"Please, Daddy, slow down," Jennifer pleaded. She pressed her hand gently on her father's arm. "Not so fast, OK?"
Steve grunted but didn't alter his pace.
Jennifer studied his face, the set to his eyes and how he gritted his teeth. The muscles in his neck strained with tension. His arms were rock hard and his hands kept a firm grip. He looked at her but didn't really see her, so intent was he on what he was doing.
"I'm not kidding, Dad. Slow down or stop."
He looked at her again and let out a long, drawn-out breath. Her grip tightened on his arm.
"Daddy, please. Let's stop for a moment. You need to calm down."
He looked at her again and this time saw the fright in her wide eyes and a hint of moisture. Her eyes cut through the fog in his brain and he suddenly realized what he was doing.
"I'm sorry, baby," he said and started to slow down. Tears were beginning to form in his eyes.
"It's OK," she said, lightly stroking his arm. "Why don't we stop for a little while until you're relaxed?"
"Sure," he mumbled. "Sure, sure."
Jennifer continued to look at her father, her love for him causing her chest to hurt and a lump to form in her throat. He had been going through so much lately. So many unfair things were happening to him and he had no control over them. She felt she needed to be with him, to help him, to keep something sane in his life. She would be there for him even though her mother had forsaken everything their family was about. She smiled at him spontaneously. He smiled back and suddenly much of the tension drained from his face.
He was a solidly built forty year-old, with brown wavy hair and just a hint of gray in his sideburns. He kept himself in fairly good shape, jogging regularly and lifting weights on the weekend. He stood six feet tall and had the slight beginnings of a belly, but still struck a handsome enough figure that women had no reason to complain about.
"But still he's losing mom," she thought. "She's crazy to give him up."
They were approaching a convenience store on their right. He flicked on the turn signal and pulled into the parking lot. He killed the engine, slumped down in the seat, rubbed his fists into his eyes and let out a long, slow breath.
"I'm sorry baby," he said without looking at her. "Your mom just sometimes makes me crazy."
"Hey," Jennifer smiled. "I know. I had to live with her for eighteen years too."
He grinned at his daughter, then his face fell somber again.
"I don't think we're going to make it back this time, Jen. This was supposed to be our big weekend away to patch things up."
"Don't write off the whole weekend yet, Dad. She said she'd head out as soon as she was done with work."
"Yeah, you see me holding my breath, right? Look, if she had any intention of coming, why didn't she send Billy and Heather with us? That would have been more logical than hiring a sitter."
"Well, I don't want to say you have a point..."
"But I do."
"You're being pessimistic. Look on the bright side. The cabin won't be wasted. I mean, I'll have a whole weekend to tell you about the year of torture your college tuition money paid for."
He tussled his daughter's hair and laughed.
"What you don't know is that I paid extra for them to keep you under lock and key."
"Oh? Well it worked. I didn't have time for a single date all year. Where is all this happy-go-lucky party-time college kids are supposed to have?"
"I was only kidding about paying extra," he said, looking at the pout on her face. "You know that, right?"
"Dad, you're such a sucker sometimes, you know," she beamed at him. "Come on; let's get up to the cabin. And try not to kill us this time."
"This isn't what I reserved," he yelled.
The desk clerk simply stared at him.
"That's what's in the computer, sir. And don't raise your voice at me."
"OK, OK. Just change it to a three bedroom for me, please."
The clerk tapped his keyboard for a moment.
"Sorry, no threes. Booked the last one an hour ago."
"What? Look, I booked this thing weeks ago! I got a confirmation." He slammed some papers on the counter. The clerk glanced at them a second.
"Yes, sir. That reservation was changed last night to a one bedroom."
"Well, that makes no sense! How is my whole family supposed to fit in a one bedroom?"
"I don't know, sir. I can check for a two."
He turned and looked at his daughter.
"Well, Jen. Would a two do? You'd have to bunk with your brother and sister."
She shrugged. "We're supposed to be roughing it, right?"
"That's my big girl," he smiled and turned back to the clerk. "We'll take the two bedroom."
"OK. Just a minute. Whoops. It's gone."
"What do you mean, gone?"
"Well, it's the internet, sir. It just got booked out from under me."
"From under you? I'll bet you're going home to a nice cozy fire while we'll be shivering in the car!"
"You do still have the one bedroom reserved."
"Look, you just tell me how the hell my reservation could get changed in the first place."
"Well, only the credit card holder can do that."
"Oh that witch," he yelled and whipped out his cell phone.
"Roberta," he yelled after being connected. "You changed the three bedroom to a one bedroom?"
"Well, yes, Steven. Seeing as I had to work this weekend, a three bedroom would have been a waste of money."
"But I thought you were coming out as soon as you were through."
"Well, things got complicated here. I won't be able to make it again."
"Then you should have just cancelled the whole thing."
"We would have lost the deposit."