The recurring dreams had started about five weeks earlier, and although far from unpleasant they were nonetheless somewhat disturbing.
I told myself that they were born out of frustration and more than a little envy of other wives. My husband Jeremiah -- Jerry for short - was loving, generous and attentive, except for one aspect. He had never been very demonstrative physically, and there was often quite some time between encounters. My own needs remained undiminished, and for the most part unsatisfied, with the result that I was filled with overwhelming gratitude after each of our brief, rarely more than once a month lovemaking encounters. It wasn't that he didn't like sex -- it just seemed to embarrass him.
He had been born into a strict puritanical sect, which preached that copulation was for procreation only, and for a man to impose himself on to his wife purely for pleasure was a matter of deepest shame. When Jerry and I met and fell in love, he was forbidden to see me but he rebelled and was ostracised. We married as soon as we could arrange it, but although he escaped the sect, he could not escape the effects of a lifetime of conditioning. Our wedding night was awkward for us both, but after much fumbling and many false starts we managed to give each other our virginities. The first months of our marriage were sheer bliss. Due to his background he was reserved about revealing himself, but I was under no such restraint, and scarcely an hour passed when I wasn't unashamedly spreading my pussy for him to fill. For several months it was as though I had died and gone to Heaven as we fucked joyfully at every opportunity.
Everything changed for the worse when I told him I thought I may be pregnant. He became hesitant about undressing in my presence, and frowned disapprovingly if I showed my body, although he continued to fuck me several times a day until my pregnancy was confirmed. After the birth of Alex, the physical side of our lovemaking began to taper off, although he still remained as attentive and loving as ever in all other ways. There was a brief revival when our son was a year old, when for about three or four months we again fucked at every opportunity, in an attempt to increase our family, until our efforts proved fruitless.
Over the coming years, as a fast growing Alex took more of my time, I resigned myself to spreading my legs perhaps once a month when Jerry's needs became too strong for him to fight. There were also days in between when my own needs were particularly unbearable. At such times I would wait until Jerry was at work, and Alex was at school, and then sit before the dressing table mirror, watching as I worked my fingers, and sometimes the handle of my hairbrush in and out of my pussy until I obtained some release.
I knew Jerry still had urges at other times, because occasionally I had been woken in the middle of the night by his fingers on my pussy, and the bed shaking as he masturbated. Always more sensitive to his feelings than he was to my needs, rather than embarrass him on such occasions by letting him know I was aware of what he was doing, I waited patiently until he ejaculated and went to sleep, then used my fingers to finish what he started.
My first dream came one afternoon about six months or so after he had last touched me, or I should say after he had last woken me with his furtive nocturnal fumbling.
Our son Alex was a trainee chef and depending on whether he was on morning or afternoon shift, often brought his culinary creations home for my lunch or for dinner. On this particular day he dropped in with a still warm spaghetti bolognese for my lunch, before heading off to afternoon lessons. I sat on the couch, staring unseeingly at the television as I ate, enjoying the spaghetti too much to really notice the slightly bitter after taste. Not for the first time I cursed Jerry's upbringing, and his mental block regarding having sex just for the fun of it. My frustration had almost reached the point where I was seriously considering moving into the spare room, where I would at least have the freedom to give in to my fantasies and openly masturbate to my heart's content.
There had even been times lately when I almost wished he would have a fling with the receptionist at his real estate business, just to bring him out of his mental prison. I had met Alice many times, and I couldn't help but like her. There was an air of innocence about her demeanour, which made me seriously doubt if she was conscious of the effect she had on men. All but Jerry that is. The attractive thirty one year old was one of those rare women who, no matter what she was wearing, or what she was doing, everything about her screamed "Fuck me!" Not that I had any reason to believe she acted on it, but I would have welcomed it if she had seduced Jerry, if it brought him out of his shell.
I put the empty food container aside and sat back with my eyes closed, picturing Alice spread out across her reception desk, her panties around one ankle as my husband joyfully drove his cock into her.
I must have dozed off, because that's when my dreams started.
A faceless but vaguely familiar figure was sitting beside me on the couch, fondling my breasts whilst his other hand raised the hem of my skirt. My legs parted willingly to his touch as his fingers eased aside my panties and slipped into my neglected pussy, thrusting, twisting, coaxing out my pent up juices. This was no furtive guilty fumbling, far from it. The anonymous fingers thrust confidently, the thumb rubbing my clit and bringing on a blinding orgasm, enhanced by warm soft lips on my nipples.
I came awake slowly, and started guiltily as I glanced at the clock in the television cabinet. More than two hours had passed and I could hear music coming from Alex's room. My guilt turned to panic when I realised my breast was exposed, and my fingers were on my pussy. What if he had seen me? The thought filled me with horror, which was tinged with a forbidden thrill at the possibility that my son had witnessed his sleeping mother pleasuring herself with her fingers.
I heard the music grow louder as Alex opened his bedroom door, and I hastily pulled my panties back across my slit and tucked my breast into my bra before straightening my outer clothing. He came down the stairs ad into the living room.
"Hi Mom, enjoy your lunch?"
"Yes thanks," I replied guardedly, hoping the tension didn't show on my face or in my voice.
His smile was totally relaxed, with no indication that he had noticed anything untoward, and I breathed a sigh of relief. "We're doing chicken risotto tomorrow morning," he mentioned. "I can bring some home for you if you like?"
I smiled and nodded. "That would be nice. You're turning into quite a good cook."