I have found myself passing some milestones in my life recently. My third husband passed away two years ago. I had a birthday that brought a lot of family and friends together, either out of love or sympathy, complete with all the dreary decorations; black balloons and streamers and a Grim Reaper birthday cake. I have come to realize that I have far more years behind me than ahead of me. Here I am an old widow woman.
I don't feel old and I don't think I look old. I spent my birthday and the days just after with my younger brother, Teddy. We each made several references to some very special, and very intimate moments from our childhood, our teenage years and our early adulthood: some moments that I hadn't thought about in years and years. Memories that have awakened my sexual side and caused stirrings in me that I haven't felt in so very long.
I began looking back on some our early experiences and how we discovered so much about ourselves and each other in those days. I started writing some of my memories down. My memories took the shape of what I thought might be an interesting story and found this web site and submitted my first little chapter.
I recalled how Teddy and I slept and bathed together when we were little. We thought nothing of seeing each other naked and touching each others bodies. As we grew older, our parents attempted to separate us, having us sleep in separate rooms and taking our own baths, but we found every opportunity we could to be together in every way possible. We played house and doctor and all the games that children use to explore one another's bodies. Teddy would find his way into my bed every chance he got.
I wrote about how all that changed when I was five years old. My cousin Annie came to stay with us and she shared my bed with me and Teddy shared his bed with Annie's little brothers. My life would never be the same.
Annie became my best friend, my big sister, and eventually, my first lover. I was madly in love with Annie for years. She taught me all about love and sex; lessons I would bring home and share with my little brother. Annie and I both became lovers to my baby brother during our teenage years.
Out little triangle was the source of a lot of love, passion, jealousy and resentment over the years, but I wouldn't trade those times for anything. I found a boyfriend, got married and moved away. Teddy and Annie had quite a steamy affair. When Annie was seventeen, she moved away for a couple years, which broke Teddy's heart.
While Annie was away, Teddy got involved with another of our cousins, Katie, and then her little sister, Nicole.
Teddy read what I had written about my early experiences with Annie and him and started to write about some of his days with Annie and Kate.
This has opened up all sorts of memories and discussions between my little brother and me. I have shared some of the things that Teddy and I have written, must of which is still unpublished, with Katie. She loves it.
I have returned to my little hometown and gotten reacquainted with my lovely cousins Kate and Nicole, and learned that Annie is living in Denmark and married to an artist. Katie and I have gotten especially close. I have been trying to seduce her. We share some very special late night phone sessions. We have shared a lot of stories about our intimate times with Teddy, as well as some our fantasies.
Teddy came home for Halloween and we all celebrated his birthday and our cousin Kate's as well. Before Teddy left town, I spent a couple of very special hours with him in his hotel room. We hadn't been intimate in that way for many years. I was reminded that he is truly the finest lover I have ever known. I am still deeply in love with my baby brother.
