Thankam, my old maid, came back to my life seemingly hell-bent on fulfilling my teenage fantasies. She continued her conversation while cleaning Amma's room, in the same vein, completely ignoring my mother; s presence, perhaps safe in the knowledge that she was incapable of understanding anything. The sexual banter aroused the devil in me again and she seemed to be pushing me towards the edge.
After a few hours she had finished her work and got ready to leave. 'Do you have to go? 'I asked.; Why, are you scared to sleep alone? Do you want me to cuddle you like years back when you would get frightened to death with the monsoon thunders? 'she teased me again. Now this was a born cockteaser. 'you know Rajan, my husband? he's a pukka alcoholic and comes back late at night on all fours. most nights he crawls up in the verendhas! 'and again she laughed out aloud. I t made me feel like to push my 'kunna' through those betel reddened lips of hers and fuck her just like that. 'But some days, he manages to get inside the house and flops on the nearest bed. Stoned or not, you know how these men are, once they feel a woman's body against theirs -it doesnt matter whether that is your wife's or daughter's -they get naughty. I have to make sure that my younger one, rathi, does not have a 'full tummy'when she gets married!!
'But to morrow he is going to his sister's house and then I'll sleep over here-i mean with Amma, you 'studbull'! [malayalam slang for horny young men]. By this time, I was nearly bursting point -just by engaging in this sexual banter. I closed the door and went up. Amma was sleeping peacefully. Thankam had covered her up in a light sheet. Her face looked so angelic. Suddenly I felt the pangs of my guilty conscience. I turned around and walked back to my room. I had a nice shower, took a nightcap of my favourite whisky and hit the bed. The sexy body of thankam, her double inneudoes and wicked erotic laugh all came back to haunt me. I could feel my kunna slowly lifting the lungi, making it look like a camp tent!! I sat up.