I can always remember being vaguely attracted to my mother. Dam, after all these years, I finally said it out-loud. After all, she was the first woman I ever knew. However, I don't think I even realized my own deep desire for my mother until one spring day. I was eighteen years old and getting ready to graduate high school. Like most guys my age, I was more focused on the girls I saw every day parading around my local high school. Their tight sweaters in the winter and short-shorts in the spring were the focus of my after school fantasies. At that point in my life I had already fooled around with one or two girls. I had felt a girl up under her shirt and had some heavy make-out sessions. I still could not imagine going all the way. In retrospect it was beyond my maturity level. Having sex was something I wanted, but it was still something that I could not yet really imagine doing.
Having sex was something that seemed so far away from me. Instead, I spent hours masturbating. I had a two to three times a day habit. I thoroughly enjoyed my alone time.
During that last year of high school my friends and I began trading adult movies. Most of these jerk-off movies were your typical scenes of actors getting it on. I can remember the excitement of first watching these tapes, but quickly realized that these really were just actors and real sex was not like that at all. The moaning, panting and orgasms were all a ruse. One day that all changed. Mark, my best friend, had lent me a video. It had no title so I could not guess what kind of pornographic feast awaited me. All I know is that I had a tough day and needed some alone time to relax and relieve the stress. After school, with the tape in my backpack, I ran home. All signs were go. I had the house to myself because my mom worked until supper time and my father was away on business. I grabbed a drink and quickly made a snack.
I threw the tape into the VHS player and hit play. The screen went dark and I remember being curious about the title, Taboo II. Before I knew it, I was mesmerized. The parts that I found especially erotic were the mother-son story arcs. Honey Wilder and Kay Parker were two of the sexiest mothers I had ever seen. While Kay had the most luscious natural tear-shaped breasts and a beautifully full bush, Honey had an attitude that was both comforting and sexy at the same time. I wanted both to be my surrogate mothers. I could not believe that they were acting out these amazingly primal and hot scenes. I watched that movie so many times that it had become imprinted on my brain long after I gave that tape back, I continued to jerk off to Kay and Honey over and over again. They were the only objects of my desire until that summer. The seeds of mother and son love were planted just out of my consciousness.
As a yearly tradition, my father, mother and I would take a week-long summer exodus to the beach. It was something I always enjoyed, but as an older teenager I was worried that I might become easily bored. Unfortunately there would be little privacy to jerk my always hard cock. Without frequent relief I would be cranky and edgy.
After a long drive and getting settled into the vacation house it was finally time to hit the beach. Almost immediately I hit the water. It was good to feel the cold salty water wash over me and I felt like a million dollars. In the distance, walking towards the beach, I could barely make out the figure of my mother moving towards me. I hardly even noticed until she moved closer to the water's edge. I remember that being the first time I viewed my mother as a real woman. The funny thing is that she was wearing a one piece bathing suit. I wish I could say it was super sexy, but it was not. I wish I could say that my mom was a real hottie, but she was not. Jill, my mom, was in her mid 50s. She had long dark hair with bits of gray. Her body was in typical mid-life form. Her legs were semi-thick and her breasts definitely had a good deal of sag. Her stomach was not flat. I could tell my mom's behind had more than a little jiggle. Most guys would not even notice my mom. The thing I got my attention was how she moved and how her wide hips swayed back and forth. As she stood right in front of me and we were up to our thighs in water, I took a mental snapshot. It hit me. To me, my mom was now officially sexy and I felt guilty about this realization. It was one thing to think about Kay Parker and Honey Wilder, it was another to actually think that your own mother as an object of desire.
During the first night at the beach after mom and dad went to bed, I retired to my room. I settled into bed prepared to greet the now familiar thoughts of Kay and Honey. Instead, I could not get the image of my mother out of my head. Reluctantly and with hesitation, I began pleasuring myself to the visage of my mom in her black bathing suit. My first fantasy was simple and quick. We were splashing and being playful at the edge of the water. I was trying to wrestle mom into the water and that's when I got my first feel of my moms' soft and curvy ass. In my mind it was like a soft and warm pillow. It greeted my hand with the perfect amount of giggle. I gave it a quick and loving squeeze. On my back in the dark, my penis reached full firmness in record time. Stroking myself never felt so good. That image was all it took. Long rope cords of cum splattered on my flat stomach. I never came harder. I was both proud and ashamed of the mess I made.
All week-long my mother wore that one piece bathing suit during the day and into the early evening. It was especially wonderful to watch her as we would grill on the porch. The cold air would give her goose bumps and just the right amount of erectness to her nipples. I would have her when I was alone in my room. During the days it became more difficult to hide my desire. Whenever I could, I took little peeks here and there. I wish I could say something magical happened between my mother and I, but there was nothing of the sort. The week went by quickly. My mother had become a daily habit.
Once back home for the summer vacation, I did notice was that mom was paying me a bit more attention. When my dad was not home we had more talks. Before my summer job my mom would greet me in the kitchen in her white fluffy robe. I swear I saw her lick her lips after eating a piece of toast and jelly and give her hips a little exaggerated sway as she walked away from me. Even if my mom was interested, what could I do about it?
On my nineteenth birthday my life started to change. My father had to work and my mother and I decided to spend the day together. I could choose to do anything within reason. Since I was working so much, I just wanted to go to the pool and relax. I also just wanted to see my mother in her black bathing suit. The morning of my birthday we left for the town pool. It was a glorious day. The sun was out and I had the company of what I now considered the sexiest woman. I distinctly remember being in the shallow end of the pool talking with my mother. The back to the suit scooped down to her mid-back. She was taking an opportunity to get to know me better. I was trying not to be obvious as I stole glimpses of her body. The subject quickly turned to girls. My mother wanted to know what I looked for in a woman. She seemed proud when I gave her all the "right" answers. Just to test the waters, no pun intended, I went on to explain that I did not go for the kind of girl with the perfect body. Instead, I told her that I liked real women with real curves. I am sure I was blushing. My mother just smiled and nodded her head. I was happy that she was not teasing or making fun of me. I felt very close to my mom and we went home.
The day after my big birthday I stumbled downstairs for breakfast. To my utter surprise mom was in her bathing suit. I thought for a moment that my eyes were lying to me.
