My Auntie Lapine was the love of my life. I know I have said that before in these journals, and I do hope, sometime in the future that long after I have shuffled off this mortal coil and are buried deep within Mother Earth (in hallowed ground, since I am now a man of the cloth), that someone will find these scribblings and will know that to have a loving aunt to take care of the intimate training of their nephew, to literally take him in hand, is one of if not the most wonderful and beautiful things that a woman can do. Auntie Lapine did this for me. Did this and more. She had taken me in after my father had been killed and my mother had disappeared, leaving a skinny 18 year old youth with no place in the world, possessing nothing but raging passions and no outlets to vent them. She gave me so much, gave me her world and made it mine.
A particular memory blossoms in my head of delights, the opening of a world with her, indescribably lovely. On this day she came into my room first thing in the morning, was there as I opened my eyes to the sun streaming in through my bedroom window. Usually she dressed in jeans and a loose-fitting linen blouse that revealed her entrancing figure, heavy strong breasts beneath swinging free. Today she was dressed in a riding skirt and a strong shirt with high starched collar. I looked in vain for the sweet swing of her breasts beneath her blouse, but was disappointed. She wore foundation garments of the strongest type.
As I looked about in confusion, she smiled at me. "Don't be dismayed, nephew. These clothes are temporary." She nodded toward the ladder backed chair in the room. Draped across the back was a man's suit, well made, clean and pressed. "You too have new clothes to wear, but not for too long." She smiled again. "We're going on vacation. Get up, sleepyhead."
I obeyed. As she had instructed me before, I slept naked, always. She crossed her arms under her full breasts, even the sturdy foundation garments she wore could not hide their magnificence, leaned a little over on one hip and regarded my morning tumescence. Her gaze did nothing to make my cock go down, much the opposite. My aunt's gaze upon me always made me swell to full hardness and as my cock swelled so her smile grew. I drew breath deep, wanting to hold her, so much.
She as much as read my thoughts. "No, nephew. The time is not yet ripe for you to hold me, you are still in the early stages of training. As a matter of fact ... a tidbit of training is now in store." She stepped close to me, the natural scent of her hair reached me and I inhaled deep, relishing the sweet aroma of her. I gripped my wrist behind me, determined to obey her instructions to not touch her, to never touch her unless she specifically said so. Her instructions to not cum except when she specifically said so was harder ... to obey.
"Look into my eyes." Her voice was low, sultry, focused on me, on my slim yet hairless eighteen year old body. I felt a quiver deep inside as I listened to her voice. "I know exactly what you're feeling, nephew. I know your balls ache and your cock is throbbing and eager. Do you want to know a secret?"
I wanted to know each and every secret she possessed, but she had told me that control was the essence of relationship. I managed to control my voice enough to say "Yes, Auntie."
"Yes, what?"
I felt my balls begin to boil at her tone and her steady gaze. "I ache to know your secret."
"You ache?" I felt her smooth cool touch upon my cock. She did not grip it or pump, just rested her hand there in quiet caress. "I like that, nephew. Your self-command speaks well of your coming full manhood. Very well. The secret is ... that I enjoy your desire for me. I enjoy your eyes on me, I enjoy knowing I make you quiver inside, I enjoy knowing I make your cock drip at the sight of me, enjoy making your balls ache to gush your seed. And ordinarily I'd grip your young cock hard and pump you dry ... but... not today."
At these words I moaned, desperate to pump my cock against her hand.
She knew it. She whispered into my ear. "No, nephew. Hold back. No matter how much you want to gush your sweet young cum, for now ... no. Do you understand?"
I nodded and my trembling began.
She continued to hold my hard cock in one cool hand. "That's my beautiful young man. Do ... not ... cum. But know," at this she gripped me hard and whispered low right in my ear "that your hard young cock makes me wet." She took her hand away.
At this I almost fountained even without her touch, but exerted every muscle I could to hold back, hold back, hold back. I breathed deep to control my trembling.
"I don't know if you know it, nephew, but you are dripping onto the rug. Don't worry, I'm not angry. As a matter of fact I'm very pleased at your pre-cum flow. Most exceptional. We'll have to experiment how long you can keep that up." She smiled in pure pleasure. "But for now, have a bath and get dressed and come downstairs for breakfast."
Auntie Lapine turned and walked out my bedroom door. Even now I remember her perfect hips swaying as she walked, her long hair swaying against her backside, heels of her boots against the hardwood floor.
It took me some time to shake it off, to get myself under control. In the shower I wondered how long she would make me wait. All day? Two days? A week? She had hinted before at making me hold back for longer periods, but had always relented, wanted me to cum sooner. Now I didn't know. The prospect was both maddening and thrilling. There was one surprise. A sort of undergarment for me. Usually she required that I wear no underwear, as she wore none, maintaining that it was bad for both of us, that freedom held back our natural selves as the ancients had understood passion, openly and without guilt. But today she had given me underwear. It was special underwear though, more a kind of belted harness than proper underwear, tiny neat stitches in black linen and leather holding the straps. I was unsure as to what to do with it, but managed as best I could. After one last check in the mirror to make certain I hadn't mis-buttoned anything, I went downstairs.
Breakfast was nourishing but quick, she said we had a lot of driving to do. I asked her where we were going but she just smiled. I asked what luggage we were taking and she smiled a little wider. "You won't need luggage, my dear boy."
Before we went out the door she held me back for a moment. "I need to check you, nephew. Take down your trousers."
She sat in a chair by the clothes rack and watched as I unbuckled my belt and lowered my trousers.
"Had a little trouble figuring out what to do?"
I nodded. "I've never seen anything like this."
She smiled. "I'm not surprised, I made them especially for you."