I watched as two bullets hit him in the chest and he fell to the ground, smashing his head against the concrete as he went down.
"Raaaaaaandyyyyyy!" I screamed as I ran to him, oblivious to the guy still holding the gun.
I kneeled over him watching the blood slowly seep out of the wounds on his chest as he struggled to breathe. "Oh my god oh my god oh my god! SOMEBODY HELP ME! SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME! The ambulance is already coming Randy please stay awake!"
I looked at his as he struggled to breathe. He looked like he was fading away with each passing second, I was scared to death I might lose him right there.
"No! don't you do this to me Randy! LOOK AT ME! YOU FUCKING LOOK AT ME!" I screamed as I grabbed both sides of his head and made him look at me.
I looked around at the crowd of people that formed around us for something, anything that would help me get out of this nightmare. I could feel blood on his head from where it hit the ground and knew he busted his head open. Ashley was still frozen in place standing in that same spot shaking, just as scared as I was.
"GIVE ME SOMETHING TO PUT UNDER HIS HEAD! You aren't going anywhere you hear me! You're not gonna leave me by myself, I need you!"
I glanced back at Ashley who was still standing there with that stupid look on her face.
"ASHLEY! GIVE ME SOMETHING FOR HIS HEAD!"
I snapped her from whatever she was in and she took off her hoody and gave it to me. I wrapped it up like a pillow and put it under his head, making sure to keep his head inverted.
"Rita... Rita I'm... I'm so sorry. I never..."
"Save it Ashley, I really could care less right now!"
I didn't even think about what I said, I just said it. I didn't care if it hurt her feelings or not, I was only concerned with one thing right now, keeping Randy alive.
"You have to put pressure on his wounds to stop the bleeding, I saw it on TV," Ashley said.
I looked at her, and she looked like she was trying to help, so I tried it, anything to help keep him alive. I put both of my hands directly over the wounds and pushed down hard, it did stop the bleeding a little, but it also put him in a lot more pain.
"It's supposed to hurt, but it'll stop him from bleeding out," she said as I glared at her.
I held my hands in place and looked at him while trying not to cry. He looked like he was in so much pain I could bear to see him like that, but I wasn't gonna leave, not even for a second.
"WHERE IS THE FUCKING AMBULANCE!" I screamed at noone in particular.
"The dispatcher said they should be here any second," someone responded.
Some guys in all the confusion had managed to get the gun from the guy and had him pinned to the ground, I wanted so badly to go over there and kick him in the face, but I needed to stay here and keep Randy alive until help got here. It felt like forever, and they hadn't shown up yet, I was beginning to get even more worried than I already was. He drew my gaze back to him when I felt him struggling underneath me, still not saying a word. He was starting to lose energy, I could see him start to fade in and out, and I went into full on panic mode.
"No no Randy look at me, stay with me! Don't you give up on me Randy!"
He tried to talk but nothing came out, but with his silence came the sound I was desperately listening for, the ambulance. They were close, it sounded like they were a couple streets over.
"The ambulance is almost here Randy, just hold on a little longer, just a little bit longer!"
He makes eye contact with me for a second, and he gets quiet, really quiet. He stops making the breathing noise and he quits moving around. His eyes are fighting with him to stay open, and all I can see is his chest barely inhaling and exhaling, he was slipping away, literally as the ambulance pulled up to the parking lot.
"They're here Randy, keep your eyes open! Keep looking at me! You can't leave me yet, we still have a lot of places to go, a lot of famous people to meet, all the things we wanted to do... come on stay awake, stay with me!"
Not long after I'd finished talking the most horrifying thing in my life happened. He made an attempt to breathe again and again, and then he looked at me, and just stopped moving completely. His eyes fell closed, and he just lay there, not a sound, no movement, nothing.
"Oh my god."
I looked around, at the crowd, at Ashley, not wanting to believe this was happening, but it was, Randy, my Randy, was... I didn't wanna say it, I didn't want it to be true, I wanted to believe he just passed out, but I knew better, I know how these things tend to play out.
My heart sank. I felt like my whole world ended, my life was over. I looked at his still face, and burst into tears. I tried my best to will him awake, he was still bleeding, but slowly, so I tried to convince myself that it was only happening because he was still alive.
"Come on Randy, the paramedics are here, get up!" I cried pushing in on his chest. "Randy they're here get up! GET UP! Please Randy get up!"
The paramedics came into view, one went straight to Randy and the other kneeled right in front of me, taking my hands of Randy and sliding me back until he made me look directly at him.
"Miss, were gonna need you to step back so we can...MISS! MISS!" he said as I tried to get back around to Randy. "Miss, we're gonna do everything we can for him, I promise, but I'm gonna need you to give us some room so we can do our job."
I gave in and moved back out of their way so they could work on Randy. I stood there and watched as they pulled out all kinds of tools and needles and whatnot and used them all back to back on him. This couldn't be real, it couldn't be. I had to be having one of the worst nightmares I've ever had, there's no way this could be real, it's not possible. That had to be the only reasonable explanation, it was the only one I would tell myself. I would not allow myself to believe the love of my life just died in my arms, I wouldn't believe it. I looked down at my hands, covered in so much of Randy's blood, then looked around the crowd of people, and in the process saw the police handcuff the guy who shot Randy and start walking him to the squad car. I lost it. I took off after him and hit him with everything I had, trying my best to hurt him while staining his clothes with Randy's blood.