Author's Note: Sorry it's short. I needed a chapter break before the next one, which is three times longer. Thank you for reading and commenting!
----------------------
"Eli," I whispered as I slipped into his room that night. I heard him shift in bed and saw the shadow of him sitting up.
"Holly?"
"Hey, um..." I crawled onto the other side of the bed. "Alex and I are going camping tomorrow."
"I know." His arm draped over me and he moved closer. I put my hand on his bare chest to stop him, but he just pulled my hips closer. "Come on. I wasn't trying anything. Don't be like that."
"I needed to make sure that you'll be okay here with just JT this week, then I was going to go back to my room."
"Do I have a choice?" I didn't answer and he rolled onto his back. "Yeah. Whatever."
"Eli..." I struggled with what to do and finally scooted over and lay my head on his shoulder. I let my hand fall on his opposite arm and stroked the skin there. "You're my best friend."
"That's just great, Holly." He didn't even bother to put a sarcastic tone in his words and I wrapped my arms around his waist.
"Please stop being mad at me. I love you."
"I'm not mad at you."
"You're upset with me."
"Yes." I went to lift up my head and he put his hand on it instead, smoothing my hair down my back. "You rejected me multiple times and have a double standard concerning me and JT."
"It's not like that and you know it." I rested my hand on his chest in front of my face and brushed my thumb back and forth.
"So tell me how it is, Holly."
"You're my little brother. It's immoral."
"Having sex before marriage is immoral. Every sin is equal."
"It's illegal."
"You don't tell the police." I squeezed my eyes shut. He was acting like me and I wanted to smack him for making me a hypocrite. "Come on, just a chance. Pretend I'm JT if it helps."
"You're not JT. I don't want another JT in my life."
"Then I'm Eli. But see me as more than your little brother who keeps all your secrets." I sighed and scanned down his body, trying to do as he said even as I internally rolled my eyes.
"What the hell?" His hip was exposed and I jerked my lower body away from him. "Are you
naked
right now?" His only answer was to take hold of the hand on his chest and move it down. I tried to twist my grip away, but he held me so I couldn't use the aid of my other hand.
"I might be." I curled my fingers in as he slid my hand over him, but he pulled my fingers out and wrapped them around him.
"Eli, stop," I said even as I began to wonder at the organ underneath my touch. He wasn't as thick as JT and Alex.
He shifted onto his side a little and leaned into my ear. "You're not fighting me anymore." He pressed a kiss behind my ear and trailed more down my neck. "What're you thinking?" He took his hand from mine but I didn't remove mine as he turned my face to his and pressed his mouth to mine. He smiled as I unconsciously kissed him back, tightening my hand around him.
He wouldn't stretch me as much
is what I had going through my mind and felt the flutter in my stomach again. Of course, I told myself, I should have expected him not to be as thick since in mass he wasn't as big either. But, as I slid my hand down more, I started to think he just might be a little longer.
I jerked away as his hand slid under my shirt and over the skin of my stomach. "Don't." I pulled his hand away and tried to move away, but he pulled me back and under him. "Eli..." I felt like Alex must in our relationship right then.
"Chill out, Holly." He kissed over my collar bone, down between my breasts despite my squirming, and to my bared stomach as he pushed my shirt up. He continued his way down, though, and my squirming got fiercer.
"D-Don't. You-you can't. Please stop." The fear in my voice must have stopped him because he looked up at me. I didn't want to be thinking of him, too, whenever Alex went down on me. Especially since with Eli it would be more than just sex, unlike JT.
"What's wrong? I won't hurt you." He stroked my thighs and pressed another kiss to my stomach.
"I can't."
"I know you're scared. It's your first time, but," I blanched at that, "you don't have to be scared." He pulled himself up a little to look at my face better in the glow of his alarm clock. "It is your first time, right?"
"Is that all I am? A girl to take the virginity of?" I tried the defensive, but he wasn't having it, narrowing his eyes.