I don't think I'm broken. I was just never whole.
I've heard all the names. Frigid. Ice queen. Soulless. Broken bitch. Evil harlot.
That's where I draw the line. I'm not evil. But I pack a hell of a wallop. I conduct social experiments, for my own pleasure. One name probably describes me better than any other: Temptress. That's what I do. I apply pressure and observe the consequences. I hunt and when I find prey, I enjoy watching them dangling at the end of the hook. I mean, I still feel pleasure. I'm not entirely full of self-loathing. I just worry about the content of what I find pleasurable. The suffering of others, when it is deserved, hits me differently. I'm self-aware enough to know that I get off on it, but I still don't understand why.
Sexually, I guess I'm fairly liberated. My open mind allows for some pretty wild experiences, but I'm still bereft of real feelings and real emotions. I know that I'm different from most 21 year old girls. Most of them fear me. They don't understand what I am. That part of the brain or the heart that makes other girls fall for guys and devote themselves to being a good girlfriend, well, that part never arrived upon delivery.
Take this cock that I'm sucking right now, for example. It belongs to another woman, a woman I've known my entire life. His wife, Mrs Appleston, has always been good to me. She is the friendly neighbor lady that baked cookies for me on Saturdays and invited me and my friends to gobble them down. Now I gobble on Mr Appleston. He was easy. I was walking by trying to figure out a way to escape the heat of the day, and there he was! I helped him carry his groceries inside his air conditioned house and offered him a blow job. I wanted to extend my visit long enough to cool down. He couldn't get his pants dropped fast enough. I rarely get turned down. It could be my perfect cock sucking lips, or maybe because I'm very good at oral, or because I've got a stacked body with big bouncy boobs and an angel face framed with golden hair. I'm a tight package at just over 5 feet, but I fuck like someone twice my size.
Just as I'm considering where to stick his fairly sizable dick, Mr Appleston surprises me by popping off an unexpected load in my mouth. I swallow it all. He pats me on the head, as though I'm a good girl.
This pisses me off.
"I'm glad you got off, Mr Appleston, but I really need to cum too." I strip off my tank top and shorts. Mr Appleston's eyes bug out and he begs me to stop.
"Bridget, Mrs Appleston will be home any minute," his urgency is palpable, "And you have to be gone before then."
I slide my fingers along my drenched pussy. Giving head always turns me on, even if I'm not really into the guy. Its the act that empowers me. Mr Appleston burns red as his predicament starts to sink home. If his wife comes home and finds me naked on the couch, he's done.
"Please Bridget! Please."
"You want me to get gone, then get to work." I lift a single finger and point it at my cunt. "This pussy won't eat itself."
He doesn't need to be asked twice. Presented with the solution to his quandary, Mr Appleston dives into me. He proves to be a decent muff licker as he whips me with his tongue as his lips work magic around my clit. I feel the shock waves begin early and build with intensity. I madly flick my nipples and pluck the flesh as I grind my pussy against his face. When I come, I come hard and gush into his gasping mouth. Juice cascades down his face to his chest, soaking his shirt. He looks up like a little boy, proud of his accomplishment and waiting for praise.
"Yes," I pant, "You did good." He beams. "I'll get my things and be out of your hair. But if I get horny later, mind if I stop by?"
The look on his face is priceless. He's horrified. Before he can protest, I say, "Oh god, I'm just kidding! Relax."
I wonder if he's heard rumors. But if he has, why has he let me anywhere near his prick. Hasn't he heard? I'm a home wrecker.
I leave the Appleston's without any drama. Sometimes it happens that way. I'm patient. I know that everything comes full circle. I am always prepared to play the long game.