriating."

"I know. I love you, too, brother dearest." I turned my head and kissed his forehead. He slid an arm over me and I felt comfortable if a little out of my element.

"Concert tickets, certificate for the spa, and lots of strawberry flavored candy and bubble bath."

"Hmm. You guys

do

love me." I felt him press a kiss to my shoulder and shivered lightly.

"Get under the covers if you're cold."

"I'm allowed to now?" He didn't respond so I lifted up again and pulled them over me. "I want someone like you."

"What?"

"You know how people always say girls go for men like their fathers or guys go for women like their mothers? Well, you were my guardian for a lot of my maturing and I think you're a decent man. I want someone like you who will love me and care for me."

"You have me. Why do you need someone

like

me?"

It was a good point since he didn't have any qualms about being both, so I didn't answer him. "I don't want you to be lonely anymore, Alex."

"You've said that before."

"But I mean it. It makes me sad to think of you that way. I don't feel like I could ever move on and move out just to leave you here without a beautiful wife and children."

"I don't want children. We've discussed this."

I put my hand on his arm and started drawing pictures on his skin. "It's the basic idea."

"Don't worry about me."

"Is that the only way you'll not be lonely?"

"It doesn't matter. I don't want pity love."

"It wouldn't be pity. I want you to be happy."

"I'm happy right now."

"So if I just sleep in your bed from now on you'll be okay?"

"Sure."

"Will you always sleep naked?"

"Does it bother you?"

"Not really I guess."

"Then yes I will."

I pondered it a moment and shifted closer to him so I could feel more of his arm around me. "If you promise to hold me every night I will."

He nuzzled into my neck and murmured, "Of course. A woman in my bed will always feel cherished."

---

"Where are you going?" I had exited the bathroom where I'd just showered and was on my way to Alex's room. I turned, tugging on the bottom of the too-big shirt I was wearing for PJs, to face Eli who was leaning out his door.

"I was going to talk to Alex. Did you need me for something?"

"Not really. Just going to go bother you mostly."

"Oh." I smiled and stepped towards him. "Settle for a hug instead?"

"Sure." He let go of the door frame and wrapped me into his arms. "Know what makes this better?" I waited for him to tell me. "You smell good and you're not wearing a bra."

I pushed away from him and messed up his hair. "Pervert. Goodnight."

He grinned at me. "Night, Sis." He closed his door back and I shut mine before going back across the hall and entering Alex's.

"What are you doing?"

"You said I could sleep in here and you'd stay happy." I carefully walked across his floor and held out a hand for the bed.

"I didn't mean it literally."

"Tough luck. I did. Scoot over." I pulled back the covers and lay down beside him, rolling over to lay my head on his chest like we did in the tent. I shifted my body closer to his and felt the skin of his leg against mine. "You're naked."

"I meant that literally."

"I get that now." I shut my eyes and listened to his heartbeat. "You're a good kisser."

"You don't help my brain at all; you know that?"

"Sorry. I just thought you should know. In case you ever have any worries later in life."

"I'm sure I won't. I'm pretty sure I've honed my skills quite nicely."

"Have you ever tied a girl to the bed?"

"What?"

"Just wondering."

He was quiet a long time and I was starting to fall asleep. "No. Not many girls are open to it."

"You were just into the wrong girls," I mumbled as I dropped off to sleep.

"Probably."

---

"Do you know where the fuck our sister—Oh." JT barged into Alex's room in the morning and I burrowed into Alex's neck more to block him out. "Why is she in here?"

I felt Alex hold my leg in place right by his crotch and noticed he had his daily morning problem he was trying to hide from JT. "She had a bad dream and I told her she had to stop sleeping with Eli so he'd grow up without attachment issues."

"I see. What was the dream about, Holly?"

I turned my mouth into open air. "You. Now get the fuck out." I resumed my position snuggled up to Alex and heard the door shut.

"Be nice to your brother." He let go of my leg and I unconsciously slid it closer to what I knew was there.

"Make him be nice to us and I'll gladly be nice to him." I lay still a little while. "I think I like this arrangement. You're all warm and safe."

"You can't sleep in here again or JT will find out you're not having bad dreams."

"I'm not fucking you, so what's it matter?" He didn't reply and I pulled back to look at his face. "I'm not even kissing you." My eyes were drawn to his mouth with that comment and he caught me as he opened his eyes and I was too slow to move mine to his. "I mean... All I'm doing is sleeping."

"I'm naked."

"And warm." I kissed the shoulder I'd been laying on before replacing my head there.

"What happened to you being bothered by how I felt?"

"I'm taking it as a compliment that my stud of a brother chooses me over any other college girl around here." I traced circles on his chest. "And you're warm and nice to me when I'm nice to you."

"You're driving me insane right now."

"I'll take that to mean the good kind." I shifted my leg again and his hand came down to grip it. "Plus, I'm not all that convinced you're sure about how you feel since you ward off any advancement from me."

"I'm not going to let you lead me on because I wouldn't be able to control myself. I'm protecting you and myself from yourself."

"See, that's the thing. You're too careful, Alex. If I suddenly decided I wanted to make out with you right now, you should just go with it, not question it."

"I wouldn't question that."

"Really." I sat up and looked him in the eye. "Kiss me." He lifted up and took my face in his, pressing our lips together and pulling me back into a laying position. I let it go on for a second before pulling back. "Alright then, my point's been shot down." His eyes held need and I swallowed, pulling my body from him. "Maybe we shouldn't do that again."

"Why?"

I bit my lip under his calm scrutiny. "You confuse me."

His mouth split into a grin. "Your mouth is amazing, too." I shut my eyes as I thought of how those words were spoken in porn. "You don't have to feel awkward."

"I don't." I tilted my head and opened my eyes again. "I should, but I don't."

"Should?" He tugged on my wrist to get me to lie back down, but I sat fully up and faced him.

"You're my brother, right? So I shouldn't have dirty thoughts about you."

He sat up and brought his face even with mine, looking at my lips. "Dirty thoughts, huh? Care to share?"

I laughed nervously and pushed on his shoulder until he lay back down. "I'll just stick to looking at you."

"Now who's being careful?"

"I'd make out with you if you initiated it. I'm not overly careful. Hell, I didn't freak out yesterday when—" I cut myself off and cleared my throat.

"When what?"

"Nothing. Things are gray in the mornings." I smiled at him and moved to get off the bed. He caught my ankle as my other foot touched the floor and I looked back at him.

"Come back. I'll sway you with my kissing skills I'm told I have." My eyes stayed on his hand on my foot and swallowed. He tightened his hand and tugged a little. "What if I say please?"

"You have to catch me," I said simply and tried pulling my foot away.

"I've caught you."

"But I'm not on your bed, now am I? You don't capture very well." I didn't look at him as I focused on the grip on my ankle that was slowly turning me on. He let go and I hurriedly pulled it off the bed and tried to walk away as arms went around me and lifted me back on the bed.

"Now you'll stay?" He murmured into my neck, pressing a kiss there as he held me firmly against him. I shivered and he pulled the covers back over us, which alerted me to how shy he was not being anymore. I nodded slightly and he let his arms relax and pull me flush against his front. His lips just kissed their way along my neck and shoulder and I held onto his arms to make sure they didn't stray. "It'd be easier if you weren't wearing a shirt."