I left my mother's house that morning feeling like a disgusting pervert. Here I am a 30 yr old married man with 2 children, and I have just had sex with my own mother. The fact that I had not had sex with my wife in nearly a year was hardly a good excuse for what I had done. I could think of nothing else all day at work. I wondered if children that are molested feel the same way. I was hardly a child but, I enjoyed sex with mom immensely, yet the feelings of guilt and disgust were overwhelming. I decided I could not do that again and I would have to tell her.
That evening at home I returned to my icy relationship with my wife. I thought I would try anew to have some sort of normal sexual relationship with her. During the evening my efforts to initiate a discussion with her failed. All my wife could say was that she was sorry but she just had no desire for sex. Once again I was totally depressed and discouraged about all this. Surely I deserved a better life than the one I had. By 10:00 in the evening I was alone surfing the internet and feeling sorry for myself. I was checking out some of my favorite porn sites when I ended up in one that was dedicated to mature women. So many of them had such soft looking bodies with large pendulous tits. I could not help but compare them to my mother's trim body with her smaller breasts.
I replayed in my head mom removing her robe a thousand times. I saw her completely naked but it all happened so fast, and I was so nervous, I never got a really got a good look at her body. I felt her hand on my cock and I had touched her tits but the memory was hazy. It all occurred so quickly it seemed like a blur now. Tomorrow was my day off so I could go visit her again. My horny perverted nature was taking over. I continued to look at the mature porn site and marvel over the older women exposing themselves. Would mom do that for me? My impression was that she would but is that accurate? Why wouldn't she? After all, I had already fucked her and she said she enjoyed it. I imagined her laying on her back with her legs spread showing me her pussy, maybe even fingering herself. My dick was hard and I knew I was going back to mom's the next morning.
I hardly slept that night. By morning I was wondering if she had had some of the same feelings I did. Maybe she would feel so guilty she would not want to continue our sexual relationship. I headed for her house determined to find out. When I got there mom came to the door and let me in. She was wearing the same robe as always. It had crossed my mind she might come to the door nude but she didn't. As always we sat at her kitchen table and she poured us some coffee. This had been our routine since dad had died. Her robe was tightly tied exposing nothing. It was like yesterday never happened. She made no mention of it and neither did I.
I had trouble concentrating on our mundane conversation about family members, my children, and the weather. I wanted to ask her to remove that robe and bend over so I could see her cunt, but I didn't have the nerve. I didn't know what to do. I finished my first cup of coffee so mom came over and poured me another cup. I seized the opportunity to untie her robe. If I had thought about it I would have lost my nerve. Her robe fell open slightly. She stood there and said nothing at first. I could see she was wearing panties but no bra. My heart was pounding. I pulled her robe open so her breasts were exposed. God they looked good! They had some sag to them but her nipples were so nice and pink. Maybe she was horny or maybe it was the cool air, but her nipples got very hard. These were the same nipples that had fed me 30 years ago. I wanted to suck on them again. I looked up and mom was smiling. I knew she wanted this as badly as I did.
I pulled her closer, took one of her nipples in my mouth, and began to gently suck it. I tried to get her whole tit in my mouth but couldn't. Sucking on it was wonderful. Mom was caressing the back of my head as she told me it had been a long time since she had nursed me.
Then I heard her say, "It feels good Mike, please don't stop."
I sucked on mom's tits until they were more red than pink. I reveled in her soft breasts and licked and sucked them all I could. I actually think they were getting a little tender so I decided to move on. Mom was responding nicely so I was feeling more relaxed and even more interested in her body. I was still sitting so I reached up and pushed her robe off her shoulders. She removed it and tossed it on the kitchen table. Now she was naked except for her panties. These were not sexy panties but the big ugly white ones I associate with older women. I did not tell her that. I hooked my fingers in the elastic of the waist and began pulling her panties down. I had fucked mom the day before but I had not actually seen any of this. It was a thrill when I exposed her navel and next came the nice white expanse of her belly where she had carried me 30+ years ago. Mom has what she refers to as her "baby belly". Her tummy is not flat but does protrude below her belly button. I pulled her panties on down and exposed her closely trimmed bush with its black and gray hair...and her pink lips were barely visible.
