First Story...Please, share your thoughts good or bad...
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My life has always been complicated. My mother married three times, before I was fourteen and now she has left again this time she didn't take me. It has been six months since the last time I saw her. She left in the middle of the night leaving me here with her fourth husband and my stepbrother. I actually thought this time she was going to stay. They were married almost four years and she seemed happy for the first time in my life I had a stable home and she ruined it. I have spent the last six months praying that Jacob wouldn't kick me out, since he no longer had to keep me. I was eighteen as of today and that made me even more nervous. I was an adult now, would he make me leave?
I was cooking supper as the tears rolled down my face. What would I do if Jacob told me to get out, where would I go? I was so caught up inside my head that I didn't hear someone approaching. "You shouldn't cry over her." I jumped startled.
"Jesus Jacob, you scared me." I said as I threw my hand over my exploding heart.
"Sorry, I've been hearing you cry a lot. I'm worried about you." Jacob stepped close and pushed a piece of my unruly hair behind my ear. Jacob was thirty-seven with pale blue eyes that made my heart lurch. His short cropped dark hair and dimples made him look a lot younger. Shit, I had to stop this. My attraction to my step-father was so not right.
"She has put you through enough in your life. I don't think she deserves your tears." Speaking softly, he wipes a salty tear from my face. Damn it why does he have to be so sweet. I wish he wasn't so nice, maybe then the thoughts that kept me up at night would go away.
"I haven't been crying over her, not really." He raised an eyebrow at me in disbelief. I was scared to talk to him, scared of what he would say if I reminded him that I wasn't his responsibility. I took a deep breath and made my decision it was better to know now. I lowered my head staring at my bare feet. "I'm scared."
The harder I try to keep my emotions in check the worse I failed and failed miserably. He placed his hand under my chin, forcing me to look up into his eyes. "I want let her hurt you again." His soft-spoken words broke what little control I had left and I threw my arms around him hugging him tightly.
"I thought you would make me leave. I was scared that I would be homeless and have nowhere to go." I sobbed into his chest. His arms tightened around my waist pressing my breast to his hard chiseled chest.
He raised his hand to my head rubbing my hair softly. "Oh baby girl is that why you have been so upset?" I didn't trust my words so I just nodded into his hard chest.
He sighed still softly running his hands through my long red hair. "I wish you would have said something sooner. I thought you were sad that she left. I've been trying to give you time to get through her leaving." His hand stopped its soft caress and he took a deep breath as if considering his next words carefully. "I probably shouldn't say this, but..." He paused momentarily his silence making me nervous. "I wouldn't have let her take you if she tried. How would Cameron and I survive without you here? I am not sure we could live off of canned beans and crackers for long." He chuckled causing his hard chest to move up and down against my head.
I felt guilty here I was crying over her leaving me, she had left him to. He must be torn to pieces and yet here he stands trying to console me. "I am sorry I know her leaving is hard on you. I will try my best to do whatever I can around the house to pick up her not being here."
He released his hold of my waist and took a step back bringing his hands to rest at the side of my face. He ran his right thumb across my cheek bone as he stared intently at me. "You have been the one taking care of us for the last four years Macie, not your mother. You cook, you clean, you make sure Cameron and I have clean clothes not your mother that was all you." He shook his head, taking step back as if clearing his head. "If it hadn't been for you I would have made her leave years ago. It would have killed me not to see you every day. I let her stay she knew I wasn't happy and she tried for a while to change that, in the end she got tired of trying and left."
"You seemed happy, I could always hear you two going at it and I just thought..." I stopped mid sentence realizing what I had said "Oh God I know that it is wrong but after that first time I saw yall together I couldn't help but..." I threw my hand over my mouth to stop the onslaught of my confessions. I couldn't believe that I had told him that. I didn't want to see the look of disgust that I knew was surely on his face. I quickly turned around facing the stove. I needed to distract myself from the humility of this whole situation.
I felt him as he stepped up behind me he pressed the front of his body to my back and I stiffened immediately. I could feel the erection pressing firmly into the upper part of my ass. It took everything in me to hold still and not rotate my hips to see if I was feeling what I thought. He leaned forward causing his erection to move with him and placed a sweet kiss on the top of my head. He wrapped one strong arm around my waist and gently removed my feet from solid ground, slowly spinning me to face away from the stove.
"You have had a rough few months why don't you let me finish cooking tonight."
"No, I need to do this. Please, let me take care of you and Cameron. This is what I can do to help, let me please." I begged, I needed him to keep me around. I needed them to need me so much that they wouldn't dream of kicking me out. He said himself that they would basically starve without me here; I needed him to continue thinking that.
"I know baby girl, just for tonight I could take care of you yeah." His words were a whisper spoken so softly in my ear that the warmth I felt from his breath sent shivers to my toes and tingles to the tips of my fingers. Oh god, I wanted to crawl under the cabinets as I felt my nipples harden under my tight fitted tank top. There was no way he wouldn't notice nipples hard enough to cut glass through a worn out sports bra and white tank. If he knew the nasty thoughts that ran through my head about him while I masturbated he would have me committed. I need to get this under control before I blew everything like my slut of a mother. I was no slut. I have never let a boy pass second base and until I knew the person really loved me they would never get it.
That single thought cleared my head momentarily before filling it with sadness. I wasn't going to be a slut like my mother but I would probably never find a man who really loved me and that made us more alike than I ever wanted to admit.
"Please, I need this. I enjoy taking care of the cooking and cleaning it makes me feel needed feel wanted. I need to feel those things." I said, wrapped tightly in his arms my back still pressed firmly against his glorious front.
He sighed, "Damn baby girl, if you only knew." He said before pressing a soft kiss to my cheek. I expected him to set me back to my feet, not to feel his nose glide softly down the side of my face to bury into my neck. He lifted slightly kissing a trial down the soft side of my neck. I tried to push down the moan that crept up my throat, but he chose that moment to straighten from my neck, lowering my body to the floor. I couldn't stop the sound as my soft cotton shorts felt his hard length slide over my ass. The second his warm hands made contact with the bare skin on my lower stomach I lost all thought, grinding my ass back into his rather large cock.
If I hadn't heard the footsteps I wasn't sure what I would have done. Oh my god, I was so embarrassed and ashamed he had tried to console me. I was all but leaking the evidence of my arousal on the kitchen floor. "Hey dad" Cameron said, with a smile before turning to me "Hey Mace". I quickly stepped forward two steps, so that the object of all my wet dreams wasn't poking me in the ass.