I woke up Sunday morning. My body sore, my thoughts in a haze, wishing the events of the last two days had been a dream not the reality it was.
I had expected to hear my daughter moaning and my husband grunting as the two of them woke up fucking. But there was no noise coming from "their" bedroom. I gazed around my sons. Everything neat and orderly. He had cleaned it up before he left for college. He said it was his farewell gift to me, a clean bedroom. I smiled, God he is such a sweet boy. Then I felt the smile drain away from my face. Did I really wanted to drag him down into this darkness.
I pulled myself from between the sheets, stood, steadied myself and walked, naked, to the bathroom across the hall to pee and brush my teeth. Each step reminded me of yesterday. My pussy and ass sore from the over and unnatural use.
As I was coming out of the bathroom, Jake was stepping out of the bedroom. He stopped, eyed me up and down and said, "Kelly left, you can get dressed and how about some bacon and eggs, I'm starving?"
I was taken aback by his genial tone. I nodded and answered, "I'll be down in a few minutes."
"Thanks, I'll fix the coffee". He started to walk down the hall, stopped and turned. "Think we can make eleven o'clock service? I want talk to the reverend about how the fund raising is coming along for the new addition."
I smiled, "Yes, we should have plenty of time."
"Good," and he continued down the hall and stairs.
I quickly went into my old bedroom, through on a sundress and slippers and went to the kitchen. Jake was sitting at the table, sipping on his coffee, reading the news on his laptop.
"When Kelly's not here, you can sleep in our room."
"Okay."
It was as if the last two days didn't happen. We were back to being us.
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As we walked into the church. I felt a dozen eyes on me. I felt uncomfortable. Could someone be here that was at my home yesterday, using me? Knowing the truth about me?
I didn't hear a word of the sermon. I kept looking down afraid to make eye contact.
As we walked out of the church Jake stopped and had a chat with Reverend Tucker.
Natalie James, walked by me, gave me an up and down glance. "Why Mary, you look lovely in that dress."
"Thank you, Natalie, you look very nice too."
She gave me a closed lip smile as she again looked me up and down and walked away.
Dear God, was she the woman that had fisted me and watched me yesterday?
"Let's go," I felt Jake take my arm gently in his. "Fund raising on tract."
We drove home in silence.
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The rest of the day was like a normal Sunday. We barely talked. Jake settled down in the living room watching golf. The same living room where I was bond, fucked, humiliated, degraded, used and laughed at. I puttered around the house, cleaning, dusting, reorganizing the pantry, anything to keep me busy, anything to keep my mind from wondering off to what had happened, what they had done to me yesterday.