A month had passed since my "incident" with my mother. Contrary to what I had hoped, I began to discover that my carnal interest in her was only getting stronger. I found myself staring at her crossed legs every morning at breakfast, sometimes dropping my napkin just to take a longer, lingering look. Practically every night, before I went to sleep, I was thinking of her as I frantically sought a release. I would pause every time I passed her bedroom door, glancing in to see if by some chance she was dressing or undressing. I couldn't get it out of my head. I even voluntarily helped out with my own torture -- I knew she was trying to catch the eye of her boss, so I was suggesting shorter skirts, more high heels, tighter shirts. While it added to my fantasy life, I was still wracked with guilt and shame every time I thought of her that way.
I even started initiating more physical contact between us, brushing up against her coming through doorways, leaning into her while stretching past her to grab something off the counter I didn't need, squeezing her hip when she gave me a goodbye kiss on the cheek as she left for work. Growing up, I had given her foot massages every now and again, which is probably where I grew to relish the feel of nylon. Now, I was giving her at least 3 a week, passing it off as just something nice to do for her since I wasn't paying rent -- her on the couch, watching TV, me kneeling at the foot. I loved the feeling of her foot, still in her nylons after work, running my hands over her calf as I massaged them as well, surreptitiously keeping my eyes peeled for a flash up her skirt. Every moan of pleasure she gave added to the rock-hard pressure I felt, and when I was done I always needed to excuse myself and go into the bathroom for relief. I hated myself, after, and would vow that it was over, I wasn't doing it or thinking of it again, but a couple of days later, I was back at it. Nothing more happened for a while, but I wouldn't be disappointed long.
It was a Friday night, and Mom had already told me she was going out that night with Donna -- some restaurant/bar had dancing after 9 pm, and they wanted to check it out. She mentioned something about her boss maybe dropping by there, so I knew she was going to go all-out tonight. My mind had kept thinking about it all day, just imagining what she'd look like, imagining some man pressing up against her, imagining myself pressing up against her -- it was a wonder I could get any work done. By the time I got home, I was a horny wreck. I did anything I could to take my mind off of her -- work out, watch TV, listen to music, whatever -- but my brain kept right on going back. I couldn't take it any more; I needed some kind of relief, some release of pressure. I knew Mom was going to be home late, and so I went into her room.
It was neat, everything put away -- as always. I looked at the bed where a month ago I had knelt over her body and came all over her ass and legs. In my mind's eye, I wasn't just pleasuring myself; instead, I was kneeling between her spread legs with my face buried in her crotch, licking her into a frenzy. My heart rate started to pick up even faster. A minute later I found myself looking through the clothes in the closet, stroking the fabric of the skirts, running my fingers over the silky fronts of her blouses. I came across some lingerie hanging up, teddies and the like. I paused over each one, imagining her in them, her nipples poking through the lacy top of the blue one, the curve of her ass cheeks hanging just below the hem of the peach one. The last item was a corset, red and black, with garters for stockings dangling from the bottom.
I pictured my mother cinched into it, freckled breasts nearly spilling out of the top, strutting around in black stockings and stiletto heels. I could feel her pressing into me, soft lips brushing mine while my hands slid down her back and cupped her ass cheeks, finally pushing her down onto the bed and entering her while she hooked her nyloned legs around my waist. I wanted her so badly at that moment, that had she been home, I have no idea what would have happened, what I may have done. I came out of it, flustered, hot, and suddenly ashamed. I quickly left the closet, meaning to try to get a hold of myself -- probably in more ways than one -- when I saw her dresser. Having just looked through all of her clothes, there was only one other thing to see, that I suddenly HAD to see. Still red-faced with shame, I walked over and began going through my mother's panty drawer.
The front of the drawer had what would be typical for a woman in her forties -- plain white cotton, nothing interesting or racy. I was surprised by what was behind and under them. Black, red, and pink, lacy, silky, and see-through, high-cut, low-rider, and even some thongs. The variety and numbers surprised me -- despite her abundant sexiness, I was naΓ―ve enough to think that she was too conservative for what I was seeing. I was rapidly learning better. As I looked through them all, I realized that there were no stockings or pantyhose to be found, and I moved onto the next drawer.
If I was surprised before, I was shocked now. The entire drawer was full of nylon hosiery, so much that it could barely be opened or shut. Black, taupe, nude, control top, sheer-to-waist, thigh-high stay-ups, stockings -- it was a sea of nylon. I looked through, counting in my head, stopping when I reached twenty and wasn't even halfway done. Slowly the thought began to dawn on me -- was my mother as into nylons as I was? Why else would she own so many pairs, wear them nearly every day? I had no real way of knowing for sure, but I clung to the thought as I became more and more aroused by it. My hands were still idly moving through the nylons, and something caught my eye long enough to break through my fevered thoughts. Far in the back, tucked into the corner, I saw a pair of pantyhose that looked a little different. Grabbing them, I saw what was different: they were crotchless.