** All characters portrayed in this story involved in any kind of sexual act are 18 years of age or older. **
Note: This is a work of pure fiction. Any persons, places or events that may seem familiar are purely by coincidence.
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The sound, frogs croaking and of millions of crickets tuning up their legs for the same night time symphony that is played on most every night out here by the big pond. The occasional sound of a bird or two calling as they flit about the cattails before settling in for the night was familiar too. So peaceful out here. Out where the skies open up and there are no street lights or neon signs advertising anything and everything. The heavens alight with the entire milky way and sometimes the moon in one phase or another. This was a safe haven for so many years. Now it just seemed like a memory really, even with the frogs and the crickets and other familiar sounds.
The long neck bottle had long since lost its chill even if the contents were only half gone. It seemed like a good idea earlier, to grab a few beers and drive out to the big pond and drop the tailgate and sit a spell. To watch the sunset over the water and welcome in the night. The feel of the rusty tailgate under me, the creaky sounds the old truck made when I sat down or moved any at all really. Yeah, it was a good idea... until reality set in, and the memories came calling. Oh sure, some memories were good, so many good times spent here at this place, growing up. But we did grow up. Grow up and grow apart. Life can really be fucked up sometimes. Ours definitely were, thought Tom.
Tipping the bottle over and watching the lukewarm contents pour out into the grass at the edge of the pond... until it was only a sad slow drip or two. Too often that same elixir had deadened the pain, pushed it aside so that it could be forgotten, if only for a little while. It made it easier to do things that were hard to do when the mind wasn't fogged with alcohol, like forget and pretend. Pretend that what happened hadn't happened, that it was all just imagination or a bad dream. Yeah... but it was neither, it was all true and too real to keep pushing away and forgetting. Sobriety, like the sunrise of the new day always brought back the clarity and the pain.
Tom drew back his arm as if to throw the empty bottle into the pond. He took a heavy breath and sighed, and instead half turned on the tailgate and dropped the bottle into a wooden box in the bed of the old pick-up truck. The empty bottle clinked against the two other empties that had been drunk earlier. Some things seem to stick with us, like the old man's declarations of keeping the place clean and tidy. The old farm still looked good even after so many years of neglect. Sure, there could be work done like cleaning up the fence rows and knocking down some weeds and tall grass around the barn and the outbuildings. The old house was still in good shape mostly though. Of course, it was lived in until the old man died. If you can call that living.
The word that the doctors gave was that the old man had died from the cancer, it ate him up on the inside and finally the shell just gave up and he stopped living. Tom knew there was far more to it than that simple explanation though. Yes, the old man was eaten up on the inside but the cancer was barely a whisper compared to the secrets that he had kept for so many years. Secrets, some of which Tom was only learning of now that the old man was dead and gone. Some that had rocked Tom to the core and made him rethink his entire world and beliefs... and the events of his life leading up to this point. So many things in the past could have been... would have been... different. Life could have been so much easier and happier. If only he had known then what he knew now. The pain was still there, the past would not change.
Turning back around to resume his statue like perch on the tailgate, Tom gazed off across the water of the big pond. He wasn't seeing the ripples on the water, or the shooting star reflected in surface of the water. Tom was seeing the past, better times when life was simpler as a child. All of the world was wonder and exciting to explore.
"Aint Deeny I'm hungry!" little Tommy whined as he sat and fidgeted on the uncomfortable wooden pew of the little old country church.
The little old country church was sweltering that day. Tommy tugged again at the tight collar trying to loosen the little red necktie that his momma had put on him that morning. Momma was all dressed up in a pretty light blue dress. She was upset that she couldn't wear a white dress for some reason but Tommy couldn't figure out why. His aunt Deeny had come to visit today and told him that he was going to go home with her for a day or two cause his momma and Mr. Richard were going to have a celebration at their house. That was something else little Tommy couldn't understand. But aunt Deeny promised him ice cream this weekend so that he was excited about. But going to church was never fun and it was just too hot, and he was hungry.