Mom started to sob. I felt bad and handed her a tissue, she sniffled a thank you and blew her nose. I gave her another one for her tears. I had just told her about the arrangement I had with Kat, Becky and Val. I explained what we had been doing, the rules we had set and that it was going to be a regular thing going forward.
'Mom I'm sorry, I know it's a lot to take in and is a pretty weird situation but it's a decision we have all made as adults. You might not be happy with it but we are, and I thought you should know the situation.'
Mom started to calm down and looked up at me, her straight, dark hair was tied in a ponytail, it was a Saturday morning so she was cleaning the house and doing laundry, she didn't have any make up on but she still looked naturally pretty. Her big brown eyes were watery and looked right at me with a sadness I couldn't bare.
'Say something.' I pleaded.
'Tony, you're right this is weird, how many people share their partners with their sisters and how many people fuck their mother in law with their wife's permission?' Mom used the word fuck in its actual context, it didn't sound right coming from her mouth. 'I'm crying because I am so confused with all of this.' She sat there with her hands on her lap shaking her head. 'Your dad is away all of the time, Darren has his own life and I am alone, I have been alone for so long. Your dad isn't the same as he used to be, even when he worked away we still used to fuck.'
'Mom I don't want to know that stuff.' She said that word again.
'No you need to Tony, its important. As you got older your dad worked more and more, I think he thought that he didn't need to be there for me as much because you were at home. I relied on you for a lot, things around the house, someone to talk to and helping me to try and bring up Darren to a point.'
It was true; I had felt like a father and partner sometimes and it was one of the reasons that I would clash with my mom frequently; she would take frustrations with dad out on me. 'Why don't you leave dad?' I asked.
'I thought about it but I couldn't, I need him financially because I am an untrained housewife who stopped all of her career and education to be a full time mom. I'm nearly 50 and it is too late in my life to start a career now.' She was right, she needed him for security.
'So your dad was working more but I had you to fill the emotional void for a while, it was harder when you moved out and then I didn't really have anyone. I am not in any way blaming this on you moving out at all so please don't think that. Kat is a brilliant woman and I love her like my own. I could cope while you were here because you were someone I could talk to and confide in, once you moved out I didn't have an emotional crutch and I wasn't being fulfilled physically so I got really down. That's why I always try to come over on your days off so much, that's why I started to wear my skimpy underwear around you.'
I was not expecting that. My eyes widened in shock. 'Wait what do you mean?' I tried to act casual.
'Tony, I always knew you had the underwear fetish. I just let you carry on because you were a teenager going through a phase and it made me feel attractive, it sort of filled my physical void knowing that you were turned on by me.'
'I...I...don't know what you mean mom.' Oh shit she knew. My relationship with my mom is done.
'Look its out of the bag now hun, lets talk about it. I knew why you used to do the laundry on your day off, I could see you through the keyhole of my bathroom door when you used to use my underwear when I went for a shower and I even saw you through the door that time when you were jerking off when you were drunk after your night out.'
Mom's tone wasn't angry, it was calm and gentle but I still put my head in my hands, I was ashamed. She put her hand on my shoulder and continued.
'It's ok Tony, you made me feel wanted and it got me through those years when I felt all alone.' She smiled at me lovingly as I pulled my hands away from my face and looked at her. 'When I thought I had caught you and Becky together I thought I could maybe use it to my advantage and somehow have you back again. That's why I was so upset when you told me that you weren't having an affair.'
I was confused. 'What do you mean have me back again?'
Mom looked sad, silent tears fell down her pale skin and she patted them dry. 'I don't know, I thought I could blackmail you into doing things with me maybe. I thought if you were cheating on Kat anyway then I could somehow use that to get you to fuck me or something.'