I had been watching the clock all day. Charlie was due back on leave from Afghanistan, his flight should have touched down at RAF Brise Norton at 2pm. Brise Norton was only 22 miles away, and it was already 4:30; where was he?
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Charlie and I grew up in the service life. Dad was a Lt. Col. In an armoured infantry regiment. Our mother had passed away when I was 5 and Charlie was almost 3, so he barely remembered her. Virtually my whole life had been spent in boarding school, likewise Charlie, as dad was posted around the world, from one trouble-spot to another.
I only ever re-connected with Charlie during the summer and Christmas holidays, when we would spend the break with family friends, re-aquainting ourselves, and waiting for news of dad.
When the Iraq thing blew up, dad was posted to command an armoured infantry battalion, and was killed in action, stepping on a land-mine. That's the thing about the British Army; they don't sugar-coat bad news, they just told me baldly, probably assuming that I would somehow be proud that my dad, the highest-ranking British casualty of the whole stupid mess, had been shredded in the service of his country. I was 16 then, Charlie almost 14, and already determined to attend Sandhurst, to graduate as an officer in Her Majesty's Armed Forces, just like dad.
I tried to talk him out of it, I even went to see him at Wellington, the military boarding school, to try and make him see sense; I hated the army, it had destroyed our family, and now it was sucking-in my baby brother as well.
"Charlie, you'll be 21, an officer and a prime target if you gent sent out there, please don't do this!" I begged, "Please don't leave me alone, you're all I have left!"
But he had made-up his mind, and once he'd decided, on with it he went; just like dad. I knew, if this thing dragged on, he was going to end up dead; just like dad.
Charlie was accepted at Sandhurst at age 18, and spent the next 3 years training to be an officer and a gentleman, as well as a tactically-savvy, mission-driven killing machine, and I hated the thought of it.
He was a sweet boy, with dad's height and more, with shoulders to match, jet-black wavy hair and green eyes, shy and diffident, gentle, courteous and considerate; but even as his sister, I was forced to concede that he was almost ridiculously good looking. I took after mum, medium height, with long reddish-blonde hair and blue eyes. According to family friends, I also inherited her figure, small waist and 36B boobs, with a nice bum, even if I say so myself!
I was so angry with Charlie, angry and hurt that he'd refused to listen, that instead of going to university, he was going into jeopardy, because he wanted to. We had several long and bitter arguments, always ending with me in tears, and him looking shamefaced but stubborn.
"Charlie, this is idiocy, that place is a killing zone, don't you watch the news, don't you see the planes on TV every day, bringing the coffins back? The funeral cortege's going through the town? I Is that how you want to come home? That's how dad did, and his father, and his bloody father before him! Is that what you want? All the men in this family are dead soldiers, doesn't that ring any alarm bells? If you go there, it's only a matter of time before it's you, you bloody stupid arse! Can't you see that? Are you doing this for revenge, for dad? If he were here and heard this, he would give you such a slap for being so bloody stupid! This family needs you, I need you, will you for once in your life do something for me!?"
The only time I saw him cry, and I felt disgusted with myself, was when I told him, "If you do this, you'll get killed, not maybe, not possibly, it's a certainty, do you hear me? You'll be dead, so don't talk to me, you're a dead man, you just don't know it yet!" I stormed away from him, angry at myself for my comments, at him for being so pig-headed, and at the world, for trying to take him away. I looked back, and two big tears were on his cheeks, and to my shame, all I could think was, "Good, let him hurt, let him feel how I feel!"
All I wanted was my brother back, my little brother, all that was left of our family, and yet, instead of him being his usual, level-headed, rational self, here he was, off on a moronic bravado crusade, trying to prove something β or so I felt.
Charlie was my protector; even though he was younger than me, he felt like my older brother. One time, In Didcot, I was waiting outside a shop and I heard a voice say "Hey blondie, nice tits!" I coloured and looked away, but the boy who said it came to stand in front of me, staring at my chest, and reached out to touch them. Suddenly he was yanked backwards, as Charlie came up behind him and said, levelly, in his ear, "If you try and touch my sister again, I will ram my hand up your arse and rip out your tongue from the inside, got it? Good, now fuck off!"
As Charlie towered over him, he "fucked-off"!
Charlie hugged me as I sobbed in embarrassment and delayed fright, then put his arm around me to take me back to the bus. I stammered out my thanks, my face buried in his chest, but he brushed it off
"Only doing my job; he was right about one thing, though; they are nice tits!"
I gasped and snapped my head up to look at him, to see his eyes dancing with glee, and I smiled as well, the incident washing out of my mind.
On the way back to our holiday stay, I rolled Charlie's comment over in my mind; I had caught him sneaking peeks at me recently, when he thought I wasn't looking, and to be honest, I might even have stuck my breasts out just a little further, or wriggled my behind a little, just to tease him a little. I had put it down to his normal urges as a teenage boy, but now my mind went back to a conversation in the dormitory before the summer holiday.
We were gathered round before bedtime, talking about lots and nothing at all, when Lorna Boscombe started telling us about when she had caught her younger brother peeking at her in the shower.
"I tell you, it was just the most pervy thing! He's a skinny little twerp, reads too much, no friends, standing there at his little peephole, glopping-away on that laughable little knob of his; no kidding, his glasses are thicker than his knob! He got such a kick in the balls I guarantee he won't be doing that again for a while!"