Editor's note: this story contains scenes of non-consensual or reluctant sexual situations.
I stepped out of the Uber and waved at the man as he pulled away.
Nice guy,
I thought. At least, he'd let me have the ride in peace, sitting in the back on the 15-minute drive through the City to my building.
I'd refused to drive for a year. Ever since the night of the crash.
I shook my head. Now wasn't the time to think about that. Now was the time to think about my stepmother, Laura, and the fact that she had paid my therapist to drug me.
Why?
I realized I probably should have asked Silvia before I sent her home, dressed in her little black dress with her hair wild and her eyes still glazed. Anyone who saw her would be able to tell she'd just had a thorough fucking.
I grinned at that thought, at least.
Therapy is definitely going to be more fun from now on.
Slipping my hand into my pocket, I gently rolled the glass vial in my fingers. There was a secret here, a secret that I needed to uncover. And I needed to move quickly, because there were obviously plans already in motion with me at their center.
I stared up at my building with my usual sense of awe. 45 stories of glass and steel, a gorgeous monument to modern architecture. The Scotts, it was called, after my dad. He owned it.
Had owned it.
He owned a lot of buildings downtown: Scotts, Starside, Soaring Heights... This was the last building he'd ever built, the one he'd wanted to live in.
"I know its vain,"
he'd said to me once.
"But I always wanted to see my name up on a building. A big building. A beautiful one. Ya know?"
I shook my head and climbed up the stairs.
Nigel opened the front door, lowering his head in a small gesture of respect. "Dilan! Hello. I hope you're having a wonderful day, sir." The doorman's face had its usual look of contented positivity. Nigel had been one of my father's first hires as a budding entrepreneur, and my dad had wanted to make sure the man had a job in whatever building my dad ended up living in.
I couldn't bring myself to complain, but most of the time seeing the older, white-haired man, portly and smiling with a white mustache, struck me with a spike of sadness.
"Hey..." I muttered, looking away as I walked past and not meeting his eyes. I forced myself to think about something else.
I could still feel Silvia's bubble floating on the edge of my awareness. But it was farther away now, and more delicate. I knew that, if need be, my therapist would still hear and obey specific instructions, but I didn't know how I knew, and I still had no idea the extent of our connection.
I probably should have been anxious, but it's hard to be concerned when you've just come from fucking a gorgeous woman's brains right out of her head.
The thought warmed me as I stepped into the elevator and pressed the button for the penthouse.
The panel by the side of the array slid open, revealing a numerical keypad. I reached out and punched in the 4-digit code.
1995.
My birth year.
My dad had picked it.
I shook my head and took a deep breath as the doors slid closed.
Focus.
* * *
I glanced furtively around as I stepped out of the elevator and into the entry of the apartment. Straight ahead, through the floor-to-ceiling windows, I could see the City skyline. But I wasn't looking at that, stunning though it was. I was glancing at the antique wooden desk by the elevator, and the long, narrow silver platter where we usually kept the car keys.
They were laid out in a neat row, six keys, but two were missing: the Porsche and the Tesla.
Laura and Stephanie were both out, then.
My shoulders slumped with relief. I had time, then
I rolled my shoulders and strode through the entry, turned and headed down the hallway to my bedroom. It was the guest bedroom, originally only intended for visiting relatives, but I had been relegated to it in the aftermath of my father's death.
The dark wooden door swung quietly open and then clicked shut behind me. I turned the lock and walked to my bed. I sprawled face down on the queen-sized mattress and let myself relax.
Time to think.
It had always been me and Dad, ever since my mom died. Since that was basically before I could remember, it had always been me and Dad. Just the two of us.
Then, he'd met Laura.
My father had been a great businessman, but laughably timid when it came to love...
It was something he'd often said to me, with an easy chuckle and a sheepish grin.
You know, Dilan,
he'd say.
Your mom practically had to trick me into proposing to her. I'm not sure I would have been able to screw up the courage otherwise.
His face would cloud over for just a moment then, before he would gruffly say.
I love that woman.
But then, when I'd gone away to school, Dad had gotten lonely. I didn't want to blame myself, but I knew I could have come back more, spent more time at home. It wasn't a money issue, or even a time one. I'd just gotten so wrapped up in my own things that I'd neglected him. At least, that's what I told myself, according to post-crash therapist number two. He said that I still felt deep shame and guilt, and it was preventing me from moving on with my life.
Dad met Laura through one of those services, a high-class matchmaker who gets to know you and then sets you up with someone they consider to be a good match.
Ironically, Laura had been on a date with another man at the same restaurant. She had recognized him, walked over his table, and complimented him on one of his buildings. She said she knew him from a magazine article about the building, which she'd seen one day.
She told him that she'd heard he designed all his own buildings. Ever since his first one. She admired his creativity. Right there, in front of my father's date and her own, she asked him to dinner.
My father was a gentleman, so he had politely declined. But when he left, he found that she had bribed one of the coat room attendants to slip her card into his jacket pocket.
Dad had always admired confidence, and a willingness to chase after what you wanted.
He was hooked.
The next date he went on was with her.
My father and stepmother had only been married for six months when he'd died.
***
I heard the sound of a dramatic entrance, which is difficult to do when you don't have a front door to slam, and the sound of stomping feet coming down the hallway toward me.
I wondered what Stephanie was so mad about.