On the night of my son's seventeenth birthday, it was a Friday, he had whispered into my ear.
"My next birthday, my eighteenth, is on a Saturday mom."
"Yes darling, I know that," I had replied, "why mention it now?" He looked me in the eye, and said, "You are the most incredibly beautiful woman on earth mom. I have not only loved you all my life, I have been in love with you all of my life too."
I had been the one whose knee he had sat on, the one who I had comforted while he was growing up. I shared all of his problems, I had loved him unconditionally. His father had never done that, so his growing up was all my doing. And when his dad left me for another woman, he didn't know it of course, but it was the biggest favour anyone had ever done me in all my life. That left Robbie and I together, and I could not have been happier.
"Mom," he had said, "I love you so much, and at one minute past midnight on the morning of my birthday, I am taking you to bed. I am going to love you, make love to you, make you mine, and we will get married as soon as possible, you will be my wife!" The look on my face could not have been forecast, priceless, shock, stunned, blank, and amazed, you name it, they were all there.
Then he had said over his shoulder as he walked away without a backward glance. "By the way mom, I'll remind you at the end of every month between now and then, just so you don't forget, okay?" I was speechless, I jus stood there in the kitchen in his wake, he was gone before I could even form a gurgle in my restricted throat.
I steadied my stance by gripping the counter top, my legs were shaky. My mind numbed, my son, my darling darling son had just told me he loved me. That he was going to take me to bed and make love to me, and that I was going to be his wife!
He is already about 3 or 4" taller than I, and about 30 or 40lbs heavier, and he is still growing, by the time he is eighteen he's going to tower over my 5ft 6" frame if he keeps it up. I had had Robbie early in my life because I believed a boy at school that he loved me. That we would run away together, so I succumbed at a very early age to that boy in my class.
I was 15 and bit at the time, but my parents stood by me, it was the end of school term anyway, so I left and continued my education at home under private tutorship. My mother took care of all the things to do with having a baby. I had not a clue what I had let myself in for. The boy was banned from me. I didn't mind that after I got over him. When I actually saw him for what he really was, I knew mom and dad had done the right thing.
So I brought Robbie into a world where he was loved from the off. My dad had trouble accepting him at first, but in the end he had to. Mom and I ganged up on him, and Robbie's little cute face did the rest. They were well off, my dad was a bank manager and well paid, plus he had his perks, shares and things. I never knew of any of this until the day of the storm. I was 22 years old by now.
I had met and married Donald, a man from dad's bank and we had our own home. But he never took to Robbie; I don't know why I even married him really, it just seemed the right thing to do, naΓ―vetΓ© hey? I knew he wasn't up for my son, but it seemed like a good idea at the time. But it all changed when there was a hurricane, mom and dad were driving home from a bank function, and their car was swept off the road, into a river and they both drowned.
That left me, their only child everything they had, the house, his and her monies, insurances, and stocks and shares. I of course, would have gladly given it all away for just one more day with them. It took months to realise their estate, it was all tied up with solicitors. I didn't care, and when papers were sent for me to sign, I could take a month or more to send them back. Or I wouldn't bother to turn up for discussions etc.
Then Donald left me, he sited pressures of work, the strain of me losing my mom and dad, all sorts of things. I wasn't sorry to see him go. Then he had the cheek to file a claim for a half of everything my parents had specifically left me and Robbie in their wills. Needless to say, he was given short shrift by my solicitors, who also worked for the bank, and a month later he left. No reason given, he was gone, the bank let him go.
Anyway to cut a long story short I was left with a pile of money, lots of shares, that I had no idea what to do with except to leave them in the banks hands to handle for me. And I receive a nice monthly cheque too, thank you very much. The house was mine, I sold my own, and moved back home, it was nice being near my parents, I felt safe, and Robbie was a little diamond.
So our life together began, I didn't go out a lot, I didn't like leaving him, but I did sometimes go clubbing with a girlfriend, and don't get me wrong, I'm no paragon of virtue, no shrinking violet. I had sex with some of the guys we met, but I never once thought to see them again. No one ever rocked my boat so to speak.
We are in every sense of the word, normal. Robbie has his friends, and the odd girlfriend, so I was happy to know he was good to go! I have a few friends too, and Robbie and I get on great, we are sometimes like brother and sister as opposed to mother and son. I suppose the age gap has something to do with it, as I'm only sixteen years older than he is. We do things together and I rely on him for the solid support he always shows me. I have tried to be a model mom, I hope? I have gone to sports days, class things, trips, you name it, I was there.
I haven't told you about me really have I? You know who I am but not what I look like, or the type of persona I yield. I am 5ft 6" tall, weigh around 120lbs. I've got all my niggle bits where they should be, they annoy me sometimes, why? It's because I can find myself getting aroused in a supermarket or shop, simply because I have the wrong material rubbing against me.
My hair is a reddish auburn, I highlight it because it makes me look younger, Robbie says so anyway, and that's good enough for me. And it comes just past my shoulders, I have a fringe that drops into my eyes, I like the feel of it on my long lashes. I am still young enough to wear it long. And again Robbie likes it too. I am pretty to look at my face is my best feature, although last week Robbie made a nice comment about my bum!
I have a good figure, I like it just the way it is, and my favourite underwear are stockings, suspenders, flimsy, filmy, and lacy garments. I always wear heels when I go out, and I don't use a lot of make up, I learned early on that if you look okay, you don't need all that much. I have to confess I do miss a man's touch sometimes. But after Donald there won't be another one in my life if I can help it. I've got Robbie, he'll do me, and I mean that in the way of, he's all I need.
Picking up after a man, smelly socks, dirty underpants, breaking wind, doing his washing and ironing while he sits reading the paper, or pops to the pub? No thank you, not any more! I do it for Robbie because he is my responsibility. So back to him, and the future. I started looking at him in a new light, I began to see him as the young man he was, not my baby, although he will always be that no matter what happens in a year's time.