Amanda
It was almost a year since we had seen each other. Twelve worrying months, fifty two weeks when all the time I was on edge. On my gloomier days I imagined the police knocking on my door and arresting me and in my optimistic periods I felt I would never see you again. In between I imagined there was a phone call from my sister screaming about what I had done to her baby or you turning up unannounced and black mailing me into more sex, or worse trying it on and succeeding with my twenty year old daughter. There were so many fucking nightmare scenarios and no good news ones at all.
After that fateful, very long afternoon and night just over a year ago, thank God you had only stayed another couple of days. That was bad enough, though, for Sara came home and I am sure she fancied you like hell.
'How awful' I thought a young woman fancying her equally young cousin. 'Yeah right' I retorted, adding 'That coming from a forty year old Aunty who had just fucked that cousin, her nephew several times, really is rich.
I had turned down a couple of family dos in that period, but my aunt's, your great aunt's golden wedding do was an impossibility to get out of. As it happens and quite fortuitously Sara was away with the school on a history trip that counted towards her GCSEs so she was exempt.
Almost as soon as I walked into the large rambling house in Kentish Town I saw you. I gulped and my heart started to pound. You looked good. You had filled out, you were a few inches taller and your hair was a little longer, less punky. I knew that you were almost nineteen.
"Hello Aunty" you said as I walked up to where you were standing with Janis, my sister.
"Jack," she said, jokingly harshly, "Don't make both of us feel old call her Amanda."
"Thanks Jan" I replied kissing her on her cheek as she leaned forward her loose dress gaping and her cleavage bursting out. "I prefer Mandy nowadays, if you don't mind."
'Fuck' I thought my pulse racing and my blush deepening I'm sure when I glanced at you and saw that you were also looking at Janis' ample bosom. She was my sort of build, but after her kids she had done little to hold onto her figure and she must have blown up to a size sixteen with a figure somewhere around 40d 38 42, 'Nearly a real BBW' I thought thanking someone that I managed, just about, to hang onto my more respectable 36d 29 37 voluptuousness.
You smiled and winked as you nodded at her chest and I knew immediately that we were both thinking the same: the admission you had made when you came on my tits that you had been fantasizing about cumming on hers.
'Jesus had I really got that deep with a fucking nineteen year old kid old?' I wondered? Much of that fateful afternoon and evening I realised had now been deleted from my mental hard drive. Yes was the answer for I had simply taught you too much and too well, although I suspected you knew a lot more than you had let on during that long, awkward, but hugely exciting weekend.
"Sorry Aunty" you said perversely as you surprisingly confidently put your hands on my shoulders and kissed my cheek. "Hello Amanda, it's been such a time hasn't it? When was it we last met?"
"Fortunately your mother had seen someone more interesting and important to talk to and had wandered off.
"Jack you know exactly when we last saw each other so please don't mess around."
You squeezed my hand. "Don't worry aunty I wasn't messing around then, I haven't since and I'm not now, I am deadly serious."
"What do you mean?"
You leaned close, put your mouth to my ear and whispered. "I want to fuck you again and soon."
"Don't be silly," I said sternly. "I told you that was it, nothing else will happen, it's over."
You wandered away, looking over your shoulder and smiling.
The party was a nightmare. I was on edge all the time. I saw you sneaking drinks and knew that might loosen your tongue or reduce your inhibitions. Fortunately it worked on the latter and not on the former.
We were in a group outside; it was quite a warm evening. I was wearing a white button up the front, silk blouse and dark brown soft leather trousers. As happens at parties whilst one moment there had been six or seven in the group, suddenly it was just you and me. You didn't beat around the bush.
"I have thought about that weekend so much Mandy" you came out of the blue with.
"No Jack, leave it."
"No Mandy I can't."
"You must. It's over it was a one off its finished."
You grabbed my hand. "It isn't over I want to again."
I pulled my hand away looking round to make sure nobody had seen.
"Jack stop it, behave" I said walking round the corner of the outhouses where we were hidden from view. It was just getting dark.
"I have behaved, I have done as you said and not told a soul, not anyone."
"That's good Jack, thanks."
"But I am going fucking crazy thinking about what we did, it was amazing."
"Forget it luv, it was just a crazy time, it was like make-believe."
"No," you said quite loudly grabbing my shoulders. "It wasn't crazy, it wasn't make-believe, it was real, it was fantastic."